Author's Notes: This is eventually going to be a Taiora. I feel kind of hurt to think that one of my readers thought that I was leading them on to a whole different story. Tai is just reminiscing first. Later on, I will switch the story so that it would be in the present, when Tai's about eighteen or nineteen. I hope that you enjoy anyways. I hope that you all enjoy! Please review in the end.
By the way, I'm sorry for this chapter coming out so late... ten days I think... Sorry... hehe... And... A person reviewed and said this: "I thought this was going to be a Tia/Sora fic.Not a Tia regretting not fighting for Sora." 1) Um... it's 'Tai'. 2) It will eventually turn out to be a Taiora. In the first chapter I think, I said that Tai was just reminiscing for now. Eventually the story will take place in the present where the Taiora will then take place.
Sorry for the misunderstanding soul 141, I'll try and make it more clear. If you were confused, there must have been others who thought the same thing. Thanks for telling me though!
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My High School Love Life
Part three
A New Me
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"They say 'drink and be merry.'. What idiots made that bull up?" Sora told me, as she leaned over the porch railing to gorge her guts out, boy was that disgusting...
I rubbed her back soothingly trying to calm her down. Alcohol had already taken it's toll on m e as I spent nearly half an hour in the host's bathroom throwing up too, during the party.
Junior year was going great with the exception of hangovers due to under age drinking and running away from the cops after the party unfortunately had to end because the illegacy was found out.
Although Sora and I made it out without getting caught, I promised to the heavens that if I never get caught by the cops, I would never touch alcohol ever again. Sora too agreed with me on this.
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"They made me listen to the worst music I have ever heard of. I swear. I mean, Kari had her little-baby party-warty," I said making baby noises to exaggerate my expressions, "... and I had to be stuck listening to BS for the rest of the the day, baby-sitting her and her friends..." I continued, trying to make my face look as disgusted and mad as possible.
Sora laughed at this. "BS..." she pondered, then her face lit up and she opened her mouth to speak.
We looked at each other for a moment then, "Brittany Spears!" we both said at the same time, as we cracked up into fits of laughter.
"It's been a while Tai..." she told me as she leaned her head on my shoulders. I tensed up a little. We were in public and Catherine could be lurking in the bushes somewhere, seeing Sora and me looking like a couple walking down the park path. Disgustingly corny.
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You see, after Sora and Matt began seeing each other, Catherine and I went back together. I didn't know for what purpose though, but when she asked me to be her boyfriend again, I just agreed half-heartedly. Possibly, I was still half hoping that there might be at least a nano-jealousy in my best friend.
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"Love. It's a strange thing. Confusing at times really. Sometimes it's just obvious and other times... there are just the slightest hints... at least one would wish they were hints. Other times, one doesn't see it at all, and that would just bring their whole world crashing down.
"I mean, you know that feeling you get when your two best friends in the whole entire world begin fighting? It's like: Who should you help? It's the worst choice. It's kind of the same with love. Well... in my predicament actually. It's hard to understand, and I don't want to tell you anything about it, but as I talk right now, I wish that at least one more person in this room would understand what I'm talking about, so I won't look like such a complete idiot hinting about something that I really wish were true. I'm going to stop talking now. Crap..." I said, ending my presentation of my journal write-up.
"Taichi, now, please, watch your language there," my teacher, Ms. Hiriko said to me as I sat down.
My face was completely red and I knew it because of that stupid burning sensation you get when you blush. I looked around the room. Some people were sleeping with their mouths slightly open... drool running down the corners of their lips. I looked over at Matt... figures. He always slept in his classes. My eyes darted around again. Some people were picking at their nails or resting their head on their hands, pretending to listen to the presenters in the class. Like they gave a damn. There was only one face, out of the whole class that was looking at me. Now her face was turned back around. Sora. What was that about?
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"You're driving me insane here Taichi!" Catherine yelled at me, as we were sitting down on my couch, my arms around her shoulders.
I gave her a little look, and turned my attention back to the television. "How?" I asked absent-mindedly.
She gave a sharp, annoyed sighed, and grabbed my front shirt collar. "What's wrong with you?!" she shrieked in my face.
Okay, this my got attention. What was up with this girl? "What are you talking about?" I asked, trying to be calm. Everyone knew my temper wasn't very good. Usually when someone yelled at me, I would just yell back even if it were my fault, but I truly had no idea what the hell she was talking about.
"How long have we been going out hmm Tai?" she asked, annoyingly tapping her fingers against my mom's coffee table.
"I dunno," I answered her back. Should I? I was the boyfriend. It was the girlfriend's job to keep the dates of everything and hint it to their boyfriends, until they guessed about fifty times and still got it wrong.
"Arggggghhh!!!" she cried out, as she jumped in my lap and stared at me hard in the eyes.
Okay. This was getting scary.
"Taichiiiii!!! Kiss me! We've been going out for six months now, and all you could do is hug me or kiss me on the cheek! You're not homosexual, and I can tell because my friend Teki gave me clues on how to know!" Hmm... Teki... nothing to worry about, everyone knew he was gay at school, and he was proud, we really didn't care. He was still a human being after all.
I shrugged. What to do with the girl? "Catherine..." Maybe if I explained then she would stop. But explain what? The fact that I would rather my lips not be taken by just any girl? That I was in love with Sora Takenouchi and I would much rather have her kiss me first rather than my own girlfriend. No. I'd just be an ass then.
"Hmm...?" she mumbled, she was a little angry at me, I could understand her though. She had a reason to be mad. I've always been a little distant from her. I never gave her a chance... but Sora... she was nothing like Sora. Okay. So I was being *such* an ass right then. Why was I such a jerk when it came to Catherine?
"I'm sorry," I said; her face faltered. "... I'm sorry I've been acting like such a jerk. I'm sorry I've been ignoring you... I'm sorry that when you asked me out again the only reason why I said it was because I would gain something from it. I'm sorry I'm such an ass...."
Catherine stared at me with surprise. "What do you mean you thought you would gain something from it? Did you think I was a slut Tai?" she asked hurt.
"No! Not at all! Believe me!" I said, placing both hands on either of her shoulders. I didn't want her to get the wrong idea. "... I thought it would get this girl's attention. I'm a jerk..."
We stayed quiet for a while. I was really dreading this silence. The next thing I'd probably know is that she's taking out a machine gun, shooting me to a bloody pulp, and leave me dead saying 'asshole' as she left.
I was completely surprised when she told me this: "Well then... I'm a bigger jerk. Ever since I heard that Sora and Matt were going out, I got jealous and you were the first guy who popped into my mind for a jealous revenge. I liked Matt, and I thought that I could use you to be with him. Besides that I was angry at you, so I was satisfied that I could use you and hurt you at the same time... But I don't mean it now and I'm sorry...". That was what she said. Surprising isn't it?
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With that, Catherine left the apartment. We had occasional greetings in the hallways around school, but besides that, we never really talked much after. Neither did Sora and I.
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I walked past the Christmas decorated streets of Odaiba that year alone. No more Sora here with me. No one was with me usually in fact. I hated it, so I decided that from that day on, I would change. If I liked something I would do the best I could to get it. If I liked someone, I would tell them. If I was lonely... I would create music to soothe myself... Starting from that day on.
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"All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
"Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why
"But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me
"I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind
"But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
"I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
"But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
"Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell..." I sung. Not out loud though. It was more like mumbling with a louder guitar background. Yeah... like I actually wanted people to hear what I was singing. Like I actually wanted people to hear me singing. I would rather let them keep their hearing.
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Author's Notes: I know that I made Tai into that whole 'singing guy' thing, but I couldn't help it. It just seems so right for him to sing! Don't you just love it when guys sing ^_^? It's so unusual for them to sing meaningful songs, but it's so great when you hear a really nice song with a really nice voice! Oh yeah, by the way, Tai's exaggerating. He sings just as good as he did in 'Between Acts, Truth, and Real Life'. I hope that you all enjoyed.
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