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Chapter 8: Welcome to my life people!
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Previously: She opened the door and stood in shock.
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'Sango! Sango!' She yelled and ran to her friend.
Kagome couldn't believe what she saw. She ran down stairs so fast that she almost tripped. Her best friend, standing still, her hands dropped to her sides and she was holding a gun…A FUCKING GUN!
Her head was bleeding, still not that much, but Kagome didn't care.
She ran to her and hugged her from behind, burying her face in her bloody t-shirt. The blood ran strait from Sangos head and on her cloths.
But Kagome didn't care about that stuff, all that mattered was that Sango was alive!
'Sango…' Kagome whispered and hugged her even more. She didn't respond. Sango was completely shocked. She started shaking and soon enough the gun dropped from her hand and crashed in to a little puddle of blood on the floor.
'Sango… I'm so sorry…' Kagome said but her friend did nothing.
She couldn't move, she couldn't speak. All she did was take in the words of her best friend. She opened her mouth but nothing came out.
'Please forgive me….please…' Kagome begged.
There was a long silence.
'Sango?' Kagome asked and pulled away from the hug she was giving her. She stared at Sangos back, her face red from blood. 'Sango, can you hear me?' Kagome asked slowly, waiting for her answer.
Something was wrong, very wrong. Sango didn't replay. Kagome became worried and took a step back. She brought her hand to her chest and her heartbeat quickened.
A part of her soul was dying away. What was wrong! She said she was sorry. She begged for forgiveness. Why didn't Sango just say something! What the hell was going on!
Kagome felt tears sting her eyes. Was it really over! Was Sango really gone! No! She was alive, she knew she was. But why that odd feeling! Where the hell did it come from!
It was like a warning, for danger. A warning for something bad.
Kagome didn't even have time to react. Sango dropped to the floor…dead!
She stayed quiet for a second…'NOOOOOOOOOOOO!' Kagome screamed and ran to her friend. She literally collapsed to the ground and reached for her .
She grabbed her limp cold body and held her tight against her chest,
ignoring the warm blood & the cold cement ground.
She held on to her, never wanting to let go…NEVER!
'Sango…Sango please…please say something…please…' Kagome cried as her tears feel on her pale face. Nothing happened.
'You can't leave me…you just can't…you can't…please Sango…please…you just can't…' Kagome cried and held on to her even tighter. Sango just couldn't leave her, she just couldn't.
'I'm so sorry Sango…I'm so…I'm sorry…please…you can't go…you just can't…you…please…please…' Kagome begged with teary eyes and looked at her friend. She looked so peaceful. Like every single pain, worry would be gone…gone forever.
Like her soul would finally be free…free from this cruel world we live in.
She maybe gone, but she looked happy. Happy like never before. She was free like an angel, a free spirit like the sun rays who make you warm, like the wind who takes you everywhere you desire and rain who makes you cry for all the times you have to be strong, but inside your completely crashing down. No more worries, no more doubts, no more broken promises, no more pain, no more tears…Maybe it was for the best?…
Maybe Sango was in a better place now, but Kagome refused to let go.
She brushed her tears from Sangos face and stared at her, pleading her to open her eyes, to look at her happy and strong, like she always was.
'Sango please open your eyes…please…please Sango…please…' As much as Kagome tried, she couldn't stand it. If her dad caused all this pain to her, look at what she did to Sango!
It was her fault! Her fault! If she wouldn't try and kill her self, this fucking thing would never happen! It was always her fault. She came angry and upset, she was the one who let al this anger out on her friends and Sango stood against it all this time.
Maybe Kagome was the one hurting the most, but Sango was hurting even more. She stood up for Kagome and supported her all the way. She was there for here when this shit started happening, she was the one who never cried, the one who never shed tears, there fore she was the one who was strong.
She would never brake down, because she knew if she would, then there would never be any hope left, yet she was now the one…dead!
Kagome understood now. She understood everything…this is how Inuyasha felt when he saw here like this. When he saw her hurt, when he saw her angry & sad…when he saw here trying to kill here self, cause there was no other way out.
He tried to stop her, he tried to help her, he tried to do everything to keep her from falling thro the edge. She never realized before, but now everything was clear to her. This is what he meant, when he said that he just couldn't take it anymore and when she tried to brake up with him, but he wouldn't wanna let go of her.
Why?… WHY! I'll tell you why…because he LOVED HER! Because he CARED what happened to her…he couldn't just stand around and watch her destroy her own LIFE! That's FUCKING WHY! But she didn't accept his help. Not that she didn't…she couldn't…if she did, she would pull him with here…but she loved him to much and just couldn't do that to him, so she rather handle it on her own…but yet he was still there…
The same thing was with Sango… Sango tried to help her, asked her what was wrong…but Kagome always pushed her away… She didn't think about Sangos feelings all she did was think about her self ! She didn't care what others thought, all she knew was that she was the one hurting…never did it occure to her that she might, just might be affecting others around her as well.
Maybe she really was just some ungrateful brat, who never appreciated the things around here! The little things, but still the tings that were valuable the most…and that/those little things were her friends.
Friends…? Huh…Nothing special…friends are just like family…
You have them, they're annoying, you fight with them, have a great time, you go thro bad, hard, even horrible and good stuff together and shit like that. But they're still just friends… until you lose one of them…then is when you realize what they mean to you…how VALUABLE they really are. And then is when you discover what is the real treasure of life.
You can have money and spend it all, but you can make more. You can buy a car and crash it, but it can easily be replaced with a new one.
You can have flowers and they die in the sun, but you can easily go to the store and buy them again. You can brake a window…you can brake a leg…but it always heals back. But if you lose a friend…you can never replace it with something else…no matter how you try…they'll always be in your heart…always reminding you, of what you had but never appreciated it…and then is when a part of you dies away…a part that never heals…never…
'This is all my fault…my…it's my fault!' Kagome buried her face in Sangos chest and cried. She cried for her stupidity, for the things that here friends had to go thro because of her.
'Nooooooo!' She screamed with pain and held on to her friend.
Feeling guilty for what she did.
'Sango please….'
Kagome sat up and pulled her friend close to her heart. She remembered the past, the things they went thro together. Moments sad, moments happy, still moments that never go away.
'Do you remember the time we tried to fly to the moon?' Kagome asked, her eyes now puffy and red. She was cheerful, not in a good way…she was cheerful in a evil, wicked way, like she would be planing something stupid…something bad…something horribly rong!
'We tried to go there cause we imagined it was made of cheese…remember ?' she asked the girl in her arms.
'We loved it…' A single tear fell on Sangos face at the word we.
'Remember when mom used to tell us that the moon had many holes in it just like cheese…but now you have a fucking hole in your head…' Kagome said to her self like she would start to turn crazy and lose her mind.
'Look what I've done to you…' she whispered and brushed her trembling fingers thro her sticky, bloody hair.
'…why did you do it Sango?…why…why did you have to become me…?' she asked, her body shaking now…her lips started trembling…
She looked around. Her eyes stopped on the gun lying in a puddle of red liquid that Kagome was very familiar with.
She moved a little and stretched her hand.
She slammed with her hand on the black object, causing blood to splash in different directions. Grabbing it, she slowly dragged it to her side, her eyes glowed as she turned it around in her hand.
'…is it that easy Sango?…' she asked running her finger against the trigger.
'Is it really that easy? You just push this thingy and bye, bye goes your fucking life?…' Kagome asked herself and licked her top lip.
She hesitated for a minute. Inuyashas words came back to her. Would he really do that? Would his life really completely crash down if she killed her self…
'Do I care?' she asked her self staring in to the distance. She tried to find the answer, but it was not there. Did she really mean that much to him! Did he really cared that much! Would he really be willing to give his life for her! Would he really be there for her when she'll need him! Or where that all just lies! Lies that are gonna turn in to stupid broken promises yet again.
'No Kagome! Inuyasha's not like that!' She yelled at her self and slapped her self on the cheek to come back to realty.
'He would never lie to me! He would never hurt me! I'm the one who's hurting him…I'm the one…I'm the one responsible for this…for this…for everything…'only a whisper escaping her mouth as she glanced back at the soundless girl and the gun in her hand. She stared at it…thought about hurting again…about death.
'No! Get away from me!' she screamed and thro the object as far away as she could.
'No! I won't do it! I promised! I promised!' she yelled and grabbed on to her head and started shaking it 'no'.
'I promised…I promised…I…promised…' she broke in to tears again and buried her face in her dear Sangos hair.
'Sango…please…forgive me…' she sobbed and didn't even notice arms wrap around her.
'…I forgive you…' a soft voice said, that Kagome thought that she would never hear again.
'Sango!' Kagome practically screamed and threw her arms around her friends neck.
'You…I thought you…' Kagome couldn't even say it…
'I couldn't…I missed…how could I ? who would be there for you then…' Sango said back.
'I thought I lost my best friend…' Kagome cried even harder.
'Well that's just how I felt when you turned your back on me…' She said tears dropping from her eyes as well.
'I'm so sorry Sango. Is just so hard you know…I never meant to cause you pain…I'm so sorry…' she looked down, afraid to meet her look.
'It's ok.'
'Thank you…'
'Your welcome…' they pulled away smiling and whipping their faces from tears.
'You ok?' Kagome asked concerned.
'Yeah…Uhh…I got to get out of this damn t-shirt' Sango pulled the white-black t-shirt she was wearing of, cause it was completely covered in blood.
'Dang… I lost a lot of blood…' Sango tried to stand up and of course Kagome helped her.
'You sure your fine?' she asked rising her eyebrow.
'Yes, just a little wozzy, that's all' Sango said smiling sweetly.
'You want to sit down?' Kagome offered.
'Hell no! I want to sing!'
'Your kidding me?' Kagome's yaw dropped down. What the hell was wrong with her. She…she…My god!
'Come on…I'll manage…let's just play something…' Sango slowly walked and grabbed her guitar, not before she picked up the necklace she broke before and put it in her pocket.
'But you should rest!' Kagome protested and grabbed her own instrument.
'It's ok…speaking of resting…why the hell aren't you in bed? Look at your wrists!' Sango glared.
'My wrists hurt a little, not much thoe, still we should both rest. But…'
'…we just can't stay still!' Sango cheered and jumped on stage at the same time as Kagome.
'Yeah…and that's because were…'
'CRAZY!' thy both yelled and giggled.
'Ready!' Sango asked.
'You bet!' Kagome nodded and…
(Song: Simple Plan: Welcome to my life)
Kagome: Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong,
And no one understands you.
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud,
That no one hears you screaming.
Kagome: Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over.
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies,
While deep inside you're bleeding!
Both: No you don't know what it's like,
When nothing feels all right.
You don't know what it's like,
To be like me!
To be hurt!
To feel lost!
To be left out in the dark!
To be kicked ,when you're down,
To feel like you've been pushed around!
To be on the edge of breaking down,
And no one's there to save you !
No you don't know what it's like,
When nothing feels all right.
You don't know what it's like,
To be like me!
Sango: To be hurt!
To feel lost!
To be left out in the dark!
To be kicked ,when you're down!
To feel like you've been pushed around!
To be on the edge of breaking down,
And no one's there to save you!
No you don't know what it's like,
Welcome to my life!
No you don't know what it's like…
Welcome to my life!
Sango: No one ever lied straight to your face!
And no one ever stabbed you in the back!
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay!
Everybody always gave you what you wanted,
You never had to work it was always there,
You don't know what it's like, what it's like…
To be hurt!
To feel lost!
To be left out in the dark!
To be kicked ,when you're down!
To feel like you've been pushed around!
To be on the edge of breaking down,
And no one's there to save you!
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)…
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Inuyasha was walking around the living room nervously. He didn't know what to do.
Sesshoumaru was lost in his world, thinking what now…?
Ayame was snuggled up in Kogas arms and sniffling loudly, while Rin held on to Mirko, where Sesshy told her to be, so she wouldn't try anything stupid again.
'Ok…that's it! We can just stand around here, we have to go see' Inuyasha said and walked over to the doors that lead in to the basement.
Sesshoumaru joined him.
'Ready brother?' Sesshy asked with sad eyes.
'No…I don't think I'll ever be ready…' Inuyasha sighed a sting of pain on his heart.
Sesshy reached for the door knob ,but stopped. A spark of hope in his eyes.
'What's wrong?' Inuyasha asked slowly.
'Music?' Sesshoumaru said and looked at him weird.
'What are you talking about! This isn't a time for stupid guessing games!' Inu spat seriously.
'Move over!' Ayame and Rin pushed them away and opened the doors. Indeed, it was music and two voices.
They ran down stairs and just…well you know…
'Sango! Your ok!' Miroku practically screamed.
'Kagome what…' Inuyasha trailed off…
The both girls winked at their friends and jumped as they sang the last part of the song.
Both: To be hurt!
To feel lost!
To be left out in the dark!
To be kicked ,when you're down!
To feel like you've been pushed around!
To be on the edge of breaking down,
And no one's there to save you!
No you don't know what it's like…
Welcome to my life…
Welcome to my life…
Welcome to my life!
Thy were happy…Ayame and Rin were happy…Sesshy and Koga…yeah ok happy to…but…
Inuyasha glanced at Miroku and Miroku glanced back. They turned their heads angry at their girl friends and yelled.
'WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING? YOU SHOULD BE RESTING!'
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A/N: Haha-hehe...ammm...hahahahahahaha...h?...Well there you have it…I'm so sorry, but I just couldn't kill Sango…I just couldn't…sorry…And if you think that the story will be happier from now on… YOUR WRONG! SOME BAD FUCKING SHIT IS ON IT'S WAY & IF YOU WANNA FIND OUT WHAT IT IS…YOU MAKE SURE YOU READ!
LATA! And remember… I LUV YA! wink