A/N: Guess who's back? Back again? Dragid's back, tell a friend! Whee! Here's chapter 6! Sorry bout the cliffy in chapter 5!

Disclaimer: Y'know, I've forgotten this damn thing for the past 5 chapters. I knew I was forgetting something. Anyway, I don't own Saiyuki :cries: but I do own a nice little Saiyuki poster that's on my door.

Trust

Revelation

Hakkai looked at his red headed friend and sighed, "I know, Gojyo, I know…I was just…hoping to maybe postpone this until tomorrow evening. You know, when neither of us were as tired…"

Gojyo sat upright, "Fuck no! Things are getting too fucking weird between us, I can feel it and I know you can too! You're my best friend, and no matter what happens I refuse to lose that, even if we don't end up together!"

Hakkai looked shocked at Gojyo's outburst then sat down next to him, "Gojyo…I don't know how you feel about me…about us being together. You said you were confused, and I understood that, not many are placed in your current position. But after…after Goku's outburst the other day, I don't know. I meant what I said, Go. I love you." he said, his head bowed.

Gojyo watched the older demon and hugged him tight, earning a small gasp from the youkai. When he let go, he frowned when he saw that Hakkai still hung his head. He placed two calloused fingers under his chin and lifted it gently. The kappa pressed his forehead to Hakkai's and whispered, "Don't you ever look that ashamed in front of me again, makes me feel bad, y'know, it's even worse than seeing girls cry."

Hakkai watched those searing crimson eyes as they bore into his own emerald ones. He gasped when the crimson disappeared as Gojyo closed his eyes and pressed his lips to Hakkai's. The hanyou, for once, kept the kiss a chaste one, then pulled away.

"Kai?" he asked.

Hakkai nodded, "Yes, Go?" he answered, his heart soaring and his breath short.

Gojyo turned red, "I…I love you, Kai." he said.

Hakkai grinned madly, "I love you too, Go!" he nearly shouted, then, in an act of joy, jumped on Gojyo and tackled him to the bed.

Gojyo raised an eyebrow, "Damn, man, you're that eager to get me into bed?" he asked teasingly.

Hakkai immediately turned a shade of red to match Gojyo's hair, "Maybe," he teased back.

Gojyo smirked, "Well in that case…" he kissed Hakkai.

The green eyed demon gently pushed him away. He chuckled at the confused expression on the hanyou's face, "It's the middle of the day, Gojyo, what if we're needed?"

Gojyo growled, "Fuck it, Kai, I've wanted you so badly for the longest time,"

Hakkai shook his head firmly, "I can't, Go, not when we're still preoccupied with this journey." he sighed.

Gojyo stared at him, "Why can't the damned thing wait! That stupid monk's still laid up with a head wound and that damned monkey'll get his ass kicked if he comes in!"

Hakkai shook his head, "I want to…no, I need to wait, Go. I love you so much and I want to do this too…but I have, no we have an obligation to others to protect them with no regard for ourselves. Doing this will seal the bond, we'll make foolish mistakes and try to protect each other, which will get one of us killed in the end. We have to protect them, in this leg of our lives, we as people are not the thing that is important." The green-eyes demon stated while looking out the window.

Gojyo watched his best friend look away, "Hakkai…" he sighed, "Don't you get it?"

Hakkai turned to look at his love, "Don't get what?" he asked.

Gojyo pulled Hakkai to his chest and kissed him, "I love you," he whispered in the youkai's ear, "And when love comes into play," he nibbled the rim of Hakkai's ear, "No one," he licked it, "Else," Hakkai felt the kappa's hands travel to his chest, "Matters," he breathed in Hakkai's ear.

Hakkai moaned from the attentions the hanyou was giving him, but finally pushed him away, "No," he said firmly.

Gojyo gave a disgruntled noise before moving away from Hakkai, "If you say so, then I'll stop trying for that." he moved towards the door, "But," he turned to look at the slightly ashamed Hakkai, "I wont stop loving you." he watched Hakkai's shaded eyes, "I'm going for a drink and a smoke, you want to come?"

Hakkai shook his head, but stood up and walked to Gojyo's side, "No, I was thinking a walk would be nicer than a bar."

Gojyo nodded, seeing that his Hakkai wanted to clear his head, "Alright, just promise me that you'll be back before ten?" he asked

Hakkai mumbled a yes before walking briskly though the door and out into the woods.

The hanyou, meanwhile, had taken a seat in the bar, but now, to his surprise, found no urge to drink or gamble as he had originally intended to do. Instead he sighed and sat back in his chair. 'Funny' he thought, 'I don't even want a smoke.'

Hakkai had not gone far from the inn, seeing as how it was already after dark. He estimated it to be about 9:45 now, seeing how it had been eight when he had left. He stood from his seat under the branches of a large willow and began to head back to the inn.

The youkai sighed, sitting out there in the cold had done no good, only thoughts of Gojyo filled his head. Even trivial memories of the kappa had flooded his mind, leaving room for no thoughts other than, 'The people don't matter, just him and I together.'

Unfortunately, Hakkai's rational thought had decided to battle against the matters of his heart and for once in his life, Hakkai threw rationality to the wind and was content to think of his beloved kappa. Now it was nearing the time he had promised to be back by and he knew that it was well past the time to head back. Then again, it was only a five minute walk.

By the time he reached the inn, the clock was just beginning to chime ten so he hurriedly made his way up the stairs, and burst into the room just as the clock struck ten. He expected to find a slightly drunk and worried Gojyo, but instead found his love half under the blankets, a small book which could only be his diary laying across his chest, along with a silver pen he had picked up a long long time ago.

Hakkai smiled faintly and removed the articles from the hanyou's chest and placed them on the table. Was he curious? You ask. The answer was no, Hakkai knew all he needed to know about the red-headed half demon already. Hakkai then stripped down to his boxers and crawled into the bed next to Gojyo. Oddly enough, as soon as he crawled in, Gojyo immediately pulled the shorter man flush against his chest so that Hakkai's back was against his chest.

Hakkai smiled and snuggled closer, "I love you," he whispered.

Just as he was sure that the kappa was sleeping, he heard a tired, "I love you too," from the solid body adjacent to him. Hakkai simply smiled and closed his eyes.

As the hanyou and demon were sleeping, Sanzo lay awake in bed. It wasn't his head, no, his head felt perfectly fine. It was his heart that ailed him on this clear evening. He sighed, staring at the ceiling. Feelings for Goku had stirred in his heart and he knew it. That he could accept. What he could not accept was the fact that he wasn't able to hold them down until a more…manageable time.

He groaned and rolled onto his stomach, hoping to keep the feelings he had locked up in his heart down there for the time being. God damn that stupid saru for affecting him like this. No one had ever been able to make him feel loved since Komyou had died those many years ago.

For once in his relatively short human life, he had begun to let his past leave him. For years it had lingered, bottled up, always haunting him, never letting him have a moments peace. But ever since that kiss in the woods…his heart had ached for more, and that ache had made him able to see that his dwelling on the past was of no matter. He had learned from it, and now, he realized, it was time to let go.

His head was starting to ache, but strangely enough, he didn't wish to quell it. The pain cleared the fog from his thoughts and brought upon him the one thing he had tried to keep away: he was in love with Goku. He loved the little monkey more than his life. But no one else would know that, not for a while at any rate.

He growled, when mad, blame someone else, "God damnit, Kanzeon Bosatsu. Goddess of Mercy my ass."

Then, being effectively pissed off with the world in general, shoved his head under his pillow and neglected the rest of the world the entire night.

If you figure out how much drama was unfolding between the various members of their party, you would obviously assume that something important was happening to Goku. In reality, he was bored out of his mind, although what he would end up doing would worry the others even more so than they had been that day.

For the time being, he was wandering the streets of the town, his hand fingering the golden credit card in his pocket. He grinned, it was a great thing that the three talking heads paid this thing and that Sanzo was headache-y enough for him to grab it. Extra food, here comes Goku.

Goku walked the streets and frowned. All the places smelled so good, but none really caught his fancy. He could see all the delicious looking foods in store windows and food stalls. There were meat buns, dried squid, ramen, miso soup, so many good foods, but for once in his life, that little nagging voice in his head that begged for food just wasn't there today.

He half heartedly bought some squid out of force of habit and took a seat in the local park to nibble away at the food. Half way through the food he tossed the rest to the birds that fluttered around. 'Stupid Sanzo' he thought with a sigh, It's him that's making me feel all funny. I know I love him, but the only reason I feel so weird is because I'm not sure if he loves me back.' He sighed again and reclined against the tree, staring up at the darkening sky.

A flock of birds flew by and the monkey king smiled. Being free was a glorious feeling after 500 years in a stone prison. The memories brought a frown after the smile. He wished he knew why he had been locked up there for so long. He must have done something horrible to warrant such a sentence.

Because of Homura he knew that he committed a crime against the heavens and Sanzo, Gojyo, and Hakkai had been involved, but he assumed that they had died unlike him, or they might have suffered the same fate. At least they had all been reunited in the end, probably from the intervention of the 'Goddess of Bitchiness and Trouble' as Sanzo called her.

He giggled at the nickname and rose form his spot. Time to get back before Sanzo noticed his credit card was missing.

As a matter of fact, Sanzo had no idea. As a general rule it was known that Sanzo knew everything you did, whether you knew he did or not. But this time, Goku was able to sneak into their room and slip the plastic card into Sanzo's bag with an almost perverse glee at having gotten away with it. Not that anyone would notice, he had bought a few pieces of squid. They cost hardly any yen.

Seeing as how it was still early and Sanzo would hit him with his fan if he woke him up, he decided to go bother Hakkai and Gojyo. Well, mostly Gojyo, Hakkai never minded.

He bounded down the hall to play with his friends and opened the door carefully, just in case Gojyo had set a trap for him as revenge for the last time. There was no trap, but Goku was puzzled when he heard soft snoring from a bed. There was a big lump, so Goku figured it was Gojyo.

He crept up on the bed and grinned, "BONZAIIIIIIII!" He yelled and jumped onto the lump.

It didn't take longer than two seconds for surprised noises to come out, followed by the feeling of cold, sharp steel against his throat. Gojyo crouched glaring at him while Hakkai was tangled in the blankets on the floor.

"You damned monkey, knock first, baka," Gojyo growled.

Goku looked dumbly at the scene before him. There were two people. There was one lump. Both men had boxers on. Goku made the connection. "Ohhhhh! I get it! Hakkai's back hurt from that demon a couple days ago so you were giving him a back massage!" the monkey said intelligently.

Then he had the gall to look dumbstruck when Gojyo gave him the, 'Wow are you stupid look' and Hakkai giggled.

"What?" he asked innocently.

"N-nothing, Goku, you were right on target," Hakkai managed to answer.

Goku looked slightly pouty, "I think you're lying 'cause you don't wanna play,"

Gojyo grinned his playboy grin, "Oh, we want to play, just not with you," he teased.

Hakkai shot a glare at the kappa, "No we weren't Goku, Go is just being difficult."

"Go?" the youkai questioned.

Hakkai paled, "Ano…slip of the tongue, time to leave Goku!" with that he shoved the younger boy into the hall, slammed the door shut, and locked it.

Goku stood in the hall and pouted for a bit, "You guys are mean!" he called into the room.

His only response was a muffled moan and Gojyo saying, "Oh! So you do like massages?"

Grown-ups could be so mean sometimes.

With that thought he exited the building and took to wandering the town once more. Since he figured that no one would really care too much if he didn't show up for a while, he curled up in the blanches of a large oak tree in the park and fell asleep.

End of Chapter

A/N: Ewww, this was mostly a filler chapter, and before I go on, please don't kill me for no sex yet! There will be some soon as my awesomely cool 'Lana-chan knows.

The next chapter will have the boys heading out west again, I think they've dilly-dallied in this town for too long.

Preview:

"Jeez, Sanzo, what could a little old lady do to us?" Gojyo wanted to know.

"I don't know, but I don't trust her." Sanzo replied, his eyes never leaving the woman.

The hag stepped forward, "What if," she began, "I could grant your most innermost desire?"

Is that angst enough for you guys? Believe me, it's gonna be good and long, the chapters revolving around this little old lady known as 'Desire.' The idea for this character is gonna mix it up a little, so please enjoy the next chapters that concern her and the problems she creates, along with the happiness. Heh, I hope I've amply confused you. :Hugs all the confused people:

Ok, I hugged you, now plllleeeeeaaaasssse review! I accept anonymous reviews too, so don't be shy! Oh, and if you aren't signed in or you just aren't a member, leave your email address if you're interested in notification emails, k? Good, now please review, I really want this fic to do well! Feel free to IM me too, my screen name is Dragid909. I love you all! Please review!

I have something to add before I go and post, I got a 69.4 in English this term, which warrants my mother taking away my computer away from now (4/12/05) until the beginning of next school year. End of 4th term if I get an A in English. I'm starting to write chapter 7 today and I'll work on it whenever I can get my computer for my 'themes' and hopefully I'll still be able to update once every month or so.

Dragid

Side thing:

Five Things I Wonder About Modern Christianity

1. Why is our newest Pope an ex-Nazi?

2. Why does the Pope ride around in a glass box? I mean, even if he were to be killed, he'd be

he'd be going to heaven anyway.

3. Why do we still believe in God and Jesus? The last time they made themselves known was

over 2,000 years ago.

4. Since the rate of sin has certainly gone up since biblical times, does heaven actually let

anyone in anymore?

5.) Does Hell expand exponentially by the amount of evil souls? Or will it explode when the pressure of all the compressed souls gets to be to much?

Kudos and Thanks to:

Reina-183 - w00t! I feel special now, I got a smiley face from you!

slvrsword - 5 minutes? The whole thing o.O even I can't read that fast…

krazy-chan - Heh. The 'talk,' I'm sorry to disappoint you on the outcome, even I was thinking

there was gonna be some lemon, but I killed it. I killed it so freakin bad.

Lady Meru - YES! I'm skilled! Fuck yeah! I'm sorry you hate me though --;; although I didn't

do much to help that what with my killing of lemon…

Koto Juri - Thank you

Luthia - Yeah, my typing errors are pretty damn bad…

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