8. The Loser

Its been a year since the shooting and everyone is walking around the school like zombies. Miss Sauve decides to have a session of expressing how they feel, and how everything has changed. Craig, Hazel, Alex, Ellie, Jimmy, Emma, Spinner, Paige, Toby and Marco are all in the same session it had affected them most, so she had them all grouped together. Spinner felt out of place he was still the outcast with his old friends and Darcy wasn't in their group. Toby had always been an outcast, but they had all forgotten about that after the shooting and they treated Toby like they had been friends with him forever. Jimmy and Hazel were still rocky after their break up. Paige and Alex's recent involvement was a little strange for everyone. The head Cheerleader coming out as confused about her sexual preference. Ellie had lost her boyfriend because of the shooting. Craig and Marco had to see what everyone else had gone through, and try to support them in the hardest time of their lives. Now they are all sitting in a circle in the gym silently.

"Ok, we all know why we are here, so who'd like to start?" Miss Sauve asks looking around the circle.

Nobody wants to volunteer because no one wants to remember it. After a few minutes Jimmy speaks first.

"Out of everyone here the shooting affected my life the most. God obviously did it for a reason, but I still haven't figured it out. I can't walk, I've lost my dreams, I reply the shooting scene everyday. Although most of the changes seem to have screwed up my life, other good things have happened." Jimmy finishes by smiling at Ellie.

" I agree, I had a lot ripped away from me that day, but it has ultimately brought us all closer together." Ellie says looking around the circle and smiling at Toby.

"Rick had been my best friend; we were both social outcasts , and made each other feel like we weren't. I realized too late that everything you guys said was true." Toby says.

"Same here in away. I mean I had never been the one people liked, but I aided in the feathering of Rick. I didn't realize how psycho he was and that he'd do anything for pay back. I felt guilty but I wasn't the one who set Jimmy up as the one who did the feathering." Alex says looking at Spinner.

"I screwed up, I admit it, but you guys have more than paid me back. I'm like Rick you guys don't know how to forgive anyone. I've lost all my friends, I lost my year, my summer, I lost everything." Spinner says as tears roll down his face.

"You have paid, and I do forgive you. If it wasn't for Spinner. I most likely wouldn't be sitting here today. He is the one that got me help when I needed it. I know he did wrong as does he, but can't we forgive him already?" Craig says looking around the group.

"I agree, we are doing what we did before, and it may only end up like it did last time . I forgive you. After all you weren't the one with the gun. You aren't the one who was pointing it at people." Marco says agreeing with Craig.

"I had the gun in my face. I would have died if it weren't for Sean. He saved my life. He left us as well because of the shooting when he tired to come back he was pushed away. You don't know how much stress he has to be feeling. He thinks he killed Rick. He can't live with that, and no one should have to. I can't even imagine how he must feel," Emma says looking at Ellie most of the time.

"I don't know about the rest of you but I don't think we should be pointing fingers. We all lost something last year when Rick went on his rampage, but we have to stick together and not blame others." Paige says glaring at Emma.

"I agree. We all know that we lost a lost but did we ever stop to think about what Rick's family must have lost? I don't think that we need to be thinking of us and only us we need to remember that other people were involved and hurt too." Hazel says

"Ok I'm glad to see you guys talking and there are a few people who would like to join the group.." Miss Sauve says walking over to the door and moving aside while Sean and Terri both entered the room. Everyone with the exception of Alex and Ellie go over and hug Terri.

"Hey guys. I know that this is a surprise, but I felt like I needed to talk to you. Rick was a psycho and it took me awhile to realize that and when I did it was too late. You guys did all of that stuff because of what he did to me. I'm just sorry it ended like it did." Terri says sitting next to Paige.

"I hear what you said about me." Sean says walking over to Emma. " Thank you. I didn't realize my leaving affected you like it did. I did feel like I killed Rick, but now I realize it was him who pulled the trigger. He wanted to die and I was being the hero. Thanks again." Sean says hugging Emma.

They all talk about it awhile longer. The school day ends and yet again everything has changed. Sean was staying, Terri had mad her speech, everyone was starting to accept Spinner again.

R&R PLEASE! I know that this is not my best chapter but I hope you liked it none the less.