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Part 4

"Hey man, what's going on with Sara?" Nick was first to question Warrick as soon as he entered the lab, the two were in there alone.

Warrick shook his head, and took a seat – "Truthfully, I really don't know. Man, she's really-"

He stopped, and looked at the visibly worried Nick, "I don't know a lot, just that…from what I can see she knows these guys, or one of them at least. They were shot up bad, I mean it's one thing to look at a blood covered scene – but when you know the victim…it all changes. She lost it"

"Oh man, this shouldn't happen…not to anyone, but Sara…"

"I know how you feel man. Well I better start processing what we found on scene just thought I'd keep you updated."

"Appreciate it…thanks man"

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Catherine's hand, at some point in that last few minuets had moved to Sara's arm – as a way to comfort the visibly grieving woman. She hadn't cried yet, it was still more anger. The brunette just spoke, looking to the floor as it picturing something – and knowing Sara she was probably running over the body in her mind. "The only guy who wasn't there to just sleep with me…or use me. I was nineteen; I was alone until I got with him. He watched me back… promised he'd always watch my back" Sara stood up, and walked away from Catherine, the human contact was too much for her right now. She walked, over to the counter top where she lent over the sink. "He won't anymore huh?" It was a rhetorical question – one that neither of the women needed to answer. "The only family…I ever had was him. I love him… I've really got no one now."

Catherine's heart was breaking, the woman before her wasn't the one she knew. It wasn't the one that turned up on shift earlier… Sara Sidle had changed in the last few hours – she had become more vulnerable. She was just human.

"You have us … and we are going to do anything we can to make this okay"

"It'll never be okay…he's d…" She avoided the word again, "he's gone" She explained.

"Sara, I'll find who did this" Catherine vowed, solemnly.

This infuriated the brunette, who swung around, "I already know who it is…"

"Who do you think it is?" Catherine questioned, wanting to know about her Sara's past.

Sara looked out of the clear glass that lead to the rest of the lab, watching as the rest of them went about the rest of there lives, this was it, the moment that Sara Sadle was going to be known not as the hard, cold, fast mouth CSI she was now but, as something she had spent all her time hiding from them all. This was one of the many reasons she distanced herself from everyone but…now if she wanted justice for a guy who had always been there for her. She'd have to tell Catherine. She has no idea where to begin. "JC" Sara spat out the name as though poison, "Jessie Carter"

Sara wrote the name on paper, then looked back up to Sara who was fighting the most inner of her demons. The ones she buried so hard down that she was now having trouble bringing them to the surface. "and he want me dead" Sara explained.

"What do you mean? Why does he want you dead?" Catherine was so lost.

"Because… I ruined his life. I took 14 years of his life away…he wants mine." Sara looked to see the confusion on the face of the woman who had no idea what she was talking about. This was it, the moment that was going to destroy everything Sara had worked for. "I made a statement to the police, I got him arrested"

"What for?"

"I... " She tried so hard to say it, she tried to but just as she was unable to say the word death, this…was one that had also left her vocabulary. "I can't…look… I thought I could do this but I can't. Just…" Sara stood up and turned her back on Catherine. She was shouting with a raised voice – her anger towards herself. She took off towards the door and pulled it open. But she couldn't leave, not without giving the needed information – so that she could make sure JC paid for what he's done. "Run the name through the database…pull up the files…and…then ask me anything that you need to." He voice was low, soft…defeated.

Before Catherine could say anything else Sara was gone, out of the door.

tbc - you'll find out just what Sara's hiding next post. And you'll see just why she never wnated them to know. :)