Okay, so the last chap wasn't so great…. sweat drop I can do better it's just I've been under a lot of stress. AFF took all my stories off the net…. which was really rude…and I've got two stories now that I'm updating almost regularly. Well, hope you like this chap…it just might answer some of you questions! R&R please!

Chp 16: All my words unspoken.

Rin gasped and fell backwards when she saw Sesshomaru standing in the doorway, his business suit crisp and perfectly dashing. How is it men always look better in suits? Not all men my pet…just me. A cocky grin slipped across his mouth as Sesshomaru sauntered over to the bed, plopping down next to Rin. Rin gave an exasperated sigh and rolled her eyes, trying to ignore the wave of heat that planted itself in the pit of her stomach.

"So pet, did you miss me terribly much?" He asked, leaning back against the pillows at the head of her bed as if he'd done it all his life. They were conversing as if they had been friends for years. Light and airy tones that seemed to brim slightly with affection. Rin shrugged and rolled back onto her stomach, allowing herself the liberty of using his knee as a prop for her head.

"Yes I missed you terribly my love!" Rin teased, lightly punching his left calf. Sesshomaru grinned and then placed one long fingered hand on his chest, his pose dramatically amusing. "Oh, you do not know what great joy those words bring this old heart." He said, his tone jovial and low as he let his eyes wander over her slight frame.

Rin blushed and looked away, bringing her arms up onto his knee so that she could inspect his letter. "It seems odd, that I'd get a letter you sent a week ago, on the very day you come back home." She speculated, giving a quick glance to his innocent expression. Rin cocked her eyebrow and Sesshomaru sighed, as if admitting his defeat.

"All right you win!" He said, shooting up right and throwing his hands in the air. His expression became sheepish and he replied, making his tone low and conspiritual. "I wrote it just before I got here," He confided, his face formed into that of someone guilty of a great crime. "I gave it to Baxter to give to you. Then as you were reading it I came in and finished it off."

Rin gasped, acting shocked beyond belief. "How could you? My dearest beloved how could you deceive me so?" She queried, placing a hand over her heart. After this show Rin laughed and the looked over to smile at Sesshomaru…but he was far from looking humorous. Instead, his face was blank. His golden eyes dulled and his brows turned down. He didn't even seem to be looking at her.

Rin slowly lifted herself up into a sitting position and then crawled over to him on her hands and knees. Bending slightly she got to where she could see his eyes clearly. And what she saw frightened her. They were oddly haunted. Purple shadows, though faint, hung beneath his eyes and fear seemed to lurk deep in places she couldn't seem to reach.

Then it all happened so fast. She couldn't have stopped herself if she'd tried. Rin wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled his head to her chest. Hoping beyond hope that he was too distracted to hear the beating of her wild little heart. Rin felt Sesshomaru shift, so she moved so that she sat crouched between his legs, huddling her head close to her chest as his arms wrapped loosely around her middle.

Rin crooned soft words and stroked his mass of silky silver hair. Somehow…she seemed so close to him…yet so far away…. she felt his tears soaking her shirt…and yet she felt this incredible need to be by his side, to comfort him in his time of need. Carefully she moved his head until it rested in the crook of her neck. (Me: this is possible because she is standing straight on her knees and he is leaning forward…an oddly protective gesture I think...oops…Sorry.)

Then his breath, hot and comforting brushed across her ear, as he whispered to her. "Rin, my pet…. there are so many things you do not understand…so many things I can tell you that you'd be afraid of…that you would leave me for…. I just couldn't let you do that…"

"All this time I'm been looking for you…so many years of my life wasted with out color or emotions…but that night…when you walked onto the stage…color burned so brightly before me I had to shut my eyes. Emotions long since dead ran rampant through my soul…so black and dank it nearly burst from the overflow." Sesshomaru's words choked and Rin rubbed his back soothingly, giving him time to finish, she didn't understand any of this…but she would give him all the time in the world to explain to her.

Well…umm…how was that? Did you guys have any emotions running rampant? Did I do good? Please review to tell so! Love yah! Toodles!