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Chapter 5: End this shit & prove it!
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PS: IT IS TRUE! THIS STORY CONTAINS FACTS FROM MY REAL LIFE! I WARN YOU! A LOT OF COURSING IS IN IT SO READ ON YOUR OWN RISK!
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Previously: He ran to his room and slammed the doors down…
'O, fuck no…!'
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'Ever wondered what's the purpose of life?' Kagome calmly questioned Inuyasha, who stood in place.
She was standing on a windowsill at the open window. The wind played with her hair as she kept looking outside at this damn fucking world we live in.
Leaning against the wall, her arms crossed over her chest, she was barefoot.
Around both wrists she had wrapped white bandage's, that were covered in blood.
Inuyasha stayed quiet and narrowed his eyes, looking at her hands.
Kagome continued talking.
'I mean, what's the point?' she asked.
'Kagome…' he said softly.
'You're born, you're happy, you go to university, you have some friends, you smoke crack, drink a little, have some sex, get a job, get married, raise kids, watch them as they grow up, as they leave home, next thing you know you have grandchildren, you grow old and then you DIE!'
'Kagome' he tried again as he realized where this thing was getting to.
'Why live then?'
'Kagome, get down from there.' He ordered and stepped forward.
'What's the meaning of life, if in the end you die? Why keep living? You work so hard , so you would have everything you want & need, if in the end you pass away?' she said sarcastically and turned to look at him.
'Kagome, get down from there now!'
'Why bother your self, when you can end it quickly!' she said annoyed.
'Get down!' he stood only a few steps away from the window.
'Let me tell you something Inuyasha…' he waited for her to speak.
'There is no purpose in life. There never was and there never will be!' she spat and took a little step backwards.
'You're wrong.' He said calmly but his eyes gave it all away. He was worried, very worried.
'O yeah? How can I be wrong? Tell me!' she yelled at him.
'You follow your dreams and be happy. You live like you want to. Have friends that care about you and are always there to support you. You can't just go around and screw up your life, Kagome! Yeah, sure it's tough sometimes, but if you work hard you can do anything you desire. So one day your kids can look up to you and know that you'll always be there for them. Time flies bye and things change. But there's still no reason for you to not be happy and you should enjoy your self, despite the hard times that bring you down. You should live everyday like it would be your last, cause you never know when it'll end. (how in the hell did I get up with this shit?)
'O yeah, nice speech. Maybe you should ad something in…YOU DIE! Everything goes to hell! Everything you worked so hard for, slips away! You don't know what'll happen next!'
'Kagome…'
'Forget it!' she turned her head away, her heart filled with pain & hatred.
He eyed her for a few minutes before he spoke… 'What did you do to your self?' he glared at her but she didn't say a word, she just ignored him.
'Kagome…answer me. What did you do, while I was gone!' a growl escaping his lips.
'Damn it! Answer me!' he grabbed her arm and she looked at him, with fire.
'You want me to answer!' she asked as he waited.
'Ok! I'll answer…I tried to KILL MY SELF! There! Happy now?' she spat back and tried to pull from his grasp, but he only tightened his grip.
'What the hell did you do!' he yelled at her and narrowed his eyes.
'…I…I tried to cut my veins…' she said weakly. All thoe she didn't cute them, the wounds were still very deep and she was still losing blood.
'Why the hell did you wanna do that?' he asked and pulled her down from the windowsill, afraid that she would try to do something even more stupid.
'Because I just can't take it anymore Inuyasha, that's way!' she jerked her hand away from him.
'Killing your self isn't the answer!' he said angry.
'Why not! It's the only way to stop the pain!'
'And what about your friends and family! You think that they wouldn't care if you died!'
'Like I care how they would feel…' she looked away.
'Yeah right, what about your dreams Kagome? You'd throw all that away to!'
'I don't care about that! I never did!'
'You never did?' he repeated her answer.
'…No! '
'Your telling me that you never cared about your dreams, about music, about singing?… Honestly, how stupid do you think I am!' he snapped back.
'I'm not lying!'
He only shook his head, before picking her up and carrying her out.
'What the fuck do you think your doing?' she tried to get down from him but he only growled back.
'Well see who's not lying…'
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Inuyasha walked to Ayames basement and kicked the doors open with his foot.
All this time Kagome stayed quiet and decided to keep her eyes away from him.
As the doors flew open, the 6 people looked their way.
All of them were sitting and eating chips.
'Kagome! What happened?' Sango ran to her followed by Rin & Ayame.
'Are you ok!' Rin asked immediately.
'Who did this to you!' Ayame cut in, before Kagome could speak a word.
Inuyasha walked past them and let Kagome down.
'Now you get your ass up there and prove to me that what you said is true!' he spat.
'Are you threatening me?' she yelled and stood on her toes to be equal to his size.
'Does it matter?' he yelled back.
'Yes it does!'
'Just get up there an prove that you don't give a shit about your dreams!'
'Why should I?' she pressed her nose against his and growled in his face.
'Fuck it! Just get up there and prove that you didn't lie!'
'And what if I don't?' she asked.
'Then I'll make you! Damn it!' he grabbed her shoulders roughly.
'What do you want from me! To dance!' she tried to get away, but he pulled her closer, her body now pressed against his chest.
'Sing! Is that so hard?' he looked at her his eyes cold and his breathing quick.
'You wan't me to sing? Fine! I'll sing!' she pushed him away and jumped on the stage, grabbed her guitar and turned to face him.
Sango and the other girls wanted to bug in and get their instruments, but their boyfriends hold them back and just shook their head 'no'. The girls could only watch.
Shit…how can I play if my wrists hurt! Why does he have to be such a…a…a…Damn it! I hate you Inuyasha!´´ Kagome thought not moving her eyes away from his icy stare.
Fuck, Kagome! Why don't you just tell me who did this to you! Then we woldnt be in this shit right now!´´ he crossed his arms and glared at her.
'Well!' he asked the girl before him. He sensed her fear and anger. She was just standing there, still.
She took a deep breath and despite her wounded wrists, began playing the song, as she sang. Inuyasha listened carefully, his ears blocked out every sound, except Kagome's voice. Her song was full of emotion that she couldn't get out of her soul. No meter what she sang, or why, he still thought it was beautiful. She was beautiful, her voice was beautiful.
(L.P.- In The End- On a wish of one of my reviewers! I think you know what's coming up next…Luv ya all 0)
(It starts with)
One thing / I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried
so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
Kagome finished, her fingers slightly trembling. She looked up at him as their eyes met. Holding back a gasp.
His face told her everything. He knew she lied to him. The question was , what was he gonna do, now that he knew!
She bit her lip and felt a warm liquid running down her fingers. She looked down and saw that the blood went thro her bandages and was drooping to the floor.
Looking back in his eyes, she found him walking over to her, his eyes worried and confused, like the others.
'Kagome?' he asked slowly. 'Are you ok?'
She wanted to say something, but couldn't. Her face became pale, her mind started swirling around and her knees gave in.
She closed her eyes and fell to the ground.
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A/N: Love ya all and be sure to read more tomorrow! Next chapter is already waiting!bye bye