Disclaimer: I don't own Lizzie McGuire or anything related to it. The song 'I Should Have Said I Love You' belongs to Huckapoo, 'Put Your Heads On My Shoulder' to Good Charlotte and 'Desperately' is Michelle Branch's.
Chapter 7. Desperately
Lizzie groaned, lying over her stomach on her bed. Tammy had decided to turn her own stereo as loud as possible, making her hungover feel even worse. Callie walked in and handed her a cup of coffee.
"Thanks," Lizzie muttered. Callie nodded and walked over to her bag, zipping it up. Lizzie followed her movements by the corner of her eyes envyously.
"Okay, are you sure you don't want to come?" Callie asked for the gazillionth time. "I would really like to have you back there" Lizzie sighed and shook her head.
"I don't wanna face him, Cal. He hurt me way too much," Lizzie whispered. Callie sat on her side and sighed as well.
"Why do you think he did that? Liz, he was heartbroken. He had traveled just to be by your side, a-and you just shut him down," Callie whispered back. Lizzie nodded, tears appearing in her eyes. "When are you gonna tell me the whole story?" Lizzie swallowed hard and shook her head. Callie nodded, a little disappointed, and Tammy opened her bedroom door, the music blasting even louder.
"Baby I should have said I love you
I should have said that I do love you too
Boy you know I was scared
To say that I cared
But I know I do
I should have said I love you
I still feel your kiss on my lips
I remember the sweet look in your eyes
When you whispered the words "Baby, I love you"
You know you froze me
I was hit by surprise
Why did I let you turn and walk out that door
I know I'm not afraid anymore..." Lizzie shut her eyes closed.
"Tammy, turn that darn thing off!" she cried. Callie looked at her, surprised, and Tammy appeared on the doorframe.
"Well, I'm sorry you're mad at me because I told mom and dad about Jay!" Tammy exclaimed, before slamming her door. Lizzie broke down and Callie hugged her gently.
"Oh, baby, I'm so sorry... I didn't know," Callie said. Lizzie shook her head, refusing to face her.
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A while after sleeping together and Bella's call, Lizzie and Jay decided to get up for Christ sake. They had done enough cuddling for a week, though both were up for more. She was glad she had found someone like Jay, someone she could rely on. He was just as excited, knowing he had the woman he had fantasized about since they first met and spent weeks hopelessly flirting with.
"What are we doing?" Lizzie asked, amused, as Jay pulled her up by her hands. She was wearing a nice tiny orange sundress with spaghetti straps and a cowboy hat she had found among his stuff. He turned on his radio and led her to the center of the room, holding out his hand. She giggled and took it, placing her other on his shoulder. He placed his around her dreamy tiny waist and they danced slowly, their eyes locked with each other's.
"put your heads on my shoulder
hold me in your arms, baby
squeeze me oh so tight and show me
that you love me too
put your lips next to mine dear,
won't you kiss me once so baby,
just to kiss goodnight and maybe
you and I will fall in love
people say
that love is a game
a game, you just can't win
if there's a way I'll find it someday
and then this fool will rush in
put your heads on my shoulder
whisper in my ear baby
words I wanna hear, tell me
tell me that you love me too
put your heads on my shoulder
whisper in my ear baby
words I wanna hear please, baby
put your heads on my shoulder"
Lizzie closed her eyes slowly and opened them up again, only to find Jay's fixed in herself. She placed her head on his shoulder, inhalling his smell and he lowered hisface a little. They kissed slowly and she stared into his eyes, which seemed to glow even more than usual.
"Baby, I love you," he whispered. She froze, surprised, and flushed, looking down.
"I-," she stuttered, knowing how truly difficult it was for herself to pronounce those words. She gazed into his eyes and stuttered again, breaking apart from his embrace.
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Lizzie closed her eyes, hurt by the memory, and got up suddenly. She knew it had felt like true love, something she hadn't quite felt while with Gordo in their last years.
"Liz?" Callie said, confused. Lizzie looked at her, her eyes glowing, and grabbed her bag from under her bed. She filled it quickly with some of her clothes and looked again at her best friend.
"What are we waiting for?" Lizzie asked in a whisper. Callie smiled and got up as well. They headed downstairs, where a surprised Tammy was standing. Lizzie hugged her tightly.
"What are you doing?" Tammy asked. Lizzie smiled at her younger sister.
"Not missing out in true love, that's for sure," Lizzie whispered. Tammy nodded slowly. "I'm going to find Jay" The younger blonde took a deep breath.
"Look, Lizzie... I don't know if this helps you, but Jay truly loved you. I could tell by the look in his eyes when he dropped you off one night," Tammy whispered back. The sisters hugged again. "What am I supposed to tell mom and dad?"
"Tell them... that I went to make my dreams come true. They can only happen with one certain person by my side," Lizzie said. Tammy smiled as the older girls rushed out.
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Sitting on the airplane as it landed, Lizzie turned to Callie.
"What if I'm not making the right decision? What if he doesn't want to see me now?" Lizzie asked, panicked. Callie smiled.
"Did I ever tell you how Ryan and I hook up?" she asked. Lizzie shook her head and Callie closed her eyes, remembering. "Only a couple of days after Jay went to HillRidge, Ryan and I were talking in his department. We were discussing you two... and talking about love. I had been heartbroken not so long ago, and he knew it. I said I didn't truly believe it could happened to me, saying how everybody seemed to get their fairytale ending, and he listened..."
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"So, which was your favorite part about Fairy Tales?" Ryan asked. Callie tilted her head and closed her eyes, thinking.
"Well, I guess it's the 'Happily ever after' kiss. That one kiss that tells you everything is gonna be ok. The magical, perfect one," Callie said. Ryan placed his hand gently on her cheek, brushing her brown locks, and kissed her slow and sweetly.
"Was that one even close?" he whispered. She shook her head, surprised, and he looked down.
"It was even better," she whispered back, pulling him closer for more.
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"Omigosh..." Lizzie whispered, marveled, while Callie smiled. "He's so sweet!"
"I know. Jay was also, with that song and all... My point is, if he hadn't taken that first step, we wouldn't be here right now," Callie said. Lizzie nodded and clutched her hand to her chest, eyes closed. "Are you ok? The guys are going to pick... me up" Lizzie arched her eyebrows and opened one eye.
"Well, I'm getting ready to see him, my question is... will he be ready too?" she said. Callie smirked as they walked out slowly.
End of chapter.
"Something 'bout the way you looked at me
Made me think for a moment,
That maybe we were meant to be
Living our lives seperately
And it's strange that things change
But not me wanting you so desperately
Oh why can't I ignore it?
I keep giving it in but I should know better
'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me
And it's strange that things change
But not me wanting you so desperately
You looked my way and said "you frustrate me"
Like you're thinking of lines and times
When you and I were you and me
We took our chance out on the street
Then I missed my chance
And chances are it won't be coming back to me
Why can't I ignore it?
I keep giving in, but I should know better
'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me
And it strange that things change
But not me wanting you-
So desperately
So desperately
Oh why can't I ignore it?
I keep giving it in but I should know better
'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me
And it's strange that things change
But not me wanting you so desperately
I keep giving in but I should know better
I keep giving in but I should know better
So desperately
I want you so desperately"