Authors Notes:
Next Chapter! Rejoice!
I still need to do my homework... But its the weekend...((sniffle))
"Sephiroth..." Mummered Kadaj, giving some small bow, trying to give some impression that Sephiroth's presence wasn't bothering him. But no matter what he tried to do, it was still going to be obvious.
Sephiroth gave half a chuckle. "Uneasy? No need to get so worked up over your dreams, Kadaj-san."
Kadaj remained silent, his steely eyes examining Sephiroth over and over again. So he knew about his nightmares. Was he the cause? Kadaj seriously doubted it. Sephiroth began to pace slowly in circles around Kadaj, searching him throughly as well.
"Splendid. You are certainly much taller then I remember. I didn't exactly have time to look you over yesterday."
Kadaj shook his head. "Forgive me, master, but we've never met before."
Sephiroth grinned. "And obviously my new powers had worked just fine. Of course we've met before. But you can't remember it consciously, because I erased it. That, my friend, is why you see what you see in your dreams." He explained simply.
"But...why would you mess with my memories?" Kadaj asked, finding it hard to grasp what Sephiroth was saying. Could what he saw in his dreams had happened before?
Sephiroth stopped and sat on a pew, his face appearing a bit bored. "There was alot of things that happened in Trespiar that you need not remember."
"Like what I already remember isn't enough..."
Kadaj sunk back into the memories of Trespiar. Always called the "City of the Lost". The place where he had escaped to from the ShinRa labs. Toyo was one of the escapees too, as well as Yazoo and Loz. But Toyo was the only one of the group who hadn't been deemed a 'sucess' by Hojo and the group.
Kadaj opened his mouth again. "So, what was so bad that you had to erase my memories? I had to have been through much worse then whatever was engraved in my memories."
"Are you sure of that?"
Kadaj paused, then nodded. "Yes. Very much so."
Sephiroth stood up slowly and brought his gloved hand to Kadaj's forhead. The leather felt cool compared to the stifling air of the Chapel. Kadaj closed his eyes calmly. "Show me, please." He needed to know, if it really was the visions that haunted him at night...
Fate must've been against Kadaj that day, because they were...
"You're not real. None of you are." A solemn Sephiroth spoke before Yazoo, Loz, and Kadaj. He looked at least nine years younger, but the lines of stress on his face were still evident. He had just returned from some 'important' mission from Nibelhiem, where ever that was, and had requested the presence of the young men as soon as he had arrived in Trespiar.
"What!" Kadaj shouted. Only 14, he was the youngest of the group. His blue eyes that usually sparkled with an inner sense of humour were now dim. "I thought we were just brought to Hojo's lab...not..not.." He bit his lower lip.
"Made there?" Sephiroth supplied. "No, you're all creations of a madman." He leaned on the wall by the window, seeming as though he was doing everything he could to not lock eyes with anyone in the group.
"So...we're not human. Then what are we?" Asked Loz.
"Children. Of Jenova." Sephiroth muttered, now standing up and taking a full stance, towering over the other men sitting on the ground.
"Of Jan...Gen..what?" Stuttered Yazoo.
"Jenova, the last of our race. The last of the Ancients!"
Kadaj sat on his thin bed, hours later, musing over what Sephiroth had told them. He was the heir to an anicent race. Jenova. He bit his lip again, an old habit ever since he could remember. It was as annoying as sucking his thumb, and the fact that Loz and Yazoo would get on him for it didn't help at all either.
So he wasn't real. All this time, he thought he had been human. A normal human. But then, he really knew that he had never been normal. No wonder Hojo had called him a sucess. But what about Toyo? If he hadn't been a sucess, was he a child of Jenova? Did he belong in their 'group'? What if Sephiroth didn't see Toyo as one of their brothers?
Sephiroth would surely kill him, along with all the other humans. Kadaj could feel tears in his eyes just thinking of his best childhood friend being murdered at Sephiroth's hands. If Sephiroth-sensi was going to kill him, there would be no escape for Toyo. He stood up resolutly and headed for the door. Kadaj was going to have to warn Toyo.
He snapped open the door, but found Sephiroth standing on the other side. Kadaj shuddered as the eyes looked him over again. He quickly tried to pretend as though he never was crying.
"I was just deciding if it was a good idea to knock on your door and see how you were doing. But obviously, I came at the right time." He stepped in past Kadaj, walking immeaditly to the window and looking outside, as if there was something urgent he needed to see.
"Actually, Sephiroth-sensi, I was just going to see Toyo. I...had needed to talk to him." Kadaj said meekly.
"I see. Spending another night togther?" He asked casually.
Kadaj winced, Sephiroth chuckled.
"You two don't do a very good job of hiding it. I've almost walked in on you two a couple of times." Kadaj sat down again as Sephiroth began to examine the few trinkets set on top of Kadaj's dresser. "So little you have Kadaj."
Kadaj nodded. "Yeah. It's okay though. I'll be able to have more things later. Anyways, wasn't it you who said material possessions are worthless in the end?"
Both were quiet for a few more moments. Sephiroth sat down on Kadaj's bed beside him, looking down at the wood floor.
"What is it, Sephiroth-sensi?"
"What do you see?"
"Huh?"
"What do you see in Toyo? Why is he so special? He's human!"
Kadaj was again silent, but then he found the right words. "I don't have to see anything in him. I just know, whenever I see him, or feel him, or even just thinking about him, that we're supposed to be together."
"That's pretty deep, even for you, Kadaj." Sephiroth replied, looking up and giving a small smile at Kadaj.
Kadaj grinned and laughed, like the sun peeking through the clouds. "After that whole speech of yours earlier, my words must sound like an idiot's ramblings." He looked distantly to the window.
"Never. Don't say that." Sephiroth said, turning to face Kadaj and putting an arm around him. "Your words are special in their own way."
"Thanks." Kadaj gave a small smile again.
"Well, I must be on my way." Sephiroth said shortly, standing up.
"But you only just got back!"
Sephiroth looked at Kadaj seriously, his eyes flashing just a little.
"I know. But this time, I probably am not coming back right away. In fact, don't expect me for along time. But when I do come back, be ready.
Kadaj stood up to let Sephiroth out of the room. As he opened the door, Sephiroth stopped halfway through the doorway. He turned around, and grabbed Kadaj, kissing him gently.
Even as Sephiroth let go and stood back, Kadaj just stood there, shocked.
Sephiroth frowned a bit. "Ah, I am sorry, Kadaj."
"We'll see eachother again, I'm sure of it." He threw over his shoulder as he walked out.
Kadaj scurried over to the window as he watched Sephiroth exit the building from the story below and walk out through the town. There was an unexplainable air to him that caused all the townspeople to stop whatever they were doing as they watched him stride down the street.
Right before Sephiroth passed the last building out of the small town, he turned back and looked straight at Kadaj. Now, something about him looked diffrent. The look in his eyes was as though he were...mad? Had Kadaj's child hood hero really gone insane?
As Kadaj locked eyes with Sephiroth, a tingling sensation began in his head. Then it erupted into a head splitting pain. Kadaj dropped to the floor, hands grabbing his head as he began to scream in pain.
The door burst open, and Yazoo and Loz ran in to comfort their brother.
"Kadaj!" Exclaimed Yazoo, wrapping his arms around Kadaj's trembling figure to calm him. "What is it!"
Kadaj couldn't make out the words inbetween his head throbbing and the thoughts going through his head. "Se..Sephi...argh!" He clutched to Yazoo as another wave of pain washed over him.
"Sephiroth?" Inquired Loz, leaning over the two.
Kadaj nodded, the strength sapping out of him fast. Tears were now streaming down his face, and his vision was blacking out at the corners of his eyes.
The last thing he had caught a glimpse of was his brother's concerned faces, then a flash of Sephiroth's mako eyes.
That's when his entire memory of that day was swiped clean. That's when Kadaj's nightmares began.
Author's Notes:
Ah, Forgive me! It's so confusing, I know. More will be explained next chapter, just hold on! Now, on to do my homework. ((coughs)) I really should get a life. I don't think a career in authoring is going to work for me, I have to find something else to do.