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Chapter 11: I WANNA BE FREE!

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'Come on in, my parents are away and the girls can stay here for the night' Miroku opened the door to his house and they entered.

He switched on the lights and lead Sango to the couch. She collapsed on it immediately, closed her eyes and rubbed her belly.

'I don't ever wanna smoke that shit again…' she groaned and turned to the other side and watched as her boyfriend disappeared in to the kitchen.

'Sesshy…where's the fucking…bath…' Rin tried to make out, but her stomach wouldn't allow her. The effect of the alcohol she drank was still there. No mater how many times they stopped on their way back, her body was still complaining.

Quickly he lead her down the hallway and turned right, opening the doors as she stumblingly ran to the toilet. He only shook his head and walked to her side, holding back her hair so it wouldn't drop over her eyes and mouth.

Meanwhile Koga settled Ayame on the sofa and slapped her lightly on the cheek to keep her awake. Her eyes were now open, now close. She was still in her own imagination world and she wasn't doing so well. She kept complaining how hot it was…in fact, they all complained.

'I need…bon…bon…' Ayame managed to say as her eyelids slipped together and she fell forward in to Kogas arms. Deciding that was it for the night, he carefully lay her down and grabbed a blanket, as he let it cover her thin, trembling body. He kissed her forehead and sat on the floor, glancing at Sango, who was trying to get rid of the pill and the glass of water Miroku tried to force in to her mouth. No matter if the crack made her thirsty, she refused to drink it.

'No…get that thing away from me…' she covered her face with her hands and shivered.

'It's for your own good…' he glared back.

'No…'

'Sango…'

'No!'

'Your acting like a child...' he smirked at her.

'So what…if I eat that shit…I'm gonna throw up again…5. time!' she snapped and dared to take a peak at his eyes and face.

'It's your fault…you took that shit…and you smoke it…not me…now eat it!' he demanded.

'No!'

'Sango! It's not that bad…?'…he trailed off thinking again about what he said.

'Damn right it's bad! Very bad!' If she only knew how right she really was…but Miroku…well…let's just say…he experienced more things that she could possibly imagine…

'Just eat the fucking tablet…' he sighed and pushed the thing in her hands, walking away.

'What part of the word 'N-O' don't you understand?' she snapped and sat up as her head went spinning. He turned around, his eyes narrowed and filled with rage, sending a shiver of fear thro her soul.

'…fine…I'll eat this fucking shit…' she slowly placed the pinkish tablet on her tongue and she tensed. Quickly washing it down, she still felt like the pill was stuck in her throat. She tried swallowing a few times, but no use. So she drank the rest of the water and placed the glass away.

Nothing helped. That fucking feeling was still there. Fuck I hate pills! Every time I eat one, it feels like it gets stuck in my throat…Bljack! I hate medicine! Why cant they make this things in syrup !´´
Sango thought and felt her self get woozy, so she laid back down, feeling the sleep coming to her, pulling her away…

'What did you give me…?' she mumbled as Miroku carefully lifted her head and placed a soft pillow under it. Then he took of her shoes and covered her with a red blanket.

'Sleeping pill…night love' and with that he kissed her lightly.

'You'll pay for…th..is…' and she was gone.

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Inuyasha walked upstairs, carrying Kagome. She was awake, but barely.

Kicking open a door, he walked in to a dark room and stopped as he slowly sat Kagome on the bed. She was looking at the floor, her eyes empty.

He kneeled down and brushed the bangs away from her face.

'You ok?' he asked slowly as she looked up. She didn't need to say anything, her face told him all. She felt guilty for what she did and ashamed that she fell so low ,that she needed to drug her self to get her mind of this fucking life and the fucking things that were happening to her. But still…God! If he only knew how good it felt!

'It's ok…I just…I just don't get it…'

'Why?' she finished that for him, her voice sad. They stared at each other as he waited patiently for her to tell him something...anything…cause he had this very weird feeling like something bad happened to her…like somebody hurt her again…

'I…I don't know…' she trailed of.

'What do you mean you don't know Kagome!' he asked angry.

'Well…I just…'

'Why the hell would you want to take heroin! God! Look at you! Your pale like death and your beautiful eyes are thin and…fuck! Why in the world would you wan-'

'Cause I need it Inuyasha!' she snapped back, completely ignoring what he just said.

'Need it?'

'Yes…it was the only way to get my mind of things…' she whispered.

'Taking drugs isn't the answer!' he yelled at her.

'What do you know! You've never been-'

'We already talked about this Kagome…' he sighed and stood up.
All she did was turn her head to the side and glared at something her eyes settled on.

'Is there something you wanna tell me…or something you ain't telling me?'

'N…no…' she replayed a little scared.

'Are you sure…?'

'Y-..ye…yes…'

With out a word he turned around and walked away from her, but he stopped as his heart started pounding fast and his eyes replayed the thing he saw before. Turning around quickly, he practically ran to her side and lifted her shirt before she had the time to react.

'Explain your self!' he stood up and glared at her, but she stayed quiet, trying to avoid his gaze and think of a way to get rid of him as fast as possible.

'Damn it Kagome! Explain to me right here, right now!' he all but yelled.

She stood up, stomped to the bathroom and slammed the door right in his nose.

'Fuck!' he cursed and smacked his fist in to the wall.

'This isn't over yet Kagome…you'll talk to me…you will talk…I swear on my life I'll get to the bottom of this…' with this he left, up to something again. He was determined to get thro this shit once and for all…and not even some crazy bitch-of a girlfriend could stop him.

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'Damn him…Damn him! Damn him to hell!' Kagome angrily walked from one place to another.

Why did he always had to put his nose in her business? Why? He tried to help, but all he did was make it worse! Every time there was something wrong or something happened to her, he just knew! Like an instinct! It was always the same.

She got hurt…he somehow found out…he asked her…she didn't wanna answer…they started arguing…and in the end…both walked their separated ways…it was like…a story that you read over and over again…yet, it always has the same beginning…it always has the same ending…

Why in the world did he keep bugging her, if he never got anything out of her mouth… She never told him…and were back where we started from…life is a fucking bitch and there is nothing you can do to change it…Kagome knew that damn well…just like I do…sometimes you ask your self why do you keep living…why don't you just go and mess up your life…what's the fucking difference?…it's already messed up as it is…

It's an easy way…go to some club…find a dealer…buy some drugs…use them…and they will take you to a place beyond your wildest dreams…heaven…you feel like the most happiest person alive…there's not a fucking worry in your life…no fucking people to talk behind your back and call you a freak, just cause your different…no fucking parents to tell you what to do in your life….no fucking friends, who keep bugging you and keep asking you: ''What's your freakin problem!''

No nobody! Just you and your little world…of desire…lust…wishes…love…most of all…freedom!
But there is still a problem…maybe you don't realize…but if you
hurt your self, OR DO SOMETHING STUPID…
you effect other people around you…people who care…
but what if those people don't care at all and just wanna feel sorry for you, cause you're their friend and they don't want to hurt your feelings…what then? You still wanna live!

Kagome sighed and sat down on the edge of the tub. Why did life had to be so fucking…never mind!
She thro her head back and nervously bit her lip. There was something going on inside of her…a feeling that she couldn't explain…and it was calling out to her…calling out for the thing she needed the most…but what!

She tapped her finger on the cold white bathtub and looked around, turning her eyes nervously every way…what was going on here?…she was in need of something…but what could be so…so important…Inuyasha…her lust towards him perhaps!…nope…Hurting her self!…nope…killing her self!…No way!…drugging her self?…HELL YA!…But why?

Well, it is known if you try heroin once…you need it again! And immediately your life depends on it. Cause once you take it, you have a need to get it and that is how you become addicted to it.
Every time you take it, you need it even more…once you're completely fallen, you need heroin so much, that it kills you…
The effects are suppose to show in a few days, but in some cases, people already need it after a few hours…

Kagome stood up and taped her foot on the floor. Her head was turning in every direction, her eyes changed and she started sweating. She became impatient.

'Uhh…what now?…' she asked her self 'I got to get something ,before I explode…' she burst out the bathroom and searched Mirokus room.

'There's got to be something here…' she tried to calm her self , as she grabbed a drawer and practically ripped it out and thro it across the room. It broke in peaces as it crashed in to the wall.

'Fuck!' she straitened her self, one hand resting on her hip, the other on her forehead. Breathing deeply, anger rising inside of her. She felt hot, like a fire burning in her soul.

'Damn it!' she grabbed on to her shirt and roughly pulled it of her.
She tugged on her shoes and socks and thro them away. She wore only her black baggy capris and a white spaghetti top, with a bleeding heart that had crows wings.

She sat down on the bed and sighed as she shook her head.
'What now?'… she took a big breath and almost choke as she started coughing again. But this time it was even worse. Grabbing her shirt, she pressed it against her mouth and tried to calm this down. After a few min it stopped.

Exhausted, she practically fall back on the bed and threw the peace of cloth away, her chest falling and rising quickly, repeatedly. She closed her eyes and ran her hands down her body, feeling lust growing inside of her, as she shivered and bit her lip. Good lord, what this drug did to her. Nobody ever managed to make her feel like this… She reached in her pockets
and snapped up as she felt something. Quickly pulling her hand to her face, her heart jumped with joy.

How in the…how did…who…from where…this…g-get…here?…´´ all this questions racing thro her head.

'Oh, who cares!'

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'Dude…will ya calm down already!' Miroku tried to make Inuyasha stay in place. He was angry and just couldn't take this anymore. His eyes would kill now ,if they could.

'Fuck off!' he yelled.

'Yash, what in the hell got in to you?' Koga made a weird face.

'Kagome! That's what!' he bursted out and destroyed the first thing that came in to his hands.

'Man! That was my moms!' Miroku yelled terrified.

'I don't give a fuck about it!' he growled and crashed the kitchen table in to dust.

'Inuyasha! Calm down!' Sesshoumaru tried, but no use. Even he was scared.

'Shut the fuck up!' his eyes started glowing and his fist created a whole in the TV.

'You did not just do that!' Miroku stood in shock as they followed him in to the living-room.

'Grrr…' was all that came out.

'I can't take this anymore!' Inuyasha snapped and sat down in the couch, trying to calm down his nerves.

'Well…maybe …' Koga trailed of, thinking if this was a good idea.

'What?' Inuyasha spat back.

'Brake up with her?' It wasn't even a second, before Inuyasha was holding him by his throat, growling, his eyes flashing red.

'Don't dare…ever fucking say that…got it?' Inu narrowed his look.

'Yash! Let him go!' Miroku yelled, as he saw traces of blood running down his fingers.

'Stay out of this!' he yelled back.

'Inuyasha!' Seshhoumaru warned, but no use.

'Got it?' Inuyasha turned back to his friend.

'Yeah…got…it…' he made out.

'You better…' he let go and Koga tried to catch some air.

'What's gotten in to you bro!' Sesshy asked and sat down next to him.

'Everything…'

'And that is…'

'This can't go on like this…'

'What?' Seshh asked puzzled.

'Secrets…everything started falling apart, just cause of this shit…'

'What are you getting at here?' Miroku asked.

'The girls need to know…' Koga finished and Inuyasha just kept silent.

'What?' Seshh froze in place.

'He's right…they deserve to…' Miroku sighed and looked down at his feet. There was a moment of tension between the boys…

'No…Let's just end it…' Sesshy said dead serious, a hint of sadness in his voice.

'What?' Inu looked up.

'They don't need to know…let's just end with them and keep away from them as much as possible…'

'But…' Inuyasha tried to say something, but nothing came out.

'He is right dude…if it weren't for us, they would never heard of that fucking club…' Koga said.

'And this fucking shit would never happen…' Miroku finished.

'Yeah, but I'm still planning to keep and eye on them' Inuyasha said strictly and looked at the guys. They nodded their heads in agreement.

'This…is…gonna…be hard…' Seshhy sighed.

'No shit Einstein…' Miroku said sarcastically. They haven't done anything yet and he already missed Sango.

'I'm…gonna go check on Kagome…be right back…' Inuyasha walked upstairs, tears stinging his eyes at her name. If it hurt to see her like this…then braking up would make him completely down.

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How am I ever gonna get the strength to tell her…fuck this cursed life…´´ Inuyasha entered Mirokus room and looked around. He made a weird face as he saw a destroyed drawer.

'Great…what did she do this time?' he asked and picked up her t-shirt. He could have swore that he smelled something familiar, just couldn't make out what.

Boringly he looked closer and his eyes widened.

What the fuck!´´

The shirt looked completely covered in red stains. Suddenly a thud was heard from the bathroom.

'K-Kagome?' He asked worried and pressed his ear against the door and listened. Nothing…after he got no respond he reached for the handle, but it was locked.

'O hell no!' angry, he grabbed on it and broke it down. He slammed the door open and stood in place, his heart breaking down.

The one he loved more then anything else in this world, was lying on the cold marble floor. Her face pale, her eyes shut close and some red liquid, which he would recognize anywhere, on the corners of her lips.
Her hair spread in every direction and her hands up on both sides of her head.

'Oh fuck no…Seshhoumaru! Call 911!' he yelled and walked over to her limp body. Kneeling down, the back of his hand brushed against her cheek.

'Kagome…what have you done…!' he asked. Her eyelids snapped open and she stared at him, her lens thin and small. A delightful smile on her lips. She looked calm and happy, like never before.

'Hello…' was all she said and sat up dizzily.

'Kagome…tell me you didn't do what I think you did?' he asked with a blank expression.

She stared at him, eyes wide, with out a fear or discomfort in them. She felt free and indeed…she did look high. She felt no worry or negative thoughts. Actually she felt satisfied as if she just had an orgasm. (and it is true…I found it in a book…)

Pushing her self on her feet, she walked away and he just stared after her moving form.

Damn it…what now!´´

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The guys ran upstairs and entered Mirokus room.

'What the hell is going on here!' Seshhoumaru stated, as they looked around. The music was playing and on the floor there were peaces of broken furniture.

'What do you think?' Inuyasha asked, earning their attention. He was leaning against the wall, arms crossed and looking strait ahead.

Turning their eyes in the direction he was looking, their orbs settled on Mirokus bed. Kagome was simply lying there on her back ,her hair spread all around her head, she was in a pretty same position she was before. She was happily looking at the ceiling and singing.

(Papa Roach-Be Free…I LUV THIS! It speaks just how I feel and stuff that are going on …well bye bye)

I woke up and I feel like shit!
I don't remember last night,
I'm getting sick of this!
I hit the bottle,
When I got off stage.
I got piss, drunk, stupid
And I went in rage!

I think I mighta got in a fight,
Because my knuckles are bloody
And I don't feel alright!
I hit the bottom
And I don't even care!
You say I'm going to hell…
But I am already there!

Sick'n Tired Of Bein' Sick'n Tired!

I wanna be free,
From this ball and chain!
Be free! From this life of pain!
Be free! From this ball and chain!
I wanna be free from you!

Now I'm full of guilt and shame.
I can't point a finger,
Because there's no one to blame.
So I say I never do it again…
But when the sun goes down,
You are my only friend.

I think that I am starting to see.
I have become everything I never wanted to be.
I'm really getting sick of myself…
Cause when I look in to the mirror,
I see somebody else!

Sick'n Tired Of Bein' Sick'n Tired!

(Course 2X)
I wanna be free,
From this ball and chain!
Be free! From this life of pain!
Be free! From this ball and chain!
I wanna be free from you!

Sick'n Tired Of Bein' Sick'n Tired!
So sick and tired of being sick and tired!
Sick'n Tired Of Bein' Sick'n Tired!
So sick and tired of being sick and tired!

(Course 2X)
I wanna be free,
From this ball and chain!
Be free! From this life of pain!
Be free! From this ball and chain!
I wanna be free from you!

I WANNA BE FREE FROM YOU!

'She…she's- ' Miroku turned towards him and pointed his finger at her.

'Yep.' Inuyasha answered like there would be nothing wrong.

'But how-'

'Don't know' he shrugged.

'What's this?' Seshhy looked down at the material covered in blood.

'That's what I'm planning to find out, as soon as she snaps back to reality'

'And that would be…' Koga asked.

'In about 20minutes'

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A/N: Bye bye…see ya next time .