Come Sweet Death
Chapter 3: Cry
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha, or the song ("Cry") by Mandy Moore
Legend:
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italics Song lyrics inside
It was the beginning of the afternoon before the wolf demon woke up. Kouga slowly opened his eyes, blinking as he looked at his surroundings. Suddenly, he looked down, but didn't see Inuyasha lying there with him. The wolf panicked, and ran out of the cave, trying to find his puppy. He saw the inu sitting against a tree, glancing at the sky, a troubled look in his face. He flowers on the ground surrounded the inu, creating an almost peaceful image, if it wasn't for the suffering evident in the pups eyes.
I'll always remember it was late afternoon
It lasted forever and ended so soon
You were all by yourself
Starring up at a dark grey sky
I was changed
Kouga know why the pup had that look in his face, he wanted that cute smile to grace the puppy's features. Slowly, the wolf demon walked towards the inu, and sits next to him on the ground. The demon takes the hanyous hand and kisses it softly, and places it on his chest.
"What is wrong koi?"
Inuyasha glanced into the eyes of the wolf, tears falling softly down his face. Kouga could give a name to every tear. Anguish. Hopelessness. Sadness. Despair. Inuyasha wanted to believe with all his heart that what happened the night before wasn't a dream. He wanted it all to be real. He had, for the first time in his life, felt that love of another person directed to him.
"I need to know….I need to know the truth. I love you. But I do not know what you may feel. I…don't want to hope…and…then...you…like mama…like everyone…they all leave. No one wants me…I am useless, dirty. I know I do not deserve you…but I wish…I…"
Inuyasha was sobbing, his pain, his loneliness evident in his golden eyes. Kouga quickly wrapped his arms around the crying hanyou, trying to ease his suffering.
In places no one will find
all your feelings so deep inside
It was then that I realized
that forever was in your eyes
the moment I saw you cry
'He must have always been alone. How could nobody love such an exquisite being such as him?'
Kouga kissed the hanyous tears away, and then kisses his lips. Inuyasha welcomed the warm lips, licking them lightly. Kouga taste of the sun, something purely manly, a taste he could really get used to. The wolf then cups the inu's cheek, making the pup gaze into his eyes.
"I love you Yasha. I was a fool. I thought I could run away from my feelings, but I was wrong. I need you in my life…I need you to complete me. I should have realized long ago that you were my salvation, my reason for sanity in this world that really doesn't give a fuck about anyone. I will never leave you alone puppy. I love you."
Inuyashas eyes showed the joy that the pup felt at these words. He wanted to leave behind all the loneliness that he had felt since his mama died. He had never been accepted, always different, never part of anything. He embraced the wolf, clinging to him, wanting to be close to his love.
"You promise? You will…never go?" asked the hanyou uncertainly, wanting to believe in someone after all the years of betrayal by everyone around him, all because he was a hanyou.
The wolf demon tightened his hold on the pup, tangling his hand in the inus hair. "I will never, never let you go. You are part of me…as I hope I will be part of you too."
Kouga wanted the hanyou to know the dept of his feeling…but he didn't know the right way to explain it. Talking about his feeling is not something that came easily for the warrior. He felt sad that the inu was so scared of being alone. Who would have thought that the proud hanyou had such fear in his heart?
It was late in September
And I'd seen you before
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure
The wolf demon always thought the hanyou was an arrogant cold bastard. What happened to the once proud and arrogant warrior?
I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything (all right)
'It was a mask. A mask to hide his true feeling. He must have always been persecuted in his life just because he was different. But things will change for him now…I will make sure of it.'
Kouga wanted to help the pup heal his wounds in the heart. He wanted to prove to the hanyou that good things could indeed happen to him. The demon played with the hanyou silver locks, touching his doggy ears, earning him a purr of pleasure from the beautiful pup in his arms.
"I want you Inuyasha. I want you as my mate, as my all. I will never leave you alone. It doesn't matter who accepts us…I will not leave your side my love."
Kouga lifts the pups face and kisses him softly. Inuyasha looks deeply in the wolfs eyes, and kisses him back, nipping on the demons lower lip, gaining entrance to the warm cavern of Kougas mouth. After an eternity, the pair had to break the kiss, they needed to breath. Inuyashas eyes were clouded over by desire and love, panting, a flush coloring his cheeks. Kouga touches lightly the inus cheek.
"I want to make things right for you my puppy. I want to take things slow, make you happy. I will prove my love to you. We will go to the den in two days to make the announcement."
Inuyashas eyes showed his hesitation. "What if they do not understand our love? I do not want you to have to leave your den because of me."
Kouga smiled, pulling the hanyou close. "I will deal with the den and the council. You are my mate, and I will always be with you…no matter what happens."
The lovers stay on the ground, wrapped in each others arms. They gazed at the sky, content of being close to their loved one. Neither of them wanted to move, even as the light of the sun slowly started to fade, and stars were beginning to appear in the sky. The wolf demon stood up, and scooped the hanyou in his arms, the pup blushing as the wolf carried him to the cave. With care, the wolf laid the pup on the pelts. After he started the fire, he saw that the inu had fallen asleep.
'He is so adorable. Like an angel…my angel.'
"I will protect you, koi. Always."
The demon laid next to the silver haired pup. Kouga wrapped his arms around his mate, pulling him close. He fell asleep with the smell of forest and wildflowers, a scent that the wolf demon always wanted in his life, one he would never tire of.
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