Come Sweet Death

Chapter 2: Listen to Your Heart

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha, or the song ("Listen to Your Heart") by ROXETTE

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And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,

the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind

Kouga ran, ran as fast as he could, Inuyasha injured in his arms. He knew it was all his fault this happened. The wolf demon never meant to hurt the hanyou. 'How could I have been so heartless? Why am I so stupid and never told him the way I felt' He glanced at the face of the beautiful human boy. He had to help Inuyasha to survive the night, until the morning came and turned him again to a half demon.

"Don't worry Yasha… I won't let anything happen to you, I promise" whispered Kouga, tears still falling from his eyes.

Kouga felt helpless. Why didn't he tell Inuyasha the way he felt? He had to be a big baka and run away when Inuyasha finally admitted his feeling for him. He loved the inu. At first he didn't want to admit it, but the feelings just got stronger and stronger until he couldn't hide it any longer. He remembered all the times that he and the hanyou talked, laughed together. He would always remember the warmth of those golden eyes, the faint smile that graced his face, the slight blush that made the half demon look completely adorable.

Flashback Begins

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea

Inuyasha was walking slowly, gracefully into the forest. Kouga watched the hanyou, lust filling his body as he saw the way the inu swayed his hips as he moved, how his hair glowed, his milky white skin gleaming in the afternoon sun. The wolf demon composed himself, and goes to the inu.

'Maybe we won't fight today' though Kouga, smiling as he greeted the inu.

Inuyasha looks at Kouga, a shy smile and a blush evident on his face. They started talking as usual. The wolf demon knew that it was idle talk. But he couldn't help it. The beauty in front of him made him want to lose control, want to take him. Instead he lost himself in the golden orbs. But what he saw was something he didn't like. Sadness. Deep, all encompassing sadness.

"Inuyasha…what's wrong?" whispered the wolf demon

Inuyasha sighed. "I will never be loved or respected because I am a hanyou… a disgrace" said the inu.

Kouga didn't know what to do…so he did the only thing he knew would help the hanyou. Kouga smiles at the inu, hugging him.

Don't think that way. You are stronger then any full demon I know. Besides, you're not such a stupid beast at all"

Flashback ends

Finally, Kouga reaches his cave. He always went to this cave when he wanted to be alone, away from the den and its problems. He places Inuyasha on the pelts and goes to get wood for a fire. He knew he had to warm up the hanyou. As the demon starts the fire, he glances at Inuyasha. He then goes, and places a hand on the pups forehead. The human was running a fever, sweating profusely, struggling in his sleep.

"Kouga, please don't hate me… Don't…hit…me please. I..I…love ..you..onegai…Don't go"

The inu struggled harder, trying to reach out the Kouga in his dreams. 'Or nightmares' thought the wolf demon. He hated to see the hanyou suffer so. And all because he couldn't admit his feeling, to his love. The wolf sat on the pelts, pulling the inu in his embrace, placing his head on his chest.

"I won't let you go Inuyasha. I will always be there for you. I was stupid, blind. I tried to forget you, thinking I was going crazy because of my love for you. But I realized that you were the only thing keeping me sane. Please fight, get better. I would be lost without you."

Kouga tightened the embrace, tears streaming down his face. He knew this all happened because of that kiss. He wished he had reacted differently, wish he had told the puppy about his love and desire for him.

Flashback begins

You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Inuyasha was talking with Kouga, actually talking, without insults, without screams, without fights. And he loved every single moment of it. He wanted to believe so badly that the wolf demon may love him, just like he loved Kouga. Kouga smiled at him, telling him something about the Council in his den. But he wasn't really listening.

"Inuyasha?" Kouga said, confusion lacing in his voice

Kouga saw the look in the inus eyes, and felt a great joy and fear in his heart. As he saw the hanyou get closer and closer to him, the wolf demon went on a full panic. Then he felt the soft, oh so soft lips of the half demon on his own. He felt the warm, pliant body of the puppy and wanted nothing more then to take his body, run kissed all over his ivory skin, and touch the beauties hair to see if it really felt like the silk it appeared like. But he couldn't react. He wanted so bad to kiss him back… but he was scared.

As Inuyasha pulled back, Kouga saw the devastated look that the hanyou had in his eyes. He had hurt the pup in the worse way, and he was too much of a coward to try to make it all ok.

"Kouga" Inuyasha whispers, touching the young male Alphas cheek.

Kouga pulled away from the inu's hand and slaps him hard on the face. 'Why the fuck did I do that?' He wanted to help the pup stand up, but it was like his body was possessed by another person. Inuyasha was shocked, tears streaming down his face as he held his cheek with his hand. Kouga wanted to say he was sorry, but he couldn't. As the inu tries to get close to the demon, Kouga pushes him hard, making the hanyou stumble across a rock and fall on the ground.

"Don't GET NEAR ME YOU FUCKING MUTT!"

With that said, Kouga ran as fast as he could, forming a twister of dust as he ran far, far away from Inuyasha. How he hated himself, his idiocy. He loved the puppy. He had to go back and confess his feeling towards him.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

As he got back, he saw that there was no one there. Kouga smelled the air, and the scent of Kagome, Sango and Miroku were there as well as Inuyashas

Kouga ran to towards the village, trying to see if the humans knew where the hanyou was. The wolf saw the humans, and ran in their direction.

"Kagome, have you seen Inuysha?"

"That sick perverted thing? We told him we never wanted to see him again. He is so disgusting. Why would you want to see him? Men with men is wrong" Kagome spoke so vehemently that the wolf was taken aback. Was this the miko who always tried to help others, that always seemed to have compassion in her heart? He saw how the humans all had a look of revulsion and anger.

"How could you do that to him? He was your friend, your companion. He must be really heartbroken. And you made him go away. I am not revolted by Inuyasha…I am revolted by all of YOU! You have no heart. If you did you would have never done that to the one being that really cared about you all!" screamed Kouga, his whole body tense, his face red.

He left the humans, his anger at them disappearing as his worry for the hanyou increased. He would find his love, and tell him all.

Flashback ends

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.

All this time trying to forget the hanyou. They could have been together, been happy. But he ruined it all. The only thing he could do was try to protect the hanyou in his weakened state, and tell him everything when he woke up.

"I will be here for you koi" the wolf whispered, kissing the hanyou on his forehead, then, on his lips.

The inu opened his eyes, and kissed the wolf back. Kouga was surprised when he felt the cold lips of his pup move against his own, but he also welcomed it, relief evident as he deepened the kiss, slipping his tongue in the warm cavern of the inus mouth. The pup scent, of forest and wildflowers was intoxicating. And his taste…mmmm…if he could taste his puppy forever he would be the happiest wolf in the world. Kouga slid his hand throughout the puppy's hair, earning him a soft moan. The wolf pressed himself harder against the inu, his hands roaming the body of the beautiful angel that was under him. Wait a minute…UNDER HIM?

Kouga broke the kiss, and glanced at the human under him. His eyes were clouded over, half from desire, and half because of his fever. The human then caressed the wolfs cheek.

"I must be dreaming. He would never look at me with love in his eyes" whispered the inu, smiling faintly at the so called dream.

Kouga took his hand and stroked the pup hair. "I am not a dream pup. I am real. I am sorry for the pain I have caused you. I never thought that things would happen the way they did."

The wolf put the inus hand on his chest. Inuyasha was confused. He thought that Kouga hated him. He started to cry. He didn't want to hope and then have all those dreams crash down on him one more time.

"Inuyasha…you are part of my heart, part of my soul. I…Love you. I am sorry that I hurt you. I have been a real idiot, and I deserve all the hate you may now have for me. I…" Kouga was silenced by Inuyasha, who kissed his hand.

"I can never hate you my love. Even if this lasts only a day, it is better then to have never felt your love."

"No my puppy, this is not for a day…This is forever"

Kouga kissed the pup lightly on the lips. Inuyasha started to deepen that kiss, but the wolf stopped him. As the inu started to protest, Kouga placed a finger to the pups lips.

"I want you to rest now koi. You need all your strength in order to heal. But we will talk more when you get better."

Inuyasha smiled, and touched the wolf on the thigh. He then pulled the wolf with him and hugged him close, resting his head on the demons chest. Kouga felt as the hanyous breath deepened, he held him tighter. 'I will take care of you. And when the time comes, I will make you mine. I love you Yasha, and will never let you go again'

Kouga felt the tugs of sleep trying to claim him. He fell asleep, thinking of the beauty in his arms. He never noticed the figure looking at them, an evil glint shinning in its eyes as it gazed at the lovers.

I hope this chapter doesn't suck. I am trying to see if I put a lemon, but I am still not sure. 