A/N Thevery first fanfic I ever wrote. It's a song fic/POV. The pov changed every other section. Takes place during the last half of Season two of Buffy. The song is Breathe by Disturbed

Breathe

You will release your life

Forgetting what's forsaken

The reason why

You are alone again

You will believe the lie

Judging from what you've taken

You breathe. Alive

You are alone Again

I woke up and he was gone. His solidness was gone. The solace, the safety of his arms, gone. And I knew. I knew something was wrong. My lover was gone.

From the Heart of Darkness

You call to me

Spirit raging on

There is nothing I can do

For you are next to no one

My weakling other half had finally lost control. And now . . . Now I was here. I breathed the smoke into the cool air. She still called to me with her tears. I knew she was wondering where her dear Angel was. She'd never find him. He was gone. Her precious, tender-hearted lover was gone. She had unleashed the darkness, now she had only to come to me to find herself. She was mine.

You will release your life

Joining with the goddamned world

Of the dead and the lonely

You'll never leave alive

Now do you think you're too damn good

For the killing kind

I knew he had turned bad. I felt it deep inside. I tried to ignore it. I tried not to cry. He went to school to kill my friends. To give me a message, my lover was gone. I got it loud and clear. I acknowledged it with my tears. He laughs and calls me lover and inside I laugh too. An ironic name for what we are, slayer and vampire.

You will begin to cry

Hearing the silence breaking

You breathe. Alive

But you are alone again

I watch through the window as she finally cries. Even though I want to kill her. Even though I want to make her pay for humiliating me. I want to hold her in my arms and take her pain away. She sobs and she sobs and I recognize the truth. I am the only one who can take the pain away. She is mine and I must take care of her.

From the Heart of Darkness

You call to me

Spirit raging on

There is nothing I can do

For you are next to no one

Sometimes when I'm alone I contemplate his wild calls to me. What if I just let him kill me. Then nothing would matter. My heart would stop aching and y salty tears would dry away. Every once in a while I sense him following me and I know he won't hurt me. I feel almost safe knowing that he is watching over me. I wonder, what if he turned me? We'd be together again. But I know. Eventually, I'll have to kill him. The man I love, my lover, he is gone.

You will release your life

Forgetting what's forsaken

You Breathe. Alive

You are alone again . . .

Nothing I can do

And suddenly my soul burned. I couldn't remember anything, but somehowI knew that my love was hurting. She looked at me with her beautiful expressive eyes and I knew. Whatever was hurting I had been the cause of it. We kissed. My memories rushed back and I knew why she hurt. The pain of the sword plunging into my abdomen was almost comforting because I knew that Buffy loved me and that everything would be okay.

The End