Hello everyone! I'm so stressed! I have an English short story due soon and the maximum amount of words I'm allowed to use, equals one of these chapters. In other words my short story equals only one of the chapters I write for Azure flame! I'm doomed! ^_^ I hope you guys celebrated Syaoran's B'day! ^_^ That was a looong time ago though but I hadn't put up a chapter then so I'm gonna say it now. HAPPY B'DAY SYAO-KUN! ^___^
And remember this chap is Syaoran's dad's diary. Not a chapter where stuff happens in the present k?? good ^_^
Answers to reviews:
Sakura-miaka: hehe I'll gladly kill Eriol 4 ya ^_^
Sally: Thankyou!
SaKuRa LoVa: Yeah, I wonder how hiroki feels too! I'm glad that you think Chloe's nice!
Chico0221: Yeah, if Syaoran cries you know it's gotta be bad ^_^ and there's nothing too shocking about the diary. But you can judge that urself
Kerochan: heheh I wish! Yep. Totally right. Eriol=loser, Syaoran=poor boy S+S=definitely ^_^
kawaii sakura: thankyou
Helen: thankyou so much!
LiL oBs3ss3r: Lol I;m glad you appreciate my Manhoe name ^_^ that was just a joke at school and so I used it here ^_^ and you are smart. Because nothing happens next- apart from the whole diary thing. And I am turning into ice, because in Australia it's winter!
ScarleT RoSe: thanks ^_^
Akiyhrah: yeah sweet chap ^_^ really? Has it already been your b'day yet? Cool! Happy birthday! and even cooler – u live in Canada! The boy I had a crush on for 6 years came form there. Unfortunately he also moved back there *sighs* and he was so hot too! His name is Brett. But about the weather, I can NOT imagine it snowing for Christmas! I love it hot on chrissy day!
emerald wolf: thanks so much!!!! Yeah poor chloe. Been rejected ^_^ I don't have AIM. How do you get it. My friend has AIM so I want it too ^_^
crystal-chan: thanks so much. I'm glad ur reading it again!
Cherry Blossomz91: yeah good point. But I'd be so sad that I'd want to see the diary, because I'd be missing him so much, ya know?
KawaiinessPnay: errr this has been bothering me 4 a long time…what's AU mean??? Yep chloe's good. Yeah it's freaky that Eriol's kinda her father ^_^
asure angel: heheh yep. Manhoe isn't real though, it was just a joke going around at my bus stop so I included it in ^_^ I miss u heaps!
miss_k: heheh yeah. That's what my friend said. She said she hates eriol. I asked her y and she said: because you've put me off him from your story ^_^ yeah. But s+s do have a kissing scene planned ^_________^
Kitty: thankyou thankyou thankyou!!!
demi-kaijuu: yeah I guess it is a cliffhanger. Well thanks 4 telling me that ^_^
Cherry-SweetHeart: thanks. Sumtimes this site's boring!
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Sirenity: don't worry. This story will end after chapter 20. Thanks but I'm so not as good as shakespere ^_^
LiL DuDeTtE: thanks 4 liking it dude.
Azure Flame
Chapter 15 – Something to remember
Dear Diary,
Today Yelan and I found out extraordinary news. My dear Yelan is pregnant with a child. We're not sure what sex it is, but leave it up to Yelan to want a surprise. I've had my fair share of surprises lately – my annoying job as a doctor. I expect we'll be packing for Yelan's hometown – Hong Kong, soon enough for the operation I've been sent to perform. So the baby is most likely to be born there. It's turned out for the best though, I've never seen Yelan happier at the thought of our child being born in her hometown – I guess kind of like a tradition with her. Hang on a sec, my mobile's going off; I bet it's another emergency call from a good as dead patient. Gosh I realize how mean that sounds, but don't mind me, I'm in a crappy mood. (could you tell?)
- Rei Li.
Dear Diary,
Yelan had I have finally got around to considering names for the baby. After much debating and compromises, we had decided that if it is a girl, she'll be called Miki, and if it is a boy he'll be called Xiao Lang (it means 'little wolf' in Chinese)
Any other news? Come on Li think. Oh that's right, I think I may have convinced Yelan to see Star Wars (Return of the Jedi) again with me this weekend. Hopefully everything will follow through. I'm a GREAT convincer after all – I think she got a bit suspicious when I tried emphasis on TRIED to cook her a fairly decent meal. Now don't get me wrong, I can really cook up a storm…when I read the recipe properly. Well as I'm sure you could imagine I really did cook up a storm – literally of course. I succeeded in not only burning the pork, but setting the stove on fire. Yelan forgave me though…after the screaming that was. Oh well, no-one's perfect.
Ja ne – Rei Li
Dear diary,
I'm just warning you that I probably won't be able to write for ages. My great aunt's really sick and I have to fly over to Taiwan and look after her. Stupid old bat! She probably just wants some pampering of some sort. Yikes! Just the though of massaging her wrinkly paper-bag shoulders with massage cream. If my writing seems at all messy, it's because I'm shuddering horribly at the thought of it. And just in case that's the case, I've asked Yelan to by a truck load of disinfectant. I'm verrrrrry prepared. I admit I'm not fussed over the idea of leaving Yelan. The pregnancy is barely over 2 months, but you never know what could happen. Let ya know if I survive the disgusting seedy woman – aka. My great aunt.
Pray for me! Sayonara – note the whole somber 'farewell' used. For I will surely be dead after this trip to Taiwan. No offence Great Aunt… eh..he..he
Dear Diary,
Yo, I've only got a few minutes. Unfortunately – or fortunately form my point of view ^_^ Great Aunt really is sick. It's quite disgusting to hear her raspy cough all the time. I'm seriously considering buying earmuffs! Or maybe that won't be enough…what about a gas suit? Speaking of flatulence, my Grandfather's there as well. And you know how much I can't stand his farting problems! Bloody hell he needs to control his bowel movements! Well we don't need a bell to put around his neck anymore – every time he even takes one step he farts, so naturally we know where he has – kind of hard not to since all the plants wilt whenever he's a few metres away! I think wearing a nose plug might look a bit offensive to poor old Pa, but I'm not even sure if giving him a box full of toilet spray might hint he could wake the living dead. I rang Yelan up to discuss my mortal peril but she just got all scornful at me and told me to stop being stupid and try being nice and sympathetic to my relatives. I knew she was holding back a smile though. I can't wait to return home – shouldn't be too long since old Great Aunt's got her foot firmly in her grave. I even preordered her coffin. Great bargain. 25% off. I think it's been used before though ^_^ Just joking…wait I think I hear a noise. It's Great Aunt Haruka. Betta go, if she reads this I'm in the dog house. Wait! I don't have to worry, she's practically blind anyway! ^_^ hehehe I just realsied 'Haruka' means wind. Well at least I've heard it does. I think it's a better suited name to my grandfather ^_^
Better go, great aunt's having yet another of her annoying coughing fits.
Ja – Rei Li.
Dear Diary,
Only news of interest this week – Great Aunt's finally keeled over and is as dead as a doorknob. Strangely enough my rel's (relative) didn't quite appreciate the joke that I made. I guess saying that they should just bring Pa to visit her up and he'd wake her up right away. Don't they smell the awful odour that comes out of Pa's pants whenever he farts?! Yeah! Obviously not. Yelan want me to stay home and take a break – apparently I'm driving her up the tree as well with my little tiffs and not so funny, more like offensive jokes. Now I'm really pissed off. She can't tell me what to do!
- Rei Li
Dear Diary,
Help. It's dark. I'm writing this with the light of my watch. What the hec am I doing you ask? I'm lying in a coffin, and there's someone keeping my company. Yes, Great Aunt. But she's dead so the only entertainment around here is me flicking her nose and watching the dead flabby skin jingle. But I'm really hungry! Maybe I'll have to resort to eating my own hand!....No wait, Great Aunt's double chin looks inviting – although I am turned off by the dribble marks. OH NO! The battery on my watch is dead so there's no more light!
Since I'm not going anywhere anytime soon and currently stuck in between my Great Aunt's legs and buried 5 metres underground I may as well tell you how I got here. I got distracted by something shiny. Sure, I know what your thinking, how typical of Rei but seriously I did. I think it was just the reflection of my grandmother's glass eye though. The next thing I know, the lid went on and I was stuck in a recycled coffin with a dead corpse! I wish I had just stayed home! Oh damn, soccer would've been on now. Maybe I can use her hair as an antenna. It's as hard as metal and the same colour too – maybe it's because of the decaying process. Or maybe I can use her head as the ball. Believe me, when you're stuck in a coffin, you're desperate for any entertainment! But on second thoughts, if her head snaps off I won't be able to super glue it back together.. All I've got with me a is a small bottle of disinfectant – I told you I was prepared! *makes gagging sounds*
….did I just hear a rumble? Is it an earthquake?! I'm too young to die!
OMG! Is that my great Aunt? Is she gone all moldy already? Now wait. It smells more like rotten eggs shoved up a camel's ass… Great Aunt! You didn't? ^_~
Hang on, I recognize the smell now, it's granddad! Please save me granddad!!!! If you do, I'll NEVER call you a 'crippled old man' to your face again!....for a day at least. Betta go and scream some more.
Luv Rei Li
Dear Diary,
I can see the light!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Remind me never to get stuck in a coffin k? I'm on my way home, baby and couldn't be happier. Oh right, how I got out of that coffin! Well, it turns put granddad was just leaving the graveyard and therefore didn't hear me screaming. So for a few more hours I sat there and ended up asleep. A woke up to the sound of bumping. The next thing I know, there's a ping pong ball stuck up my great Aunts tits. No not a good sight. Anyways I picked it up and managed to make the hole in the lid bigger (you see the ping pong ball went through the coffin lid!) I think I scared the kids 0playign there though. How would you feel if you went to get your ping pong ball and a hand shot up from the coffin and gave it back to you? Hehe, I thanked them though. Shame they thought was a ghost… But how disrespectful they were! Playing a game of Ping-Pong over graves! So what did I do? I told them off! I said: You need to respect your elders more! Yeah, yeah, I know I'm such a hypocrite. Betta go, I'm starving!
Love Rei Li
Dear Diary,
I swear as soon as I stepped one foot off the plane I started kissing the sweet, sweet ground of Japan. Tasted a bit disgusting actually. But my face stings terribly. When I was kissing the ground, a breeze swept through and lifted this old ladies skirt up. She looked down, saw my position and immediately got the crazy idea that I wanted to stare up at her knickers. Seriously how dumb! Even I wouldn;'t have the nerve to call upon the winds to lift up her skirt! Terrible fashion sense if I do say so myself. Anyway I think it gave her some sick satisfaction of the fact that I was even interested in seeing her panties and pretended to be annoyed and started attacking me with her hand bag. Of course Yelan was too busy laughing at me to even help me out.
That's all, Ja – Rei Li
Dear Diary,
I'm fine now. Not a single ounce of criticism left in me. I took a day off and I am officially nice now ^_^ It was a great chance for me and Yelan to *cough* well you know. I'm quite exited. Yelan's stomach has grown somewhat and soon enough I'll be a father. Bloody hell there goes the phone again. Better answer it, Yelan had a headache and will kill me if she wakes up again. I think her hormones are going psycho.
Ja – Rei Li
Dear Diary,
Just a little warning, pregnant woman are not fun to be around. I feel like a personal slave now. I;'ve even had to take time off work. Yelan gets irritated if a pin drops let alone a whole bookcase of heavy, thick books. No for once it wasn;t my fault. One of the hooks holding it in place must have decided to fall because CRASH it went. And then the screaming started. And of course she has all the weird craving. I'll never ever understand how she can eat chips dipped in melted chocolate. I keep telling her that she'll get fat, but she just looks at me, points to her stomach and says: 'You think?! It's not gonna make a difference!' I was only tying to help!
Oh shit, I forgot we ran out of fries and the soon-to-be mother is craving bad for them. Betta go run to the shops and get some for her. Ja - Rei Li
Dear Diary,
I was bored so I glanced out the window and saw fat ole isherwood – ya know, the 'trench coat mafia participant?' well I though to myself, dear old Isherwood…SHE'S THE SOLE REASON THE PAPER BAG INDISTRY IS STILL IN BUSINESS!
Gotta go, Rei Li.
Dear Diary,
Only three more months to go till the birth, Sure I'm tired, but it's worth it to feel 'it' kicking. My friends recently asked me if I want it to be a girl or a boy. And to tell the truth I dunno really. Whatever sex it is I'm happy with. But I guess having a boy would be nice. I can set a good example ^_^ Okay, maybe not. Bad idea. I'm not sure if Yelan could stand another me in the house ^_^
Dear Diary,
One month to go! I can't wait. We've got the baby's cot ready and we've picked out yellow clothes so whether it's a boy or a girl it won't be offended. Am I ready to be a mother (A/N: oh gosh, why did I type that? ^__________^ take two: ) Am I ready to be a father? I'll try my best to be. You know that writing in my diary is a stress release kind of thing, so I know I can b very sarcastic in here and all, but I'm not really THAT rude in public.. I hope at least. But as my work get's tighter, I won't be able to write as often.
Love Rei Li
Dear Diary,
It's a boy! So his name is Xiao Lang! I'm so happy! He's so cute1 And he had my amber eyes! He's only a two weeks old and he's so adorable, I can't stop hugging him ^_^ Yelan keeps teasing me saying I make a good mother. But he's a really well behaved baby if I do say so myslef1 Like of course he cries, but all babies do but still! I know that one day he'll make me verrrrry proud! The hec, I'm proud of him already! I can't stop staring into those gorgeous, big baby, amber eyes. I love it when he sleeps though – which is most of the time. What a good baby, let's his Dad watch the soccer matches in peace and quite ^_^ Just joking..
Hello Rei's diary, this is his concerned wife. I think I have to look Rei in a room, Xiao needs his rest you know! I know he's adorable, but you need some sleep too! See ya, Lotsa luv, Yelan!
Dear Diary,
I told you Xiao would make me proud! He can already walk and his very first word I'm pleased to say his first words were: dada – socca. He knows I like my soccer! Oh I can't wait till Xiao grows older, than we can play soccer together! Oh I can't wait!!!!
- Rei Li
Dear Diary,
I'm so embarrassed! Okay here's the story. Xiao Lang started crying right? And Yelan was our shopping so I had to take care of him. Normally I'm okay with these kinds of things but not this time. I couldn't figure out what was making him cry! Anyways, I tried everything but to no avail! I tried to change his nappy, but couldn't find any so I had to use a tea towel instead! Then he still was crying, so I decided to give him some milk right, but I remembered Yelan telling me that he couldn't drink from a bottle yet, so I er…..well I found this invention called 'strap-on breasts' and felt like a real loser wearing fake breasts, but if it shut lil' Xiao up, I was willing to do anything! But the only problem was Xiao seemed to then be sacred by me ^_^ so to encourage him I saod things like: Come to Daddy. It's milking time! Oh come on Xiao! Believe me, it tastes gooooOOOd ^_~ but he seemed even more scared ^_^ so Yelan walked in the dorr and dropped the plastic bags she was holding. I don't blame her too. What I sight it must have been! Xiao lang crying with a tea towel just barely covering his willie – I CAN'T put nappies on alright! And me standing there with tits on. I explained my plight to Yelan and she giggled and took a bottle of milk form her handbag. Of course Xiao lang stopped crying after that and fell asleep. KAWAIIII!!! Oh sorry, back to story, anyway I told Yelan that she had said Xiao wasn't ready to drink out of a bottle and she laughed and told me she had actually said: Xiao CAN drink out of a bottle now. Oops. Don't I feel stupid!
- Rei Li
Dear Diary,
The funniest thing happened today1 Xiao is now 3 so Yelan decided he was old enough to take shopping. I went with them. Yelan stared at me with disbelief written all over her face and so I told her that I would give up even soccer to see my little son going shopping. So off we went. Xiao Lang sat in that little baby seat thing on the top of the trolley and I pushed it, while Yelan went in all directions for the groceries and to buy Xiao Lang a new dummy – you see his old dummy somehow ended up down the toilet and for once it wasn't me. Anyway, we happened to pass a woman with – if I do say so, the biggest tits you've ever seen! Ana apparently Xiao agreed and he…….…God I can't write it, I'm laughing too hard! He reached out to have a feel of them. I was laughing so hard and even Yelan was laughing. Of course the lady didn't find it that funny and stalked off muttering about 'kids these days' well of course I couldn't stop chuckling the whole shopping trip and so to shut me up Yelan playfully glared at me and said: He learns too many things form YOU!
Too true ^_^ - Rei Li
Dear Diary,
Xiao Lang is now ready to go to pre-school! So as a treat I let him sit in my lap while I watched the soccer. But how was I to know that after the soccer as a very, very, VERY naughty show on. Well Xiao looked up at me and asked: Daddy, what are they doing?
Gosh, he's too young to know these things to o but I didn't know what to say, so I answered: The nice man is parking his car in the nice woman's garage. Everybody does it now a days.
Little did I know that when Yelan grabbed her car keys and called for Xiao Lang to come, he looked up at her and asked: Is daddy going to park his car in your garage? Yelan was speechless. She looked at me and growled: REI LI! So in my defence I replied: I said No such thing….eh..he?
- Rei Li
Dear Diary,
As you know I am basically writing an entry a year now since things are so hectic, to this is this years diary entry: Xiao is now 5 and has made a really nice friend. Her names Chloe and she's really sweet. She got blonde hair and eyes like the sky and even speaks English! Xiao and her get along like a house on fire and I couldn't be happier for him! Those too also seem t end upin a lot of mischief as well though, but that can't be hekped, after all,
they are just kids Syaoran is a boy He takes after meThat's all I can think of right no, so Ja ne – Rei Li
Dear Diary,
Xiao had his athletics carnival today. I'm extremely proud that he won practically all he events he went in. But of course, whether you win or not is irrelevant as long as he had fun – which he did anyway ^_^ You know I should really listen to my own advice. I know it doesn't matter what place you come, but he was in the 100m running event and I could see that he was going to come second, so I kinda managed to throw a stick onto the race track and the boy coming first, kinda tripped…eh..he..he, needless to say, Xiao won.
-Rei Li
Dear Diary,
Xiao's still in year one and just turned 7! We went to a fete and he bought a fake spider. Anyways, that night while Yelan was making dinner, Xiao and I slipped it into her side of the bed and when she went to bed she screamed so loud the glass windows could've shattered! Xiao and I high-fived and that was that ^_^
-Rei Li
Dear Diary,
Today Xiao went on his Year 2 excursion to the zoo. He was luckily in a group with his best friends Kai and of course Chloe. And I was their group supervisor ^_^ It was really fun! I love animals, they are so cute! But when the lunch break was over I couldn't find the boys/girl anywhere. I eventually found a scare looking Kai covered in Band-Aids and I immediately knew what had happened. This is how it went.
Me: Oh gosh, lemme guess, Syaoran (his name translated into Japanese) made you face your fears?
Kai: *nods*
Me: what happened?
Kai: He locked me in a monkey enclosure and a monkey threw me into a tree!
Me: Yeah, he's terrible like that! But don't worry, he was just concerned for you, that's all. I remember he once made me give my grandmother a bath – and confiscated my trusty disinfectant. It was horrible.
Kai: *gives small laugh*
But Xiao can be really shocking sometimes! It's kinda sweet in a way that he cares for people though. He doesn't like it when people are scared and so he'll try to make you happier by over coming your fears. Unfortunately he just INCREASED mine ^_^
-Rei Li
Dear Diary,
Today I took Syaoran and Yelan for a family picnic. We set up a nice blanket and had really nice food prepared by Yelan of course. But the best part of that day is that I was able to play a game of soccer with Xiao. He's such a good player and I can easily se why he's the captain of his soccer team at both school and in his soccer team. I was going to go easy of him, but it turned out I didn't need to, because boy was Xiao a challenge! Well after about an hour or so, Xiao was ahead of me in the points department and he made a weird kick so that the ball hit some poor old lady. I cracked up laughing and after Xiao had apologized he looked at me firmly in the eye and said: why are you laughing? You're the one that losing. Well that shut me up! And we ended up tying! We were so puffed out by it all that we slumped down on the grass, out of breath. Yelan then joined us and excitedly started telling us how proud she was of us and all the funny parts of our match. Xiao was just beaming with joy at the praise. When Yelan had finished, we started commenting on what shapes the clouds looked like. One of the best day's in my life!
-Rei Li
Dear Diary,
Guess what? I have another son! He's adopted. It was so sad! His parents had just abandoned him. The sick bastards! How can anyone just abandon their child like that? Well of course Yelan had no hesitation to take him in and the adoption is official. The boy's name is Hiroki, he's barely 3 months old and Xiao is 9. Hiroki had a dark brown – almost black hair (like my own) and big sapphire blue eyes. Xiao Lang is being a great help and had no problem adjusting to his new brother. I know the age difference is great – almost 10 years difference, but Xiao Lang is amazing and really caring. Hiroki will grow up happily with us and I will make sure of it!
- Rei Li
Dear Diary,
Xiao has now reached double digits! We had a fairly big party where Xiao invited all his friends to celebrate the birthday of our now 10 year old son! It was great, but then the kids made lots of dust and Yelan kept sneezing. It's such a shame she has asthma ne? hope she's alright now!
-Rei Li
Dear Diary,
Something awful's happened. I can't even write properly I'm shaking so hard. Yelan had a bad asthma attack and couldn't breath properly.
I was out at the pharmacy getting medicine so I wasn't there when she had it. I came home, hiroki was crying and Xiao Lang was in tears. The moment I had stepped through the door, Xiao charged at me, crying. I hugged him thinking he was just upset about a broken toy or something like that. When he told me Yelan had died I didn't believe him.
I don't know what to do. It's like I'm in a nightmare and need to wake up. How can yelan be gone? How can anything possibly be the same now that yelan's gone!
-Rei Li
Dear Diary,
I can't stop crying. I know I should be strong for Xiao and Hiroki but I just can't. My world has been turned upside down and I can't do a thing about it I've locked myself in my room, because I just can't look at the kids anymore. Especially Xiao. Whenever I do, I can see Yelan's bright smiling face. That should make me happier, but I'm not. It's like someone's trying to torment me.
- Rei Li
Dear Diary,
I decided that being cooped up in this room isn't going to do anyone any good. I can't abandon Xiao or Hiro. What did I do to deserve this? I try my best, I really do, but WHY DID YOU ABANDON MY KAMI-SAMA?! WHY DID YOU TAKE YELAN AWAY FROM ME?
If only I had been there! I could've helped her. Life SUCKS – Rei Li
Dear Diary,
Xiao's in year 5. Hiroki's 1. Time has only slightly healed the wounds that will forever remain in me. I've decided to drown my sorrow in a drink or too.
See you later Rei Li.
Dear Diary,
It's been so long! And worst of all I HATE MYSELF! That 'drink or too' turned out to be, maybe more than 3000000000000000 drinks! I was so fucking drunk that I left Xiao and Hiroki and left. Xiao – or Syaoran as he likes to be known as now, is in year 10. Yes I've missed 6 years of his life! Hiroki is now 6 and as far as I know quite happy in year 1. I can't face them anymore. I've locked my self up once again in my room. I can't face hiroki because I know he's afraid of me and I can't face Syaoran, because after what I've done to him. I swore years and years ago that I would make sure Hiroki would grow up happily and that I'd never abandon any of my sons and now I realize I have. I think to myself, how could Syaoran have taken care of hiroki for 6 years when he was barely 11? Syaoran and Hiroki were one of the best things that could have happened to me, and I can't bare all this guilt.
- Rei Li
Dear Diary,
Whenever I see Syaoran taking care of Hiroki, I can't help but be proud of him. But then I realize I shouldn't be thinking that, I should be disgraced that Syaoran had to grown-up so fast. I don't know if I've mentioned this before, but I can't face Syao anymore. Not now, not ever. Not after all the things I had done to him and Hiroki. The saddest part is, I can definitely see Yelan in him. And that just makes me feel a whole lot worse. What makes humans act the way they do? What made ME act the way I did. How can I possibly be a father now? When my heart has lost it's song. You know what? I'll go as far as saying that I've lost my soul as well. At least, that's how it feels now.
- Rei Li
Dear diary,
Syaoran just left to attend a party with Chloe. He looked really great and made sure that Hiroki was confident with staying with me. Just great. My own children think I'm a monster. Finally someone that agrees with me.
You're not a monster
What??? Am I delusional?
For once, no.
Who are you?
Guess
God?
Thanks a lot. Do I really sound like that?
No?
Anyway, stop beating yourself up about this
Why? And no offence but you're freaking me out!
You're so kind. Rei, I know you're depressed but it's not going to solve fix everything. Gohan will forgive you ^_^
Gohan? Only Yelan joked about that!
Yeah, I can't believe you even considered calling out first son Gohan!
Yelan? Why? And I can't believe you remembered that!
It's not hard to forget it. I made me laugh so much. Calling your son Gohan! Really, your stomach was thinking for you as usual.
Meal was a good name for Syaoran though…
Think whatever you wish honey. Even now you manage to make me laugh!
Please don't tell me I'm hallucinating!!
You're not.
But it's hard to believe that my diary is talking to me!
You're so silly.
Yelan?! But how?!
I'm worried about you.
I've missed you so much though!
I know. But please be happy again. I don't think Hiroki's even SEEN you smile.
How can I?
What's different from anytime?
You're not here
Baka. I'm always here!
Really?
You doubt me? Why are you crying?
Because only hearing you is not enough, I want to see you again.
But you can't.
Say's who.
No! REI LI DON'T YOU DARE THINK LIKE THAT?
Why?
Because believe it or not, Hiroki and Syaoran need a father
But I can't
And why not?
Because I don't deserve to be
Everyone makes mistakes honey
But not as bad as mine
That's not true
Yes it is. I mean, I'm really proud of Syaoran but he doesn't need me anymore. I abandoned him right when he needed me most.
That's true but what makes you think he still doesn't need your help?!
I'm sorry Syaoran. I'm sorry Hiroki. I love you boys with all my heart. I just hope that you'll forgive me!
Rei, what are you doing?!
Syaoran is a better soccer player than I am! I'm so proud to say that. And Hiroki is the best artist I've ever seen.
I know, but
I just wish they know how much I hate myself, and how much I've regretted not being with them.
They will, just talk to them.
No they won't. So that's why I'm doing this.
STOP
I love you Yelan.
I know
And I love Syao and Hiro too.
I know that as well
And I want to thank them, I just wish I could.
You can, what are you talking about?!
Sayaonara.
REI! Please don't do it!
Syaoran's hands shook as he fingered his father's last words on the blood smeared pages.
"Why did you do it Dad? Why? I loved you so much, no matter how much it hurt me that you left!" Syaoran said out loud. "I'm sorry if I cause you this much pain Dad, but you should have known that I forgave you!" A tear slid down Syaoran's cheek and splattered on the bloodied page. Syaoran started as words started to appear.
Thankyou
Syaoran closed the book and hugged it towards his chest, when his father's sadness became all too much. He turned off his lamp and cried silently into his pillow.
///To be continued…///
(A/N:This chapter is dedicated to the boy who commit suicide at my brother's high school recently.)
Sorry if that last bit was shit ^_^ I really couldn't be bothered making it sound right, I've been too stressed about my English story that's due soon.
Next chapter is the much awaited BATTLE OF THE BANDS ^__^ and you'll find out the group name finally too ^_^
Plz review, Arigato