I would look at my self in the mirror.

'Fat. You are so fat.' the red headed me in the mirror seemed to spit the words at me.

A normal person would see me, Ginny Weasley.

Stick thin. Round breasts. Freckles. And red hair.

But I saw nothing but my huge thighs and round stomach. My face was weird shaped from the fat that sat there. i was hiedeous.

little did I know that this was mearly fear's work. Memories of my fat days and how they haunted me. I couldnt get away.

Nobody said anything about it, but everyone heard the vomiting in the middle of the night. They saw the full plates of food. But nobody wanted to come out and say that I had a problem.

Even I couldnt say it. But i knew what i did. But i never saw any results.

Everyday i would stay the same.

It was like I thought i was eating...like i made up memories and occorances.

Fat Ginny was eating at meals. Fat Ginny was mearly peeing in the middle of the night. But Fat Ginny wasnt real, just an excuse for the smart part of my mind. I was run by the weak side.

When boys asked me out, i would delete it.

When girls told me i was pretty, I would cry.

But i had my little crushes, my infactuations. None of them actually exsited, but what are you gonna do?

This is the story of my awakeing.

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"Is anyone in hear?" the voice was like a knife, it cut through the scilence.

Ginny's heart was pounding. It was 2:00 in the morning and i had needed to get rid of dinner. She had ran down to the prefects bathroom and shut out all the lights. Now a boy was here and he knew she was there.

"Um, just using the loo." Ginny said in a shakey voice. She heard the boy snort. She frowned.

"Using it for what? Cleaning the toilet with you mouth? You cant fool me, i heard you retching down the hall. I came here to see if there were problems, but instead i find a very vain girl trying to stay thin." Ginny curled up and was glad for the darkness. The sheer disgust in his voice had almost cut her.

Ginny heard the footsteps. She stood and opened the stall door.

"Shit!" Draco Malfoy was standing infront of her with a look of disbelife. It chipped away at Ginny's self image. He thought she was that ugly and fat?

"I'm not trying to stay thin, I'm trying to get thin." She said not making eye contact with him.

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"You scared me for a second there. So-" He stopped mid sentace. He could barely see the girl, he saw the red gleam of her hair.

"Shut Up! I dont need you to make fun of me!" Ginny yelled at the palehaired boy.

Draco was slightly taken aback.

"Make fun? You practicly pounced on me! I have the right to be scared of people leaping at me in the dark." He said, pushing the hair out of his eyes.

Ginny didnt know what to do. She was like one of thoses muggle computers when they malfunctioned. He hadnt been scared of her.

"Well...just leave me alone! I don't need your fat jokes." Ginny said walking past him. He shot out for her wrist.

"Wait!" he hissed. He was shocked to feel how small her wrist was. Was this some little 2'nd year? He reached for the light switch, pulling her with him.

The light was on and the girl standing infront of him was Ginny Weasley.

She was the skinniest girl he had ever seen. She had bags under her brown eyes and was deathly pale. Her collar bone stuck out sharply, along with her cheeck bones. She was beautiful in a deathly way. The only thing not out of place, was the red hair. Waves of it tumbled down her back, stopping around her bum.

"Crieky you're skinny." he said in a meek, and very un-malfoyish voice. She tugged her oversized robe around her body.

"Fuck you! Don't bloody lie to me!" She said moving for the light switch. he grabbed her around the middle, picked her up and moved her away from it. She looked at him with awe mixed with suspision.

"You had a strenght charm on. its the only way." She said, almost as if she was peaking to her self, convinceing herself that it was the reason.

"No. And to prove it. Finne Incatum!" he said pointing the wand at his chest. He grabbed her again."You are simply not facing the facts. You have an issue." he said putting her down again.

"If i did, my family would help me." Ginny said with a timmid strength.

"Where are all of you Gryffendor pals? Shouldnt they be the ones telling you not to be Bulimic?" He said bluntly. Ginny looked at him with disbelief, no one had ever used the word to describe her "weight loss program".

"I'm not bulimic." Ginny said, but she looked as though she knew it wasnt true.

"What do you call it?" Draco said snidely. Ginny didnt say anything. She looked at the floor.

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Something was breaking through in her mind. It was like the real Ginny was tapping on the glass, trying to break it.

She didnt know what to say back to him. None of it made sense, not even to her.

When she had started, it was just to loose weight...now it was her lifestyle.

"If we talk, can we please turn off the lights?" She said, and even to herself she sounded pitiful.

"Okay." He said clicking off the lights. It was a dark night so there was no light from the windows. Ginny relaxed. No one could see her now.

Malfoy had sat on the floor leaning against a wall. Ginny followed suit.

"Where do i start?" She sighed, flopping down next to Malfoy.

"Start at the beggining, continue until you come to the end, then stop." He said looking at the ceiling.