The Love we Used to Have

Vastulja Sata Menton

Part Five – End

I made my way back to my care where I had last left it near the little café. It was a long walk but I figured that I deserved it. My drive back home was slow and filled with thought. I hadn't expected Releana to forgive me after all. I had screwed myself over. I had no right to ask of her anything really. Once back at the apartment I turned off my car. I was depressed, and hoping that Duo would help cheer me up. Little did I know that things were about to get a little more messed up.

The lights were on, but I found no immediate evidence that Duo was even home. Not in the kitchen, or in the living room. Naturally, I went to our room. What I found…I find it difficult to convey. Never in a million years would I have thought that this would happen to me. My conscience reminded me that I had just done it to Releana though. It truly was a shock to find my lover in bed with another man. I stared at them in shock, and Duo looked at me with horror in his eyes. It might not have been the best option at that time, but I couldn't help but laugh. Ironic, is what it was. Duo had just done to me what I had done to Releana. In a sense, it was really big 'fuck Heero triangle'. I had just screwed myself over, and there was no one else to blame.

I walked out, not even wanting to hear Duo's side of the story or his plea. I ignored his attempts to explain, because it was no good. I knew how it went. He didn't really love me. I wanted to be angry at him for so many reasons. But I couldn't, because I couldn't blame him. It would have been hypocritical to do so. I realized then that everything was a lie, and that I was alone. Who was I to go to? Not Releana, and Quatre couldn't help. Trowa had done the same thing to Quat that I had done to Releana, and that Duo had just done to me. So, he was out of the questions. There was no one, but I could only blame myself for that. It would figure. I broke Releana's heart, but I also broke my own. In the end, I deserved it.

Owari

AN: I know, a very short chapter and end. But hey, I know that all of you 1xR fans will love this twist. :) hehe..