Here is the long awaited Chapter 13. Thanks to all the reviewers who gave me suggestions and waited so patiently for me to update. With College and me getting a job I haven't had time to update but I would never forget about my faithful reviewers. So for your reading pleasure here is chapter 13.

Pony's POV

"It has been about a month since I first started seeing Dr. Heart, my life has been able to get better each day. Of course I still have off days where I think about Johnny and Dallas and I feel like I was still to blame for their death. I open up to Dr. Heart and tell her about these feelings I think it was two weeks now that I told her about it."

Flashback Dr. Heart's Office two weeks ago:

"Well Pony how are we feeling today"? Dr. Heart asked from her desk smiling as always.

"I've been kind of sad lately Dr. Heart." Ponyboy said looking down at his shoes.

"Do you want to talk about it Pony?" Dr. Heart asked concerned. Ponyboy still looked down like he was ashamed because he felt like he was making progress coming here and, now he was in a slump again.

"You don't have to be ashamed about it Pony whatever's bothering you, you can tell me. I know you've been doing well but you know to heal completely you have to let out all your feelings the good and the bad. I'm not going to judge you and whatever you say will be held in complete confidence between us. Do you understand Pony?" Dr. Heart said kindly.

"I trust you Dr. Heart it's just that lately I've been thinking about my friends Johnny and Dallas you know the ones I told you about who died 4 months ago. Well I've just been in that train of though where I feel as though I had something to do with their deaths."

Dr. Heart who had been listening to Pony intently nodded and began to speak. "It's completely normal for you Pony to have those feelings because of how you witnessed them die. But you must understand that's it not your fault at all. Hearing you tell me about how you lost your parents in that tragic auto accident and how your friend Johnny was badly burned in that fire and how right after that your other friend Dallas died from a gunshot wound and you had no time to get over the loss of one person that another happened. That would be a lot of pain for anyone to handle and come out of it strong. You know what I've noticed out of you Pony by working with you and talking to you?" Dr. Heart asked.

"What" Pony asked shaking his head waiting for an answer?

"I've noticed that you are a very strong willed person." Dr. Heart answered with a smile.

"What do you mean?" Pony asked tilting his head in confusion."

"I mean that just by me listening to you talk I can tell you're a very smart deep young man I can see how you get all those good grades." Dr. Heart said and Ponyboy blushed and held back a smile as Dr. Heart continued.

"I've worked with a lot of people just like you but the only difference is you can take the pain and they couldn't.

"You really think so Dr. Heart?" Pony asked amazed at how well she understood him.

"Yes without a doubt I do that's where the strength comes in. The only problem you have Ponyboy is hiding your feelings instead of letting them out. You use your body as a bottle that you keep all your feelings inside where they build up over time until you can't take anymore and that's where the nightmares come in. It's your conscious playing these feelings out in dream form." Dr. Heart explained.

Ponyboy sat there amazed "Dr. Heart is that the reasons for my dreams and my form of depression?" Ponyboy asked.

"Yes, that's exactly why." Dr. Heart said.

"You mean, I'm not a crazy person?" Ponyboy asked.

Dr. Heart laughed at Ponyboy's expression but then turned serious. "Ponyboy by no means are you crazy. I know that Dr. Sharp told you that but we know he turned out to be a con artist right?"

"Yeah," Ponyboy nodded in agreement.

"Well there you go. Ponyboy the reason I had you keep the journal was because I wanted you to practice writing and expressing your feelings, since you were going to be a writer. How did you feel writing your feelings down as you felt them?" Dr. Heart asked.

Pony thought for a moment and then said "It made me feel better actually." Ponyboy smiled.

"See I told you it would work. Now you need to express your feelings vocally it will help you get through your problems." Dr. Heart said smiling. "I know it will be hard at first but it will make you feel better about yourself." Ponyboy smiled at her and Dr. Heart looked at her watch and noticed the time. "Well its 5:00 our session is up Ponyboy." Dr. Heart said.

"Aw already" Ponyboy said groaning.

"Yes, unfortunately but you can see me same time same place next week." Dr Heart said smiling.

"Well, I'll see you later Dr. Heart." Ponyboy said as he was getting up. "Oh, Dr. Heart did you want to see my composition I wrote for my English class?" Ponyboy asked.

"Oh yes I almost forgot to ask you for it. Are you sure you want me to read it?" Dr. Heart asked taking the composition from his hand.

"Usually I don't let people read my writing because I think they won't understand what I'm trying to say. But I think you know me well enough." Ponyboy said smiling.

"Thank you Ponyboy." Dr. Heart said smiling at the compliment.

"Well, I better be going, Darry's probably waiting for me, see you next session." Ponyboy said walking to the door

"See you Ponyboy." Dr. Heart said smiling.

End of Flashback

Pony's P.O.V.

"So that's what last session with Dr. Heart was like. She is really starting to helping me understand the person I really am and I feel better about it. I'm starting to get along with my brothers more and the gang, I apologized to Two- Bit about snapping at him and he completely understood. Right now I'm going to see a movie at the movie house. Can you believe it? I haven't seen a movie in a long time, you know who's idea it was Darry's. He insisted that I go and that he would pick me up. So here I am walking inside the movie house to see the new Paul Newman movie (I like his movies so much!) I walk inside and take a seat. As the lights start to dim I notice this very attractive girl come up to me I smiled.

"Is this seat taken?" She asked.

I shook my head and she sat down. She was so pretty she had blonde hair and blue green eyes that sparkled every time she smiled. I introduced myself.

"My name is Ponyboy. Nice to meet you." She looked at me and smiled and said my name is Courtney Brown I think I've seen you around school.

"Oh Yeah I said a little confused.

"Yeah, I'm in your English and Science class."

"Then it dawned on me. Yeah I remember you had the beautiful poem in Mr. Syme's class the other day.

She kinda smiled and I could tell she was blushing. "You really think so." She asked.

"Yes, I do." I said and I meant it.

"So how do you like it at Will Rogers High?" I asked.

"Well It's only been my first week and no one's really showed me around." She said.

"Oh, Well how about Monday I can show you around if you like?" I was kinda nervous at her response cause she looked the Socy type.

"I'd like that a lot thank you Ponyboy." She said and smiled at me.

"I smiled back at her and we both settled down for the movie, I think I was starting to like Courtney."

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