Here I Stand:
CHAPTER ONE: Why?
AN: Dear readers,
This story includes references to the end of the first season of Fruits Basket. If you are reading the manga then some of this wont make sense. I am sorry but I really cant do anything about it.
If I explained everything then I would be giving away stuff so now I'm really torn. Hope you all enjoy it anyway. Oh, only the first few paragraphs are at all related, everything else is sheer fiction.
I DON'T OWN FRUITS BASKET
Now for the fun part!
Dear Diary,
I fell so stupid writing in this thing, but I need to let it all out. Way too much has been happening to me lately, so I hope this might help.
It all started a few months ago. I was betrayed by my master, the human I have always been closest too. He took of my bracelet in front of Tohru, and showed her my true form. She way so scared. She cried and ran off, and got hurt so bad!
I couldn't believe he would do this to me! He was like a father to me, and he made my only non-related friend afraid of me. I was so mad! And I still am, even if it was a month ago, it hurts.
I know I am the odd one out, the thirteenth of twelve, the cat in the zodiac, but I am still human. Don't I deserve to have friends too? Rat-boy can have Tohru as a friend and I cant?!?!
Everyone says you have to let it out to get over something, but beating the crap out of punching bags then getting your ass handed to you by your cousin don't really help. So now I'm using my words.
I'm really glad no one will ever read this though, because everything I am about to put in here is too personal for just anyone to read.
So back to a few months ago. After getting angry I got over it and Yuki and I managed to get Tohru back, even after all the crap Akito said to her. He is such a asshole, how can anyone feel sorry for him when he's so ruthless?!?!
Well, he told Tohru how we didn't need her and how she should leave and never come back, but Yuki and I convinced her that we needed her our lives would just fall apart. And that is so true its not funny, without her, I'd just go back to hating the world.
So she came back to us, but that was just the beginning. Everything kept going down hill, well, for me that is. A few weeks after the incident Yuki asked Tohru out, telling her that he loved her. She said yes. He was so happy, he walked around smiling for a week.
After that they just got closer, and I felt like I was being pushed away. Shigure thought it was cute and they were both so happy, no one noticed how I felt anymore.
Tohru tries so hard for us, she cooks, cleans, helps us with our problems, and is always self-conscious, but with Yuki and her taken the next step, I was pushed back.
It hurt to be unnoticed, but I figured since Yuki found someone, maybe I could too. Boy, was I stupid. Tohru knows about the curse, and she does fine, but she's so special, how could I ever find anyone as good as her. If only I could have seen all the crap coming my way.
I decided I should at least try to make friends. So I talked to Tohru's friends and guys in my class and tried not to bite their heads of for a while. It was really nice being a part of the crowd. And for a little while it worked. Then I got a few new problems.
I fell in love. I know how stupid that is, just look at Hatori. But I couldn't help it, every time I looked at her my heart sped up and every time she talked I had to listen, I was drawn to her. And she had no idea. She thought of me as fair teasing game, not a future boyfriend.
It was Ouotani Arisa, one of Tohru's best friends and a competitive, hard core, ex-gangster, Yankee girl. I thought of her as a friend, even if it was a competitive friendship.
She was a sort of outcast too, and I thought maybe she could understand me. And I was right, she understood me perfectly. But I never thought of my impact on her. And for weeks I just watched from a distance, all the way up until three days ago, one of the best days of my life.
It was a beautiful, clear day and I just wanted to be outside, so I went to the roof. The roof of my school is one of my favorite hide outs and I could stay up there forever.
After a few minutes a bunch of kittens decided to join me. I would never admit this but I love kittens, and how they comfort me when I'm sad. That is something only I get to experience. It makes me feel special in a whole different way.
As though she was drawn to me the same way the kittens were, Ouo-san slammed the roof door open and stormed over to with in a foot of where I was sitting. She sat down right next to me and glared off at the sky.
It was pretty obvious something was wrong. So asked her what was up. She said her teacher had gotten mad at her for forgetting her homework, which usually did nothing to her, but her mom had yelled at her that morning and the teacher yelling made her remember all the horrible stuff she had said to her mom.
Then to my great surprise, She started to cry into her hands, and lean on me. For a second I forgot who I was, what I was, and I put my hand on her head and ran my fingers through her hair, telling her it would all be fine.
After five minutes if this she stopped crying and looked up at, her head still resting on my shoulder. "Why do you do this to me Kyo-san?" She asked, "You lure me like this and then I fall, hook ,line, and sinker. Or do you not even know what your doing?" She asked, smiling in a half hearted way.
"W-What are you talking about Ouo?" I stammered, totally lost.
Then she leaned forward and kissed me, and I just stared at her. She had her eyes closed as she kissed me, and tears started to run down her cheeks again.
"You are so stupid." She said, "You can't even tell when a girls falling in love with you." Then she wiped her eyes, stood up, and left.
And I was left alone with my thoughts. Which have been bugging me the whole weekend.
AN: Hope you like this. Its my second posted story, first diary type story so I really need constructive reviews so I know what you like and don't like.
Arisa-san