Author's Notes:

V.V Gomen Nasai... I've been a bad authoress. ((is having pepsi cans and rotten tomatoes thrown at her)) I havn't updated in ages! But I saw Advent Children and my insprition was basically lost because my 98 percent of my theories were proved dead wrong. ((cries))

But, I've decided to keep on going with the plot I had planned. So please, everyone, enjoy. This might be a pretty short chapter though. Depends.

One last note, I am planning on writing this fic again from Toyo's point of view, and their will be some extra background on Yazoo that might make a bunch of you fangirls jealous, nyai.

Llama Guru Extraordinare,

Lidya Kurokawa

Even as Kadaj groggily opened his eyes to face the day, he felt like just breaking down. Like almost every other guy, he wasn't one to just fall to his knees sobbing. But the recent events were enough to pull anyone into that state of mind. Kadaj, though, wasn't allowing himself to shed any tears. He figured, it was going to get worse, and contrary to popular belief, before it gets even worse. He would save those precious tears for what he knew was coming.

Toyo was still silently asleep, Kadaj noted as he zipped up his uniform. His arm was even paler then last night, and the wound was still bleeding through the bandages. Kadaj sighed. That idiot...what had he been thinking? It would have been better to let Sephiroth just take Kadaj for his own then to have Toyo get hurt...

As Kadaj left the room, he made sure to give Toyo a soft kiss to the neck. Toyo, only half conscious, mummered something in reply.

"Hey, Kadaj?" He asked, slowly putting a hand on his cheek.

"Yeah?" Kadaj replied, a bit taken aback by the fact Toyo was awake.

"Don't you dare go off to fight Sephiroth without me." He ordered.

Kadaj smiled. "Toyo-koi, are you mocking me? I can take him."

Toyo couldn't resist laughing, but it was a weak, almost forced laugh. "No, not mocking. More like saving your sorry ass again. Don't make me do it, I don't think there's that much of me to go around."

Kadaj nodded. "I'll try to keep out of trouble. I'm just going to see ShinRa-san again."

"Mhm. Alright." Toyo seemed ready to slip back into unconsciousness. Kadaj slipped on more kiss across his lips then slowly took Toyo's hand off his face and put it back on the bed.

"Such a touching scene of true love..." Yazoo muttered. He had watched the entire thing from the doorway, a reminiscant smile on his face.

"You've never been in love, Yazoo, so you wouldn't know, now would you?" Kadaj asked. Yazoo half heartedly shrugged.

"Come on to the kitchen. Want to talk with you for a few." He said. Kadaj followed him to the table, and they both sat down.

"Look, Kadaj. This is going to sound werid coming from me, but this is all my fault. All of it." Yazoo muttered, looking distantly into his coffee cup. Kadaj just sat there silently, a bit shocked.

"I just thought you should know before you go and start blaming yourself for everything, Kadaj." Yazoo continued. "We don't need you being suicidal or anything."

Kadaj bowed his head. "Even if someone took all the blame, I still don't want to continue this anymore."

Yazoo nodded. "Nor do I. But some things have to be done. We have to finish what we started."

Kadaj hit his hand on the table. "But why? Why bring Sephiroth to godhood if he's just going to defile us more?"

Yazoo raised an eyebrow. "Nani?"

Kadaj flustered. "See..it's..."

"Toyo didn't say anything about what had happened when I was badaging him up, but I didn't feel it was right to ask questions while he was barely holding onto consciousness. Kadaj, what happened?"

"Sephiroth decided to make a move on me. Toyo was offended, tried to take on Sephiroth himself."

Yazoo shook his head. "Aiya. The things people do for love."

"Yeah. And worse..." Kadaj didn't really know how to put it. He tried to take a stab at it a few times, but just ended up stuttering.. "Sephiroth showed me what..I mean, back in Trespiar, before he left...did he really? Was it just an illusion?"

Yazoo paled a bit. "No. It was not, sadly. Kadaj, Sephiroth always had a special liking for you. Even before he went over the edge, he was always a little more attached to you, and vice versa. You thought of him as a hero, in a way."

Kadaj nodded. "I remember that..."

"But then, after he came back from Nibelhiem, me and Loz figured he had snapped. Something had happened there, and it wasn't for the best. After that one day we found you in your room, we smuggled you out of Trespiar to Midgar as fast as we could. Since you had already lost your memories of that night, we decided you didn't need be reminded either." Yazoo finished.

"But I was anyways..." Kadaj whispered. He stood up, throwing the chair back and walking to the door. "I'm leaving. Tell Toyo I went out to deal with ShinRa for awhile. I'm severing my ties with them."

Yazoo raised an eyebrow. "Alright then. If you need us, just give us a call. We'll be on stand by, not far away."

Kadaj nodded and stepped out the door, sighing as the freezing winter air of Midgar hit his face. He wanted to think, This is as low as it gets. But then, he knew it could still get much much lower.

"Kadaj, are you sure? It would not be among the smartest things to suddenly seperate from us."

ShinRa-san and Kadaj were now standing on the already half demolished roof of the ShinRa Headquarters, both facing eachother and none looking too happy. "Yes. I am sure."

ShinRa-san remained quiet for a second. "You can't just up it and leave like that. We need you with ShinRa Corp. Stay for just a bit longer and we can get rid of Sephiroth as well as Cloud."

Kadaj shook his head. "No. I'm done with this."

Out of the corner of his eye, he could see a temple twitching on ShinRa-san's face. ShinRa suddenly stood up, and whipped his cloak off. "Fine then. We'll do this the harder way."

ShinRa was in an all black outfit, long sleeves covering his invisible arms. A shotgun hung from one of them. Kadaj cautiously put a hand on his sabo sword. "ShinRa, messing with you is not on my schedule today. I don't have time to play guns and swords with the likes of you."

ShinRa shrugged smugly. "If you have the time to take on a badass like Sephiroth, it'll be a piece of cake to get rid of me. Come on."

There, they had both taunted eachother. Now Kadaj waited calmly to let ShinRa made the first move. And he did.

Kadaj dodged a few bullets, trying to remember what Sephiroth had taught him when he was younger. The irony...

When fighting against a gun, don't try to out strengthen them You'll just get shot full of holes. Instead, think like a cat. Agile and swift, jump in and out, striking where convinenent.

Even as he was throwing a few stabs into ShinRa, he knew this was a loosing battle, and he didn't have the time for this sort of thing. Only one way to go...escape. He threw a nasty look straght at ShinRa.

"Sorry, my time cannot be wasted on you. Until later, I'm sure, ShinRa-san." He jumped off the building gracefully, and hit the ground and ran without missing a beat.

Then, he fell to his knees suddenly, his head practically tearing open again. People on the streets stared as he screamed, clutching his head and shaking violently.

Then, a cold voice eminated from behind him. "I see our mental connection is still strong. Now Kadaj, won't you give me the pleasure of one more kiss?"

"Damn you Sephiroth, are you kidd-" He was interuppted as Sephiroth yanked him off the ground and into a long kiss.

Kadaj shut his eyes, bearing with it for now. He couldn't complain, not now. Just grin and bear with it...

Im sorry it was so short! But I have things to do, sadly. Stupid Reality. Stupid Life. Please Review!