MWPP: Through Moony's Eyes

A/N: This is an intense chapter to let you know.

Sticks and Stones May Break My Bones, But Words Hurt the Most

The next day Remus woke up to two voices coming from behind the door to his private ward.

"I need to see him!"

"Miss Evans, you really shouldn't."

"But I HAVE TO!"

"Alright Miss Evans."

The door opened to Remus's ward and Remus could hazily make out two figures in the doorway. One, Remus knew was Madame Pomfry, and the other one, he could sort of make out red on this persons head. Lily, you shouldn't have Remus thought. Lily let out a gasp.

"Oh my gosh, Remus," Lily said quietly.

"I told you not to come," Remus murmured. But Lily didn't hear him. She was to busy looking at his mangled bloody body. His left arm was bent at an odd angle and all his wounds were bleeding freely. Madame Pomfry hadn't had a chance to give him his potions and medications yet, so he was definitely in one of the worst states Lily could have seen him in. His whole body was sticky, because he was covered all over in his own blood. Lily's eyes glazed over, she tried to stop the tears from spilling out but it didn't work.

"Lily you shouldn't have come," Remus repeated.

"I had to, I just couldn't let you stay here with nobody, but I had no idea."

"I know," Remus said barely moving his lips, it hurt too much.

"Miss Evans, you better leave and get to your classes. I need to tend to Lupin," Madame Pomfry said, walking in with her arms full of vials and containers.

"Ok, I'll see you tonight Remus," Lily said before turning around and walking away.

"Good friend you have there Lupin," Madame Pomfry said while shoving different pills, liquids, and chocolate into his mouth.

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When Remus returned to the common room, he dragged himself into a armchair in front of the fire. He had a splitting headache and just wanted to sleep, but fate never goes his way. James stormed into the common room with Sirius and James trailing behind him.

"I hate today! I hate life!" James thundered. Remus winced, his head was pulsing with pain.

"What happened, James?" Remus managed to get out.

"What happened Remus? What happened? While you were off visiting your grandmother, I had to endure the worst day of my life!" James bellowed. Remus wished he would be quieter, but James's voice level stayed the same. "First I woke up late, causing me to miss breakfast. And then when I got to Defense Against the Dark Arts, Snape made me look like an idiot. In Transfiguration I got detention for something that I actually didn't do. Then when I was on my way to lunch, I was hexed by four Seventh year Slytherins, which made me miss lunch. Then in Potions. Lily made a fool out of me, even though I was trying to be nice to her this morning. I saw her crying and asked her what was wrong but she told me to leave her alone."

"Though he did hex her once she turned her back on him," Sirius added.

"SIRIUS STAY OUT OF THIS!" James shouted. "Then I got two more detentions for something that I, again, didn't do...and those are with FILCH!" James finished.

"It didn't sound that bad," Remus mumbled.

"Not that bad? NOT THAT BAD? It was the worst day of my life!" James retorted, he was getting angry at Remus now.

"James, you don't know what a bad day is," Remus responded, his voice getting louder. He would rather face a million of James's so called "bad day" then go through what he has to once a month.

"Oh and you do Remus? What is getting a bad grade considered a bad day? Is that ALL you go through?"James raged. He had gone to far, even if James didn't know the extent of it. Remus was now the maddest he had ever been, and he doesn't get mad easily.

"YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I GO THROUGH!" Remus shouted He stormed up to his dormitory, kicking everything in his path. "All I go through? All I go through? I'd like to see James try to go through one transformation," he thought. Before Remus knew it, hot tears were trailing down his face.

Sirius, Peter, and James were all left down in the common room in silence.

"Remus has never gotten this mad before," Sirius said, breaking the silence.

"He still doesn't understand," James said scowling.

"Maybe he does. Maybe there is something Remus goes through that we don't understand," Sirius said, thinking.

"If Remus was going through something wouldn't we know?" Peter said.

"I don't care," James fumed. "Unless he apologizes, he's not my problem."

"Well he's still my problem," Sirius said. His best friend may be James, but Remus was his friend too. Sirius knew something was wrong with him and James would too, he's just to angry to notice. Sirius considered going up to Remus to talk to him, but then Lily walked into the common room.

"What happened? I heard yelling," Lily said, looking around.

"Why should we tell you? You wouldn't say what was wrong with you this morning," James said cooly.

"That was different. Hey, where's Remus?" Lily said searching the common room. "Is he still in the Hospital Wing?" she asked herself.

"He's up in the dormitories, him and James had a fight," Peter said matter-of-factly.

"Oh? And what was this all about?" Lily asked curiously.

"James was telling Remus about his bad day, then Remus said that wasn't a bad day and James got mad and asked him if getting a bad grade was all he went through and then Remus said 'you have no idea what I go through,' and then he went up to his dorm," Sirius said out of breath. Lily turned to James.

"You didn't! How could you?" Lily sputtered.

"WHAT? It's not like I was lying," James said cooly.

"You don't understand," Lily said. She turned around and ran up to the boys dormitories. "Remus?" she said while creaking the door open.

"Hey Lily," Remus said while staring at the floor. She came over and sat by him.

"Remus they don't understand. They don't know," Lily said. Remus looked up into her sad emerald eyes. "They don't know the pain you go through, and even I haven't seen the full extent of it. But, I've seen enough to know a little bit," Lily said. Remus kept being silent. There was just too much rage in him.

"I need to go now, but if you need to talk, I'm here," Lily said.

"I know," Remus replied. He watched as Lily opened the door and leave. Remus then went to his bed and rested his head on the pillow, and drifted off to sleep.