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Chapter Five: I hate you- you hate me, we're a hateful family…
Inu-Yasha, Sango, Miroku, Shippo and Kilala stumble into my house. They were here so I could get my stuff, because we're going to the "Well" to spend quality time before I'm pulled into a whirlwind of preparations for my birthday bash- we wouldn't have time to hang out. They stood at the foot of the stairs as my mother's and my shrieking and groans creep down- my mother and I arguing again. Soon the words of the screaming are very clear- "HOW DARE YOU DO THIS! YOU DO IT TO SPITE ME THAT'S WHAT THIS IS! AND JUST BEFORE THE BALL. I WOULDN'T HAVE MINDED HALF AS MUCH IF YOU'D WAITED TILL AFTERWARDS!" "We both know that's not the least bit of the truth mother." my voice is dull and flat.
"MOTHER! MOTHER, IT'S TERRIBLE!" Souta storms through the front door. "YOU KNOW WHAT KAGOME HAS DONE? SHE HAS RUINED MY REPUTATION, THAT'S WHAT!" He was fuming and then charging at me, and Inu-Yasha rushes to block him. "Don't. You. Touch. Her." Inu-Yasha growls through grinding teeth. "UGH! WHATEVER SHE DOES WITH THESE RIFFRAFF, IT SURE STINKS… LIKE MARIJUANA, WEED, UGH!" Souta glares with just as much force. "You've gotten my sister into using that terrible stuff! Oh, I'll beat the crap outta you for that…" But suddenly Souta is ambushed by an angry sister, and is pinned against the wall. "But what if I chose to by my own accord? Leave me be Souta. Ruined your reputation my ass…" I sigh in disgust and turn to my friends. "Let's get outta here. Don't worry mother," I turn to mother who is still breathing heavily on the stairwell. "I'll do what you say for the ball, I'll be back tomorrow morning for all the preparations and stuff." When I get to the door, I hear my mother's voice… sound calm and small for once. "Okay then dear- perhaps, we can compromise the hair color, with a good style instead then?" I can't help but soften towards my mother for once. "I guess…"
But when I open the door, I get a big surprise… "KIOJI! YOU'RE HERE!" I throw myself into my tall, handsome brother's arms. "Hey, there's my annoying kid sister! And- what did you do to your hair?" He raises his eyebrows and scolds me with a look. "I just hope that wasn't to piss mother off, Kagome. When'd you do all a this?" He is very handsome- he has my eyes and my lips, while Souta's chin and chocolate colored hair. Oddly enough as it was, the three of us look nothing like our parents. "Hey, where's Souta? Ah, there you are," and shocking us all, Souta runs to hug our big brother. "Glad you made it safely," Souta's voice is also warm and pleasant- as opposed to the previous cold and hateful figure he'd been before. "And where's our little slut sister, Kik" Souta and me kick him just then, and motion to my friends. "Ah… never mind. The ball is in two days then Mother?" He calls up the stairs to mother and she straitens herself out.
"Yes dear, I've already arranged for everything. Tomorrow, most of it arrives and is set up. There are still a few things like flowers, last minute decorating, of course. Then we go over our wardrobe, things like that. Your room is ready, Rio will take your things." She motions to the servant at the staircase who comes to take Kioji's things, and Inu-Yasha speaks up. "Uh, who's your sister again?" We siblings exchange glances, and Kioji opens his mouth to explain just as the answer itself bursts through the front door. "MOM, WAIT'LL YOU HEAR WHAT HAPPENED! KAGOME, YOU'RE GOING DOWN! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU HAD THE NERVE TO"- Kikyo Kyosan Higurashi stops in her tracks at the sight of Inu-Yasha and the others, standing with our family. "Eh heh heh heh… Inu-Yasha baby?" Inu-Yasha swears he felt high that second- Kikyo in the Higurashi household is too much.
"Well, sister- care to explain what you're doing with my boyfriend? Are you really that low? Has to have everything, that bitch"- SMACK! Kikyo falls on her butt while my hand freezes in the air, as she stares angrily at me angrily- but it turns out I'm more pissed off. "Shut…up… YOU WHORE! GO BACK TO HELL WHERE YOU BELONG!" "EXCUSE ME? I'M NOT THE ONE PLAYING ROUND WITH MY SISTER'S BOYFRIEND!" Inu-Yasha brakes in, "DAMN IT KIKYO, I'M NOT YOUR FUCKIN' BOYFRIEND! GET OVER IT!" "SHUT YOUR TRAP INU- BABY! THIS ISN'T YOUR FIGHT"- "LIKE HELL IT ISN'T"- "SHUT UP!" Everyone is surprised to see Kilala, hands on her hips and glaring at Kikyo. "Just, like shut it. I want to go now, you guys. I'm going with or without you." "Wait for me!" Sango grabs me and Miroku by the ears and pulls us along, Miroku going "Hey, stoppit! Let go!" (He is used to Sango's torture) and me screeching at the stop of my lungs "OW, OW, OW! LET GO IT HURTS! I'M COMIN'!" "Oh no you're not, you wouldn't leave a chance to beat up Kikyo for a second. Problem is, you don't seem to know she ain't worth it!" Sango pulls us out the door and the rest follow, even my brothers and sister.
"I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU!" Souta has to be pulled back by his shirt collar by Kioji, who also then has to grab Kikyo who screeches the exact same chant. "I HATE YOU TOO YOU ASSHOLES! FILTHY SCUM, WHORE!" Inu-Yasha has to pick me up and shove me and my things in my own truck, he and Miroku putting weight on the doors and making me realize it's stupid to continue. I start up my truck and the others fire up their bikes, but I can't resist flipping them off as I turn around and pass them. This sets my siblings off all over again, and Kioji lets go, winking and waving. "See ya!" I holler out my window as I drive away. I'm sorry I didn't get to see more of Kioji, but I need a break from these assholes first.
I've never had more fun. Miroku and Sesshomaru began a chess tournament for everybody, and Inu-Yasha won against Sesshomaru! Well, I guess Sesshomaru must have been a little brain dead during that match, because he demanded a rematch and won. "Aww come on! I win against you for once and you can't let it alone, can't let me enjoy victory even for a little bit!" Now I'm sitting back to back with Sango, and in front of us Ayame and Rin are sitting as we do their hair. I'm doing Rin's, and it looks pretty good so far- her hair is kind of the same shade as the pink I almost got yesterday, so I use black hair clips. She says she plans to dye her hair gold next, because she likes yellow as much as she does pink. I decide that I like purple and red, and think maybe I'll dye it red someday. So while we are doing hair and Inu-Yasha and Sesshomaru and Miroku are arguing over chess, Shippo and Koga are playing video games and Keade and Kilala… Well, it looks really weird. I think they're practicing yoga or something, pressing against each other and doing weird balance techniques and then… okay, I got it. Unless you are a lesbian, you don't want to know.
It's about nine-thirty and we decide to eat now, then settle down. All the guys offer to go get the food and movies (the staff is out and off work by now) and we all get quiet and do our own stuff. Rin takes to a video game, quiet but furiously pressing all buttons at once while Ayame starts on one of those embroidering projects she does. She's really amazing at it, she creates anything just as beautiful as the embroidery you might find on a queen's gown- believe me, I know as I happen to own one (father spent so much on it. It was from this queen-somebody in Europe and I suspect that is exactly what kind of gown he bought for my ball). Keade and Kilala start reading the same huge book, because now they've proven more than once to me that they read at the exact same pace- if they want to reread something, they read it separately later. Sango falls asleep clutching Miroku's old and worn purple denim coat, which he had to leave with her at her insistence. And me? I look around, making sure no one can see it, before pulling out the sketchbook I bought earlier today. It's not yet more than seven pages full, but I've been drawing like mad. Just quick little sketches, until now when I have the chance to really capture them. I look at all of them for a moment, before settling my eyes on Sango- sleeping so peacefully, clutching her lover's coat and instinctively inhaling the scent with a slight smile on her lips.
Her eyelids are completely relaxed, her skin smooth and creamy, not a single flaw in sight. Her arms cross the coat and hands cling to it, her face resting on the collar and her bangs are amazingly in place. I shade in her hair, and sketch the lower part of her body- a black tee-shirt and baggy black jeans to sleep in, her pale, small feet bare. Peace, peace and love is all that describe this picture. I'm done, and it's only taken me ten minutes to complete it. I think to myself about painting this picture, Sango in the exact same position, but in leaves of all colors and a pale purple sky with snowflakes falling- a world completely made of Sango, as I could imagine her. So I start sketching that- but something that's been nagging at me all day wins over it. I start a fresh page, and it takes a few minutes to completely take over my mind and body. The claws of my passion have locked me inside my body to watch, and I am amazed at what I can do- like the processing of a printer, my hands take the pencil and magically a picture begins appearing, piece by piece. First there is a figure, then a figure of a girl in a long black dress that straps around the neck. I soon recognize myself, and the three added figures as Kioji, Souta and Kikyo. There is a full moon, stars sparkling like diamonds and again, a fall scene is woven around with leaves covering every inch of the ground, and tall, dark bare trees creating a bare-tree forest in the distance.
Inside myself I begin to see we are dancing, Kioji and Souta with long flowing capes and Kikyo and I wearing identical dresses, arms flung out and a leg sticking out the back of my dress. It's finished, and I am unleashed back into control of my body. I quickly stuff the book into my bag, and decide to sleep with my beloved's coat, awaiting his return and hoping somebody would finally capture the sight of me- at peace and in love, not torn apart and in pain as I have always been painted by my brother.
It is ten-thirty when I wake up. As it turns out, Inu-Yasha is sleeping next to me with his stomach pressed against mine and I don't think I'll ever want to get up. He smells sooo good, like the mossy smell of a forest after a hard rain, and I inhale deeply in his neck. It's very soothing, and I start falling asleep again, but my stomach doesn't want me to so it growls loudly enough to wake Inu-Yasha- and I'm startled when he opens his eyes into mine. It's like a sunrise, almost. The light hits and as the pupils and iris expand in the light, they shine like pure gold, bright as honey in the sunlight- and at this moment I realize just how lucky I really am to have someone so beautiful who loves me as much as he does. Somebody up there must really, really love me- besides him… "Hey there, beautiful…"
Okay, this is the part where I drool and hold my hands up in the air- "ALL HAIL INU-YASHA! ALL LOVE INU-YASHA! BWAHAHAHA, INU-YASHA IS ALL MINE! My perfect god…" Gods, if only he knew how perfect he is, how lovely he looks as he half-opens his eyes sleepily and kisses me- and I don't dare close my eyes, for how the hell could I stop looking at him anyway? "Mm… hey…" Okay, enough with the dreaminess... After a bit of struggling and shuffling, I'm lying between his legs with my head on his chest, so he can comb through every strand of my hair while I inhale so much of him that his scent should be gone by now. We could just lie like this forever, just him an' me, together… but turns out we can't, or else the pizza will get cold. Thinking of me, Inu-Yasha has brought some oden, and of himself, of course he has brought ramen, and in his haste had eaten half of it before he'd come to sleep with me. So Sango is licking sauce from Miroku's teeth (I'm still getting used to it- turns out, they used to hate each other and argue- till Inu-Yasha had enough and handcuffed 'em for three weeks. After that, one couldn't sleep, eat or piss for that matter without the other- so Sango moved out of her foster parent's house and in with Miroku, thus the strange physical relationship). Shippo complains that they should get a room, and a confused Miroku says that they already have a room. To this, Sesshomaru and Koga spit pizza accidentally at each other, and soon both are at the other's throats. We pile our plates and sit back down on the couch, and Koga puts in a movie called The Punisher.
It's a really, really sad movie- and when the mother and son get killed… Sango really can't control herself, because it brings back bad memories, and she sobs uncontrollably. Miroku is adamant that we watch something else, and I'm tearing up a little myself so I don't mind when we watch Dumb and Dumber instead. Actually, nobody minds when Koga pokes fun at Miroku for being like Lloyd. "HEY! I can read, y'know…" Miroku who actually looks insulted says hotly, tears coming to his eyes and immediately Koga is apologetic. "Hey, perv- I didn't mean it, can't you take a joke…" and Miroku whirled on him and WHACK! "Hmm, I dunno-, Lloyd would have fallen for that. I guess you're more like Lloyd than I am!" he gives Koga a triumphant look and folds his arms and turns away- but you can tell he's glad Sango's laughing again. The movie is over and everyone sets up his or her bed. Inu-Yasha and me claim the hide-a-bed couch we had been on before, Sango and Miroku take the other and everybody else pulls black velvet futons out around the room. Once everyone is settled, Inu-Yasha is lying between my legs with his face planted in my breasts, which is great for me cause he keeps nuzzling and inhaling them. "Hey! Don't get carried away with that…" it's starting to tickle, and he looks up at me with a silly grin. "Hehehe, why not?" Then I look down at him evilly.
"Oh, I don't know…" I look away mischievously, fingering his ears. His eyes widen, and he shakes his head smiling. "Don't you do that, I'm warning you right now, you have no idea what that does to me…" "Let's find out then, shall we?" I start rubbing the tips of his ears at first, which makes his legs twitch. Then I rub hard at the bases of them, and he actually starts purring! "Ooh, I've found a weak spot, haven't I?" But then his hold becomes tighter and he begins sucking on my neck, which makes me giggle. "Hey-ey…" and finally he starts grinding into me, and in all the excitement I can't breathe- it feels really good, but I'm really too tired to do anything and here we are with the others and TWHACK! Suddenly Inu-Yasha is unconscious in my arms, and Sesshomaru stands laughing over us. "You on the pill, Kagome?" I shake my head, sooo lost now and he sighs. I suggest you be, before you try that again. As far as I know, that's the most arousing spot for you to touch!" He walks back to his futon, next to Rin and they snuggle. Arousing, huh? I smile to myself, and simply lie there because Inu-Yasha's too heavy to move. After a while, I think I am the only one awake still- and I can't help it, I really want to sing. Goddamn it, I get these stupid urges to do something right out of the blue, and sometimes, I get in the mood to sing- I've been told I have a lovely voice. But… maybe if I sing real quietly, only Inu-Yasha will hear it and think he dreamt it…
"Here I go again, slipping further awayLetting go again, of what keeps me in place
I like it here, but it scares me to death
There is nothing here…"
"Light is beautiful,
A little darker than life
And you are wonderful,
But this moment is mine…"
"All of this dust,
All of this past,
All of this over and gone
And never coming back…
All of this forgotten, but not by me."
"I find comfort here,
Cause I know what is lost
Hope is always fear,
For the pain that may cost
And I must search for a reason, to go on
And I've tried and I've tried
But it's taking me so long…
I might be better off, closing my eyes…
And god will come lookin' for me…
In behind…"
"All of this dust, all of this past.
All of this over and gone and never
Coming back again…
All of this forgotten, but not by me…
"All of this dust, all of this past.
All of this over and gone and never
Coming back again…
All of this forgotten, but not by me…"
I can see myself; I look peaceful and pale
But underneath I can barely inhale…
I can hear myself singing that song,
Over and over until it belongs…
To me…"
It's my favorite song currently, from Underworld the soundtrack- it's slow and beautiful, like half the other songs on the CD. The other half is… well, a whole lot of head banging and screaming, but I like it. But this kind of slow song- it's the kind of song that makes you think of the end of the world… all is lost, you have nothing. When I see Inu-Yasha is still asleep, I sing a little of another one- Rocket Collecting.
"Rocke, collecting dusthidden from old memories
bathed in outrage and rust,
waiting for you and me
to own it…
Watch you, as you douse the ceiling
Light up all the evil dreams until
They ignite screaming into the night,
And they run away clean…"
"Last chance of standing in the,
sweet sunlight…
and I've turned into this smiling, smiling monster
as I watch the walls descend, as I watch the walls descend like,
stars…"
"Last chance of standing in the…sweet sunlight…
and I've turned into this smiling, smiling monster
as I watch the walls descend, as I watch the walls descend like, stars…"
I can't sing anymore… I'm too tired, and I close my eyes and am pulled into unconsciousness. But not before I see his eyes are open, and he's smiling at me- Inu-Yasha.
Ha, I've finally updated this chapter! Look out for next chapter, "Lies- We're Not So Different"! God I'm feeling really crazy right now! I'm Suga' high!
Inu-Yasha: Uh… that's as far as you let us get!
Me: Hey, I am going to have her promise to spend a whole day with just you, aren't I?
Inu-Yasha: Yeah, but that doesn't mean you can tease me with her! GGRRRRRRRRRRRR…
Me: Aww, poor puppy… cute little puppy… Besides, you is too little and too cute a puppy to know about sex…
Inu-Yasha: AAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH! BARK! WOOF WOOF WOOF!
Me: ACK! HE BARKS! RUN AWAAAAYYY! Ooookaaayy, REVIEW!