You and you alone can save me
Kyo's confession.
By: Kuraii-chan
Kuraii-chan: Weeee... the long awaited Chapter 12, along with Chapter 13 for getting us to 100 reviews! And seeing as there are going to be two chapters for you to read I won't put all that much right here... Enjoy the chapters! All of you who reviewed for me deserve it.
Author Notes: Oh! And I must ask before I forget... how many people would mind if I added a little slash in this fic? It wouldn't be major, I promise! Nor will it in any way interfere with the plot line. But I really want to have Kyo-kun be gay... so I need your thoughts on this...(though I don't think you have much choice after this chapter, muahahah...)
Knock knock knock.
"Sesshomaru-sama? Rin is ready to go!" The wooden door slid open and the towering figure of Sesshomaru appeared.
"Good. And I presume you did do your job?" he sneered. The best tutors had been hired to treat Rin's speaking in third person and all had failed. He didn't expect any more from My-Linh.
"For the most part," chirped My-Linh helpfully. "Kagome did most of it though."
A finely sculpted silver brow rose in question.
"Is that so?"
"Hai Milord!" A blush rose on Kagome's cheeks.
"My-Linh you make it sound like I'm some miracle worker! I'm sure anyone could have done it!"
My-Linh turned to Kagome with disbelief written clearly on her face. "But that's just it! Nobody could, and they tried for months at a time! You did more in just an hour than they could have done in two years!"
Kyo, who had been following My-Linh and Kagome lazily, finally appeared with Rin in tow.
"Sesshomaru-sama!" squealed the little girl as she flung herself at the inu youkai.
"Rin, is it true that Lady Higurashi helped you with your speech?" Asked the Taiyoukai, and all fell silent waiting for her response.
"Hai! Hai! Onee-chan helped Rin-," She frowned for a second in thought before brightening, "Onee-chan helped me" She puffed her chest out proudly and flashed a toothy grin.
"Good job Rin!" Squealed Kagome as she bent over and locked the little girl in a breath-stealing hug.
"I see." Sesshomaru nodded approvingly. That was indeed an enormous difference. How had she done what others couldn't in so little time?
Rin beamed. My-Linh and Kyo exchanged knowing looks.
"Sesshomaru-sama? What do you think of R-my yukata?" Rin asked anxiously, "Sensei and Miss Asa made it for Rin!" Kagome winced, but then she couldn't have expected Rin to be perfect given how little time she had had to teach her.
Sesshomaru nodded, "It looks beautiful Rin." Ouch, he could at least sound a little more interested!
But Rin didn't seem to mind that his voice lacked the warmth that normal people would have used when praising them on their appearance.
"Who did your hair?" Asked Sesshomaru suddenly. He had never seen Rin's hair look healthier.
"Onee-chan!" chirped Rin. So she had done that as well... well it seems the young Miko wasn't as useless as she often appeared to be.
"Higurashi, where is your outfit?"
"Ah, I don't have one..." Replied Kagome nervously.
"Don't have one? How can you not have one, and expect to go to the meeting?" Dear lord, he thought she was going?
"Sesshomaru-sama, I am not going to the meeting."
"And when did this happen?" he growled out.
"Well, um, you see..." How was she expected to think straight, much less talk when the Ice King himself is boring holes into you?!! My-Linh and Kyo backed up a bit.
"My wouldn't are almost fully healed, so I was thinking that I could go back to Inuyasha and the others today." She finished in a rush of breath. Everyone but Sesshomaru was giving her funny looks because they had only caught bits and pieces of what she had said.
"I see." She searched his face for some sort of emotion, but it was like looking at a blank chalkboard. Except, he wasn't all green or black.
Was that all he was going to say? Just 'I see'?!
"I would hate to hold you against your will," Sesshomaru started coldly, "so you may go. But you will have Kyo accompanying you."
Rin looked ready to burst into tears. "Onee-chan is leaving?"
Oh shit... she hadn't thought that leaving would mean she wouldn't get to see Rin!
"Hai Rin, I'm sorry." She pulled Rin into a tight hug, "But I promise you that I will come and visit you and Ah-Un. And My-Linh too I suppose." She added the last part somewhat teasingly, hoping to lighten the mood. It didn't seem to work all that well.
My-Linh, who had tears welling up in her eyes gently punched Kagome on the shoulder. "Damn right you will come and see me too!"
Rin was quietly sobbing on Kagome, "Onee-chan promises?"
"Hai Rin. I promise."
She sniffed and swiped at her eyes with the back of her fist. "Okay, but remember! You promised!"
"Don't worry Rin. I won't forget." Rin nodded solemnly and Kagome released her.
Sesshomaru, who had just stood there, silently observing the scene, cleared his throat. "You had better get going if you want to reach them before sun down."
Kagome nodded and turned to Kyo. "Kyo-kun? I need to go to my room and get my backpack."
Kyo nodded shortly and strode off in the direction of her room with Kagome following after.
"Why the hell are you letting her go?!" Hissed My-Linh angrily.
"She wished to return to her 'friends' and my poor excuse for a brother." Returned Sesshomaru icily.
"So?"
"So, I have to right to keep her here if she longs to be else where."
"That has never stopped you before! And besides, you saved her life!"
"I don't see what you are getting at!" snapped the Taiyoukai irritably.
"I'm trying to say because of that you two share a bond of sorts! One way or another you two will fall in love!" cried My-Linh, exasperated. "But letting her leave means that there is a chance you just ruined that, and that her heart will be shattered. It doesn't matter how you try to avoid it, I think she is your soul mate!"
"You think I don't know about the bond?! But I can tell you now, I have no soul mate." Replied the Taiyoukai stiffly.
"You say that now, but in the end I will be right! You are just setting both you and her up for heartbreak this way, and when that happens I will in no way forgive you." My-Linh bowed shortly and stalked off, pulling Rin along and telling her that she could have one of the sweets Kagome left for being so good.
'She is loyal to her friends, I'll give her that' mused the voice in Sesshomaru's head.
It matters naught if she is loyal to her friends! How dare she presume she can speak to this Sesshomaru in such a way!
'And you know, I think she has a point. You can't avoid the bond you and Kagome share.'
I'm not ignoring it, merely trying to sever it.
'And you do know that in doing so you are probably going to destroy both of your destinies?'
Yes.
"Kagome, are you truly going to leave us?" Asked Kyo suddenly.
"Yes, I have a responsibility and I can't just abandon it. Not only that, but my friends will worry if I don't show up soon. I told Inuyasha not to look for me for six days, and if I didn't show up by then he go out and cause a disturbance looking for me. And knowing my luck Kaede has already finished helping the village and returned. So then everyone will be sick with worry, and I can't just do that to them."
"I see." She stopped just outside the door to Kagome's room. "Gather your things and we shall be on our way."
Kagome nodded and hurried into the room.
"Let me see..."she murmured to herself, making and going over a mental list of things that she couldn't forget.
"Brush, check. Hair ties, check. Backpack, check..." As she thought of the item she would search the room and throw it into the overly large backpack.
"Well, I think that's about it!" Kagome hefted the backpack onto her back and stumbled out the door. "Ready Kyo-kun." Kagome huffed, she didn't remember the backpack being /that/ heavy.
"I'll carry it for you," Kyo said softly, his resolve to be cold and unemotional to Kagome dissolving.
"No, its fine. I can do it."
Kyo gave her a small glare. "Hand it over already."
"All right, all right! You win." Kagome said in mock surrender as she handed the heavy yellow object over to Kyo.
He, much unlike her, slung it over his shoulder and set off with ease.
"Come on Kagome, we don't want you getting lost now do we?" he teased; slowing his pace just so Kagome could catch up.
"Kyo?"
"Hai Lady Kagome?"
"Have you ever been in love, and known even though you shouldn't love them you can't help it?"
Kyo grew strangely silent before whispering hoarsely, "Hai."
"Really?" Kagome blinked, "Who was, or is, it? If you want to tell me that is."
Kyo smiled weakly, "You would freak out like everyone else."
"No no, I wouldn't do that. Now come on, you can trust me."
"Remember when you are telling me that I shouldn't be that you said I could trust you."
"Don't worry Kyo-kun!"
"... Kira."
Kagome stared in disbelief. Kira? Kira, as in My-Linh's triplet? She hadn't known Kyo was gay...
"You are still in love with Kira?" Kyo looked ashamed. "Well I don't think its wrong. There will always be people who think that way, but I don't. You love who you love, and there is no changing that. You can't help it if you fall for someone's soul and personality. It should never matter what gender they are, as long you two are happy. That's all that matters. And besides, just because you two are of the same gender, it doesn't make your love any less pure."
Kyo stared at Kagome in astonishment, mouth agape.
"You know, looking like that won't help you get Kira..." Kagome said in a singsong voice.
"You, you truly are an angel Lady Kagome." The miko in question smiled softy.
"I wouldn't go that far, but I thank you all the same."
"Nobody thinks that way, most are closed-minded and think all who like people of their same gender should burn in hell for all eternity." Wispered Kyo in a wounded voice.
Kagome sighed unhappily, "I know. My own friends say that, but I disagree. You can't help whom you fall in love with."
"Thanks Lady Kagome. Its good to know that there are some people out there like you. You can't possibly know how hard it is for, well, people like me. Just because I don't like anyone of the opposite gender many believe that I shouldn't live. That I don't deserve to live and I'm filth."
Kagome pulled Kyo to stop and stared into his eyes, "Never let anyone convince you that you are not their equal just because you have different preferences! You are not any less youkai than anyone else in the this castle with the exception of Rin and I. And are you not one of Sesshou-kun's best warriors? Well, if that isn't proof enough that you are just as good as everyone else then I don't know what is." She whispered fiercely.
Kyo pulled Kagome into a quick hug, murmuring the words 'Thank you' over and over again.
"No one has the right to think they are better than you are just because they like people of the opposite sex and you don't." Kagome informed Kyo with a nod.
Kyo nodded happily. "Thanks Lady Kagome. I really needed that."
"Not at all, and if you are ever doubting that come to me and I'll talk some sense into you."
Kyo flashed her a grin, "I'll keep that in mind Lady Kagome. Now, lets go."
Kagome hurried after Kyo, trying to keep up. "Slow down already! My legs aren't as long as yours!"
"Tough luck then, eh?"
Kuraii-chan: Muahahah... that's all for now. But you are getting the next chapter in like, a few seconds so don't you dare complain.
Seika: Whew... Review time!
silvershadow14540: Ah, but it will... I think. O.O;; Or at least I will make it seem like that. So far it has matched, because Sesshy was the only one who could possibly save Kagome from Akito, everyone else was like back with Inuyasha. And Inu-kun had strict orders not to come after her for six days sooooo....
Someone: Aww, thank you! I'm happy that you love it, but as I go back and look at my first few chapters I'm surprised and scared that people actually read that... =D;; And I do believe Jaken already spelled it... muahah...
Fluffy'sbabe: Ohh, thank you so much! It was pretty good. Had its ups and downs, but not that bad overall. I'm happy that you like my writing so much! Here you are, and you are getting the next chapter today as well, so REJOICE! =3
Hieis/Kuramas-Angel: Good, I would be horrified if I did. I really don't want to. And I hope I haven't scared you off with this chapter either, I'm sure some people won't be happy about Kagome standing up for the gays. But they are people too and shouldn't be discriminated against! Besides, why do others care so damn much if you are gay or not?! They have no say in the matter anyways! Sorry for my ranting.. =D Forgive me?
DimmingBlackRose: Don't worry, I wouldn't dream of suddenly stopping this fic! I hope you don't suddenly abandon me because of Kagome standing up for Kyo and all the gays, but I feel strongly about that despite my not being gay. They too are people, just the same as everyone else.
Spellcaster Hikaru: KARU-CHAN! glomps You have finally reviewed! I'm so happy. =3 And I love the Kyo/Kira thing too! Might be why I just did the little confession thing in this chapter, ne? My muse is helping, but I'm starting to wonder if I need a beta too... OO;;
Shinna: Aw, thank you so much. I'm hoping I haven't just lost you as a reviewer because of this chapter and the whole Kyo/Kira thing. I promise it won't affect the story all that much if at all.
INUGIRL: Here you are! And the next chapter shall be delivered today as well, so I hope you enjoy. And I hope I didn't lose you as a reviewer because of Kyo's little thing for Kira. It won't affect the story much, if at all. I promise!
lmb102191: I'm sorry but I don't think I can do that. If I did email everyone who asked me too every time I finished a new chapter... well it wouldn't be good for me. I'm happy you like my fic though, and it means a lot to hear praise as high as that.
nightwing: Ramen you say? Mmm.... I'm as bad as Inuyasha if not worse when it comes to ramen... {happily accepts the bowl of ramen and eats it} Murrrr, thank you very much! For both the ramen and the happy birthday!
Blackiecat: Yes, I'm glad I'm not the only one who knows of Fruba! =D But I did change Kyo's eye color to make him a bit more original... but I got the basic outline for him from Fruba. :D
Blackiecat: I'm happy you are reviewing! I'm happy you were enjoying it! Have you noticed the difference from the first chapter up until chapter 8? And then on up? My writing skills improve and the story gets less hard to read! Which I am grateful for, otherwise I might not have as many fans as I do. And your behavior is fine; I'm rather odd at times myself. Teehee.
Blackiecat: Thank you soo much! It's fine if its late, at least you are nice enough to tell me happy birthday! Quite a few didn't, but that's okay. I understand that sometimes you forget things when reviewing that you meant to say. I hope I haven't scared you off with this chapter and Kagome defending the gays, but I strongly believe in what she said. So I hope you will stay and keep reviewing!
DemonKiKay: I reviewed? O.O I think you mean I updated. :D Yes I did. And I'm trying to decide how much of the meeting I'm going to add. Hrrrm... oh well, you shall find out soon enough for I'm posting the next chapter today!
InuLorien: Really? Teehee, well I hope she had a happy birthday. You know what pocky is? Oh good, and yes it is really good. And I answer every review left for me, no matter which chapter was reviewed. It wouldn't be all that fair to just ignore all the reviews except the ones for the last chapter.
anei inu: Rin is rather kawaii! And Kira is rather distrustful. So knowing that do you honestly think that he would suddenly like Kagome? No, he's a bit suspicious of her, not to mention he doesn't like that Sesshomaru saved her and has healers for her when she goes around with Inuyasha AND is human. Don't worry though; I'm sure I'll make him trust her one way or another. Just not right now.
Leira,Frooky: Thank you! {happily accepts the pocky} =3 Yummy... and its okay that it is late. :D I'm happy that you liked the chapter and I hope you like this one as well, even if it has Kagome standing up for the gays. She said exactly the way I feel, and I couldn't have put it better myself. (Of course not, I typed it didn't it?) Aw, I like snakes! My friend Juliet got one for her birthday a few days ago! Named it Ocha she did. {nod}
Kuraii-chan: Okay, now I'm hoping that I haven't lost any reviewers because of this chapter with Kagome standing up for the gays, but that's the way I feel as well. I promise the yaoi won't pop up all that much if at all. PROMISE.
Kyo: So I'm suddenly gay? After you make it look like I'm falling in love with Kagome?
Kuraii-chan: Eheh... yah, that's pretty much it.
Kira: WTF?! WHAT THE BLOODY HELL DO YOU MEAN THE YAOI WON'T AFFECT THE STORY MUCH IF AT ALL?! THERE WILL BE NO YAOI. NONE.
Kuraii-chan: EEP! {locks herself in closet} Yes there will be. Just not all that much, it will simply be a kawaii thing, I won't go into any detail about it.
Miroku: Yaoi is unnatural.
Sango: {whacks him over the head} What did you just say?!
Miroku: Umm... I mean I don't find it unnatural! I just wouldn't prefer to see it myself!
Shippou: Okay, we all know that there will be two chapters but Kuraii-chan requests that you REVIEW BOTH CHAPTERS. Please?