Author's notes: Okay, so I'm insanely lazy and will no long be updating this story over here at fanfitiondotnet. All new updates can be found at Roswell Fanatics.

Filling the Space

"Okay, let me get this straight. You are still desperately in love with Max, he still doesn't know the truth about you and Kyle and you actually like Serena, Max's wife." Tess asked, a frown marring her features as she study Liz. "Did we slip into some crazy soap opera? You do realize that those are three problems that you might not be able to fix."

"I know," Liz sighed. "But I can't help it. Its Max, its always been Max and its always going to be Max. He is the love of my life."

"Then you can't let him slip away again. You need to tell him what really happened that night with Kyle," Tess stated before she added. "You need to tell someone what really happened that night. Its been three years, Liz and no one is really quite sure what happened. I know that you didn't sleep with Kyle, I just don't understand why you pretended to. None of it makes sense."

Liz looked a way, unable to meet Tess's questioning gaze. She had kept her promise to Future Max and never told anyone about his visit. She had ended up ruining her chances for happiness but she had kept her word.

It was almost ironic. She had saved the world and in the process destroyed her own.

"So we're still avoiding that topic." Tess said softly. "You wanna talk about Serena? It is a little twisted that you like the woman that is standing in the way of you and Max."

"I can't help it. She's not as easy to hate as you were." Liz joked although there was a certain amount of truth behind it.

"Thanks," Tess said dryly with a roll of her eyes. "But I understand what you mean. When I met Serena, I thought that…"

"Wait, when did you meet Serena?" Liz asked with a frown.

"In California. It was right after I found out I was pregnant and I thought that there was something between you and Kyle." Tess explained. "Max and I had just started to become friends before he left and I needed someone to talk to. I went all the way to California and Max wasn't even there but Serena was and happily listened to all my bitching."

"So you knew that Max was seeing Serena and you never said anything." Liz said, the hurt evidently in her voice.

"No! Serena told me that they were friends and nothing more." Tess stated quickly.

Liz sighed. "I wish that they were still friends and nothing more but I guess that's gonna be my role from now on."

"You're young, free and single. Go out and have some fun." Tess ordered. "Call up that Adrian guy you were seeing last year. You two got pretty hot and heavy for a while didn't you?"

There was another sigh from Liz as she thought about Adrian. He had been another one of her rebound guys and the complete opposite from Max in everyway possible. He had been fun and sexy until Liz realized that she was just going through the motions, she hadn't loved him, she could have never loved him and it had been wrong it let it go any further.

This time it was Tess's turn to sigh when Liz failed to reply. "Cheer up, Liz. Maybe you're grow to hate her like you grew to like me."

Before Liz could even think of a reply, Kyle burst into the room with Nathan and Lucas. The calming atmosphere instantly disappeared and was replaced by chaos as the blue eyed blonde haired twins scrambled onto the couch, demanding everyone's full attention.

"Momma, Momma. Momma!" They shouted together, bouncing on the couch with unadulterated delight. At two and half years old, Nathan and Lucas were a bundle of energy and in Liz's opinion the most adorable kids in the whole of New Mexico.

"Hey babies," Tess said somehow managing to get them to stop bouncing long enough to hug them. "Hello Husband,"

"Hello Wife," Kyle greeted Tess with a kiss before he grinned at Liz. "Hey Liz, you staying for lunch?"

"No, I've got plans." Liz said as glanced at her watch. She was meant to be meeting Max and Serena for lunch at The Crashdown. "And I'm gonna be late if I don't leave now."

"Think about what I said, okay?" Tess ordered. "And remember, it could be a hell of a lot worse."

As Liz walked to her car, she wondered how it could possible be any worse.

"So what's she like in bed? She must be pretty damn amazing if you married her."

"I'm not answering that." Max said, flushing with embarrassment. Serena and sex were not two subjects that Max liked to link; she was after all his best friend and there were lines that weren't meant to be crossed. Ever.

"You still pulling that 'sensitive guy' crap." Michael stated more then asked with a roll of his eyes. "I thought so. Some things never change."

"I don't know how Maria puts up with you." Max muttered.

Michael smirked, "People do crazy things for love. I would have thought you would know all about that."

At that moment Liz walked into The Crashdown causing Max's heart to skip a beat. He couldn't help but remember all the crazy and romantic things he had done when he had had her love. He would have done anything to make her happy. He would have done anything for a single smile from her. She had the most beautiful smile.

She was still so beautiful that it made him ache painfully with longing. She waved at him before heading towards Serena, who was sat up at the counter talking to Alex.

For the last three years, he had spent most of his time avoiding the questions that now haunted his thoughts. Who made her smile now? Was there another guy that she loved with all her heart?

"Are you going to ask or what?" Michael asked somewhat abruptly as if he could read Max's turmoil filled thoughts.

"Ask what?" Max asked, unable to voice that questions that filled his heart.

Michael rolled his eyes and asked. "You wanna know the 101 on Liz's love life since you've been away?"

Max shook his head in denial. "I'm married."

Ignoring Max's comment, Michael leaned forward. "In the last three years there have been four guys in Liz's life. Sean Deluca, Mark, Adrian and Luke. You want the lowdown? Maria never stops her yapping so I can give you all the details."

Max didn't say a word but Michael needed little encouragement.

"Her and Sean dated for two months about six months after you left before deciding that they were better off as friends. Mark and Luke were four dates each while Adrian made it to six months."

"Adrian?"

Michael nodded, "He was a jackass. He hated hockey. I mean, what's up with that?"

"Why did they break up?" Max asked. "I guessing it wasn't because of his lack of interest in hockey."

"I don't know but that ended a few months ago and she's been single ever since." Michael shrugged. "But none of that really matters, does it? You're married to the supermodel over there, right?"

"Right." Max agreed. "And I'm happy."

And not for the first time in three years, Max wondered how much of his happiness was a lie.