A/N: I wrote the first few pages of this in math class once I realized that between Tony, Tommy, John, and Kennedy, things would not get done. I hope you all like this.

ACK! Thank you so much for pointing that out, Shadow-san! I honestly would not have caught that if you hadn't mentioned it, so I once more thank you. The thing is, I write without making a plan beforehand and that's my big problem. I think I can fix this, but only through making Hakkai seem slightly forgetful, when he really isn't. I swear, I will fix it.

Trust

Chapter 5: Realization

The sunlight poured into the room that held Sanzo and Goku. However, this morning the light chose to fall directly onto the irritable houshi. "Ugh…" he grunted and went to move his hand to block out the light. However he found that his hand would not move seeing as how it ws trapped under something rather large, warm and heavy.

"What the hell…?" he grunted as he looked upon a huge mess of spiky brown hair, followed by a tanned face and some drool.

Sanzo twitched. Sanzo glared. Sanzo turned bright red.

"GET THE FUCK OFF ME, YOU DAMNED SARU!"…Sanzo yelled.

The monkey king flew and met the wall. He slid to the ground, flinched, and yawned, "What time is it?" He said sleepily.

The blonde monk twitched again, "Why, may I ask, were you in my bed?" he asked, the anger flowing unbridled into the simple statement.

Goku looked fearfully at his keeper, "I'm sorry, Sanzo. I got cold…" he explained, already moving to cover his head.

As expected, the houshi's paper harisen appeared from nowhere and began a very painful meeting with a messy brown head, "YOU," SMACK, "DAMN," SMACK, "MONKEY!" SMACK! Sanzo yelled irritably, his every word punctuated by a hit.

Goku covered his head, "But, ow, Sanzo, ow." Goku tried to say, "I, ow, didn't, ow, mean, ow, to, ow, make, ow, you, ow, mad, ow." he cried.

Sanzo finally stopped, "Who the fuck told you you could climb in my bed!" The monk continued to yell.

Goku was silent for that question.

At last Sanzo sighed, "You know what? Don't even bother answering, just go eat breakfast of something. Bother Hakkai or Gojyo, not me." He flipped his credit card at the monkey, "If you even think about spending more than you need to, I will kill you…after the sanbutsushin do anyway."

Goku's eyes lit up, "Really! Breakfast! Thank you, Sanzo!" he made to go bound out the door.

"Wait," came Sanzo's voice.

Goku turned around, "Yeah?"

Sanzo put a hand to his forehead, "Go ask Hakkai where the aspirin is," he ordered.

Goku nodded obediently and sprinted out of the room. He burst into Hakkai and Gojyo's room. He found the pair sprawled out in their respective beds, "Hakkai!" he shouted, "Sanzo wants some aspirin!"

Hakkai grumbled something and sat up, "Goku," the demon said tiredly, "I left Sanzo's aspirin in his bed table drawer."

Goku nodded and bounded back to Sanzo's room, "It's in the drawer," he said, almost forgetting to lower his voice.

The monk sent a glare in the genral direction of Hakkai's room and retrieved the medicine from the table, "Go eat," he mumbled to Goku.

Goku's face lit up and Sanzo had to fight to keep a small smile off his face, "Thank you, Sanzo!" he yelled happily and gave the blond haired man a quick hug before blushing and running away.

As soon as he had left Sanzo rolled over and before he fell back to sleep let out a tiny smile.

When Sanzo finally rolled out of bed it was well past noon and well into the afternoon, "Feh," he mumbled as he sat up and felt the pain in his head returning, along with a small crick in his neck from sleeping on it at a different angle. He gently massaged the offending muscle as he sat on the edge of his bed.

He briefly noticed that he wore nothing but a pair of white boxers. He suspected that Goku had probably done so in an effort to make him more comfortable. He groaned as he realized that his head injury would keep them there for at least another day. Despite his longing to leave and continue their western journey, he could see that being hindered in battle by disorientation, possible blackouts, and dizziness could potentially injure someone and hinder their quest even more.

Sanzo stood up a bit to quickly. All to soon the now familiar dizziness was upon him and he sat down trying to quell the impending darkness in his mind, "Damn," he muttered as the blackness faded. This time he stood far slower, making sure he could get his bearings and stand without fainting.

The monk cursed his mortal body. He was weak, although he could easily withstand far more than ordinary humans, his ability to stay conscious through powerful attacks was nothing compared to his youkai companions.

At last he could easily stand and walk around his room. Luckily, his stomach had perfect timing and began to make its hunger known within a minute of the monk's exit of the room. He made his way down the wooden steps to meet with an empty bar. He silently thanked the stupid hag that had forced this cursed quest upon them for once and sat down.

The waiter/bartender appeared from behind the counter and placed a menu before Sanzo. The monk didn't cast it a second glance but instead simply ordered, "Steak. Medium well done. Beer. Cold." he ordered with a groan. His headache was making itself even more well known.

The waiter raised his eyebrow at the grumpy man in front of him, but he shrugged and walked to the kitchen. Sanzo watched the man go through narrowed eyes before letting his head fall onto his arms, briefly wondering why he hadn't bothered to put his robe on, instead being dumb enough to stumble down in a pair of white shorts.
His purple eyes watched the empty room, perfect, it was nice and quiet. Well it was until he heard them coming. He could hear the dumb monkey at the corner of their street. "Fuck…" he mumbled as the three men burst in.

Goku bounded over to the golden-haired monk immediately, "Sanzo!" he exclaimed, "You're feeling better!"

Sanzo glared at him, "No, I am not, I have a headache and if I had my gun with me I'd shoot you." he growled.

Goku looked at him quizzically, the saw that the monk didn't have enough clothing on to conceal a gun, not even his fan, "Oh." he said. He stopped talking and put his head on his arms, using the position to sneak appreciative looks at his love. Sanzo had quite the body. He had a very toned body and his muscled form was complimented by his pale skin.

He was taken from his Sanzo appreciation activity when Sanzo's food and Hakkai appeared at the same time. Hakkai held a green glass bottle in his hand, "Minna, I'm going out for a bit, I'll be back before dark." he said, "Sanzo, your medicine is in the drawer still." and with that he walked out.

The demon walked the streets of the town until he reached the outskirts where the woman he was bringing medicine to lived. He thought about how he had found her, Kanan's…mother…? "Wait a second," he murmured to himself, "Has it really been so long that I've forgotten? Kanan…my sister…that means that Kanna is my…mother." he said in joy, "My mother!" he yelled, his joyous voice carrying through the village. He stopped, "I have to ask her what happened to me…" his voice trailed off as he began to run towards Kanna's tent.

He stopped short when he saw nearly the entire encampment gathered around the small shelter. He pushed his way to the front, "What happened?" he asked in worriment.

Kanan saw him and ran to hug his leg, "Ha-hakkai-san, m-mommy…she d-d-died la-last night." she sobbed.

Hakkai was struck with horror, "Kanan!" he demanded, "Tell me what happened." he ordered.

The child clung to his leg, "I I I don't know, I went to get some wa-water for her cause she l-looked sick, an an an when I came b-back, she was all white an she wouldn't wake up." she told him through her tears.

Hakkai fell to his knees, staring at the bottle that could have cured her. He looked to the sky which told him it was the late afternoon, "Momma…" he whispered so quietly that no one could hear it.

He saw a middle aged man standing at the entrance to the tent. He saw his daughter talking to Hakkai and walked to them, "Hakkai-sama," he greeted, "My wife told me about you,"

Hakkai nodded, "I I am sorry for your loss." he said.

The man offered his hand to pull the demon up, "Walk with me." he said.

Hakkai accepted and the three, the man, Kanan, and Hakkai began to walk to a different part of the encampment. There they sat on the ground and all three looked at the sky, "I am Tetsuya," he said.

"It's a pleasure to meet you, Tetsuya-san, although the circumstances are less than desirable." Hakkai said back.

Tetsuya was silent for a moment, "She told you of our daughter, but she never told you of our son," he said calmly.

Hakkai shook his head.

Tetsuya suddenly shot him a look, "It's you, I know you are my son, Kanna did too, she told me."

Hakkai nodded, "Yes, Kanan…Kanan…" he managed to say.

The older man nodded, "Kanna…she held on long enough, her one wish in life was to find her children, to learn of their fates. When she had found out, she was able to let go." he told the demon.

Kanan sat silently as she watched the man who was her brother, he was…handsome she decided. He would be hers someday, just like he had been her sister's.

The two men embraced, "Tell me of your life." Tetsuya asked.

Hakkai nodded, "Of course, I grew up in an orphanage in a small town. They raised me a Christian and I was a rather…distant child. I never accepted them, I can easily say that I was far too mistrusting and philosophical for one my age. While there I met Kanan." his eyes took on a distant look, "She was so beautiful, I loved her and we were engaged to be married. But then…" his eyes turned dark, "The Yakugen Mou centipede demon tribe stole her from me, so I killed them all, all one thousand of them. So, as retribution for my sins, I was turned into the very thing I hated. I was torn, so I stabbed myself. A man found me and took me in, he is now my best friend," he paused, he did not have the heart to tell his father that he had put Kanan behind him and taken on Gojyo as his new lover.

He cleared his throat and continued, "Now me, Gojyo, and two others travel west on a journey to terminate the plans of some very powerful and ancient demons to resurrect an evil demon that would make a massacre of the human race."

Tetsuya nodded, "I wish you luck," he ran a hand through thick brown locks that Hakkai recognized as being quite similar to his own. He also noted that his emerald eyes came from the woman he had never truly known.

The demon rose, "I must go, maybe I will meet you here during the remainder of my stay here, but now…I can not…I must…" he said, his voice slowly becoming more and more congused.

Tetsuya nodded, "Don't worry, I understand. Be strong kiddo." he chuckled at the expression Hakkai gave him, "Sorry, I just always wanted to say that to you…" his voice trailed off, "Anyway, maybe we'll see you before you leave. Good luck." he said, his words carrying on the wind.

Hakkai smiled, and almost to quick to be seen, he gave the man that was his father a hug, then sprinted away, a smile on his face.

Tetsuya watched as his son hagged him, then ran off to his friends. It felt nice, nice to know that his son was alive and he had protected his sister as long as he could. The man smiled and walked back to the camp to face the others about the strange man with his hair and Kanna's eyes. They would want to hold a large ceremony for the woman he loved, but he would probably sneak off in the dead of night and give her a quiet moonlit burial, one she would have liked.

Hakkai returned to the inn soaked and covered in mud, but with a huge grin on his face. It had started to rain, and he had gotten splattered in mud, but it didn't phase him. Gojyo, who had looked up at him when the door opened, whistled in a low tone, "Damn, you're as dirty as the whores back home, but you look happy as the guy that won the lottery."

Hakkai just continued to grin, "I did, my friend, I did." he said and continued upstairs.

Gojyo, ever the curious one, set down his beer and followed his friend upstairs to their room where he saw Hakkai disappear into the bathroom. He sat down on his bed and waited for his friend. The hanyou could hear his youkai friend toss his muddy clothing to the floor, turn the shower on, then finally the rustling of clothing as the older man dressed.

Hakkai came through the door dressed for bed in a pair of deep green boxers and a black tank-top. He yawned, "Hello, Gojyo, did you need something?" he asked, his mind completely forgetting his situation with the kappa for a few moments.

Gojyo sighed and ran a hand through his hair as he looked at the ceiling, "Man…we need to talk…"

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