Author's Notes:

Back from the vast depths of writer's block. I hope. I take no liability if this chapter is ulitmately lame. ((bows)) I am sorry. I blame my lack of creativity and recent events that have sort of discouraged me and my fanfiction. Hopefully I can complete this story, it only has one or two chapters left...

"Sephiroth!" Cloud shouted, pulling out his sword and pulling his own body into a fighting stance.

Sephiroth just calmly stood up, his clothes coming straight to his hands. He slipped them back on, connecting the clasps over his chest. "Jealous, are we?"

"Not in a million years." Cloud muttered.

"Of course, of course..." Sephiroth brushed aside Cloud's insult. Kadaj, who did not have the power to summon his clothes to his hands, instead had to swim out to where him and Sephiroth had been standing earlier, and grab his clothes from the bottom of the lake.

"Who is he? What is he?" Cloud asked, pointing towards Kadaj. Kadaj was now just pulling his own clothes on, and Sephiroth waited for the young silver haired man to pull up the zipper on his outfit before continuing.

"This, Cloud, is Kadaj. He is quite like you and Zack...except, he was much, much more successful, as you can see now." Sephiroth simply stated.

"And what...do you want?" Cloud asked, looking straight at Kadaj.

Kadaj paused, unsure. He knew what he wanted. "To-"

Now, now. What did I tell you about that traitorous human?

Kaa-san? Kadaj replied mentally.

Yes, my dear child. You know Toyo is not what you truely want...

Kadaj shook his head, and then stared straight back at Cloud. "I want...to use this Planet as a ship to sail the darkness of space...to find the promised land...to be with Kaa-san and the spirits of the deceased with Geo-Stigma."

Kadaj, once again, was unsure of how these words spilled from his mouth. Was this really what he wanted? But the last part was true...He wanted to be with Toyo...

Cloud's figure tightened. "You're just the same as Sephiroth. You are nothing more then a puppet, Kadaj!"

Kadaj's face contured a bit in terror. A puppet? Did Cloud mean to say that everything had been lies? He looked to Sephiroth. "Is it true? Kaa-san...will she ever love me as much as you!" Kadaj shouted.

Sephiroth smirked. "No need to grow so angry, Kadaj. Mother loves us all equally. Respect her and her wishes, and you will experiance her full love, as I once have."

Kadaj drew back a bit, but he still seemed scared. "I cannot let you take these children!" Cloud demanded. "Give them back, Sephiroth!"

Sephiroth shook his head. "Reunion must be complete. You can have your precious children then..." He added with a truly evil smile. Sephiroth and Cloud continued to just silently glare at eachother. "Why must you be so unppreciative Cloud? I gave you your first time. Now, share me with Kadaj, will you?"

Cloud winced. "You never really cared for me, I was just a replacment for your Kadaj, wasn't I?"

Sephiroth grinned. "Yes. Kadaj has always been my number one. Sorry, Cloud, but not all feelings are returned."

Cloud opened his mouth to say something in return, but Kadaj spoke first. "Just as I do not return my feelings for you, Sephiroth."

Sephiroth's smile faded, and his eyes flashed. But then his face seemed to calm. "You can't be too sure of that, can you?"

Kadaj's turn to wince. He had taken some weird amount of enjoyment in what Sephiroth had done to him. The thought scared him, and he already was scared enough.

Toyo kept appearing in his mind, but then Sephiroth was still haunting the edges of his conscience. So Sephiroth had been the first to have Cloud...Kadaj silently remember his first time...

"Are you sure you want to do this?" Toyo asked. Kadaj stood in front of him, his silver hair striped by the light peeking through the blinds pulled over the window.

"Yeah." Kadaj muttered, his eyes lowered.

Toyo smiled, putting his hand under Kadaj's chin, and bringing his partner's face up so their eyes met. "You don't have to."

"But I want to! I love you, Toyo!"

Toyo's face softned considerably."You act as though I do not know it." Slowly he stepped forward. Kadaj seemed so small when put next to the tall, lanky Toyo, but it never bothered the two.

Toyo gently undid Kadaj's shirt, slipping it off and sliding his hands underneath the fabric. Kadaj shivered a bit at his touch, but steeled himself quickly. Toyo's grip tightened around Kadaj's waist, pulling the young man forward and into a deep kiss, slowly easing his tongue into Kadaj's mouth.

Kadaj squirmed a bit, and Toyo quickly let go of him. "Kadaj, if this is getting uncomfterble, we can stop. Once we start its going to be very hard to stop ourselves..."

Kadaj shook his head. "No! I want to...please..."

"Alright..." Toyo whispered, cradling Kadaj's cheek. It was then Kadaj realized that while they had been talking, Toyo had been playing with Kadaj's belt, and had now unbuckled it, taking off the pants and revealing even more of Kadaj's pale, soft skin.

Grabbing Kadaj's waist again, Toyo pushed Kadaj down on the edge of the bed, his fingernails digging into Kadaj's flesh. "Toyo..." Kadaj growled through gritted teeth.

"We're not stopping now, Kadaj." Toyo muttered. Kadaj nodded meekly in response as Toyo slowly slipped to his knees on the ground, Kadaj still sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Alright, now spread your legs apart for me, please." Toyo instructed, slowly stripping away his own clothes. Kadaj obeyed unsurly, his blue green eyes a bit wide.

Toyo lifted his hand to Kadaj, slowly tracing the area around his opening. "You're so tight...we'll have to fix that.."

He leaned forward and slipped his tongue into Kadaj's shaft, pulling it in and out as Kadaj squirmed. "Toyo, don't do that! It's weird!"

Toyo looked up, grey eyes sprakling mischeivously. "Do you want it to hurt later, Kadaj? Besides, you must admit, it feels good."

"Y-y-yeah.." Kadaj stuttered, his breath starting to become heavy and labored as Toyo slipped a long finger into his shaft, then two, pulling Kadaj apart little by little.

Kadaj resoulutly shut his eyes and bit his lower lip, catching Toyo's attention. Toyo moved back up Kadaj's body, and snuck a kiss on the boy's neck. "You're all to cute when you bite your lip like that."

"You're all to much a flirt, Toyo." Kadaj muttered back, the top of Toyo's hair brushing against his face and tickling his nose.

Toyo shrugged, smirking. "I guess I can stop teasing you then and cut to the chase..." Still leaving Kadaj on the edge of the bed, Toyo stood up, placing his hands on the sides of Kadaj's waist again and bending over his partner.

"Ready? This might hurt, Kadaj..."

Even though his face was pale and his eyes wide, Kadaj nodded. Quickly, Toyo threw himself into the silver haired man, causing Kadaj to scream out in pain, and a bit of pleasure. He felt as though he was being stretched to his limit, and his breath was coming in sharp gasps, his back arched gracefully.

"Okay, I'm going to move now." Toyo whispered in a strained voice. Kadaj's eyes widened even more.

"No, Toyo! Please, don't it already hurts enough!...nnnnhh!" The young man bit his lip hard enough to make it bleed, the red liquid pouring down his chin silently, as Toyo pushed into his more.

Then another scream, as Toyo began to move back and forth, slow at first, but then going a bit fast and faster. But they both felt their release coming, and knew they didn't have long left.

It did come, soon enough. Toyo roughly pulled away from Kadaj's body, the liquid spilling out over them, the bed, and the floor. Toyo, now exhausted, crawled up into the bed and under the sheets, Kadaj slowly following.

The silver haired man's hair was limp with sweat, and his breathing was still a bit ragged. But he wore a faint smile as he rested his head in Toyo's chest, curling up in his arms and protecting grasp. Toyo had a distant, but loving smile on his face.

Toyo's face tensed a bit though. "I'm sorry..." He whispered as he ran his fingers through Kadaj's hair. It looked like liquid silver in the light filtering into Toyo's room. "I was too hard wasn't I? It was your first time, after all. I'm so sorry..."

Kadaj allowed a stronger, more assured smile. "Don't even begin to think that, Toyo. There was pain, but I enjoyed it too." Toyo's face relaxed with relief.

"Good. Very good. We can sleep now..."

But Kadaj's soft snore told Toyo that his younger partner was asleep already, no doubt exhausted from what had just occured. A loud knock sounded on the door, yanking Toyo's thoughts from Kadaj.

"Is everything alright, Kadaj? I could hear you screaming all the way in my room. It's Yazoo..."

Toyo's head jerked up as the door opened and Yazoo walked in, he voice wafting through the room as well. "Little brother, you don't have to hide it, the fact you're having nightmares every night now- oh, my..." He interuppted himself as he caught sight of Kadaj and Toyo cradled together, both covered in sweat and who knows what else.

Hoping to take a casual approach, Toyo winked. "Guess you found out our little secret."

"That I did..." Yazoo mummered, smiling slightly. "I should've known. How long has this...been happening?"

Toyo nodded half heartedly. "Just tonight, so far."

"Well, at least it was you."

Toyo cocked his head slightly to the side. "Huh?"

"Nothing."

"Oho." Toyo said. "Is this your way of saying "I deem you worthy of my younger brother."?"

"Just maybe." Yazo replied with a sly smile. Well, enjoy yourselves..." Yazoo walked out the door, waving his hand distantly. "Sleep well."

Toyo let out a sigh of relief, glad that Yazoo had not been mad or annoyed, at least not that Kadaj's brother had shown. And now, softly burying his face into the top of Kadaj's head, Toyo let his eyes close and his worries drift away temporarly.

Ah, another explict chapter... XD

In case you havn't noticed, I've gone back and edited most of the currently posted chapters, just because I felt I could've done better. I hope you guys don't mind!