Why have you forsaken me
In your eyes forsaken me
In your thoughts forsaken me
In your heart forsaken, me oh
Trust in my self righteous suicide
I-cry-when angels deserve to die
In my self righteous suicide
I-cry-when angels deserve to die
System of a down - chop suey
Everyone know are my childhood, I lived with my raven haired mom. She knew what I was but never told anyone in fear that they would hurt me. She also knew Yume was the goddess of dreams. It was known that she was murdered by my father, he had slipped something in her tea that morning. I had no friends other than yume back then, so mother deiced we would just play games all day her of course playing as well. Around 12:00 p.m. we opted to play a little with my ball. It was simple we just threw it in a triangle absent-mindedly and talked. I being the klutz I once was let the ball zoom past me, me and Yume ran to retrieve it from the forest we lived so close to. Once we came back mother was laying on the ground with a whole in her gut and was bleeding profoundly. Standing over her was my father his silver hair blowing with the wind. I did the only thing my 6 year old self could do, I ran up to her and started to cry like the child I was. Looking back at it now I can't help but think how stupid I was, I should have took Yume's hand and ran. Ran as far away from my father as physically possible.
that day my father kidnaped Yume and I, he took us to the kingdom of the gods where I met my brothers. My father of course then married Fate and had two kids with her Sky and Heart. The both of them were exiled and thrown out of our world, Sky was blamed as being the Balancer, she was falsely excused though. Soon the land forgot of them and moved on. Later on my father was murdered by a group of assassins who were hired by an unknown person. It was on my 10th birthday that I learned of Kingdom hearts. A game brought from another world, that's when Kage bought it for me. I would play it when ever I could, I was in love with the game and got to the point were I pretended I was in the game was well. Kage always laughed when he sat in my room watching me play, he thought it was funny when I talked to myself. As I neared the ending of kingdom hearts for the first time, Kage met Keirei the women of his dreams. He took me to the tree of life when I was 11, he thought I was ready to face what might my future hold.
My fathers spirit was there he was furious at Kage. Kage had been promised the throne at an early age since he was the oldest. Soon he started to detest his place as the possible new king. He talked his younger brothers into all refusing the position till all that was left was me. Father was so angry that he killed Kage an then turned to me ready to tear me to shreds. The only thing that had saved my that day was my powers. I didn't know it but I used an attack called 'saints light'. It knocked me out and sent my father back to hell. I was brought back to the castle two days later after I was found by my brother Kishi. The first thing I did when I got back was play kingdom hearts. At the time I was at the 'end of the world', I played the rest of the day till the end where I saw Riku being sealed behind the door.
Now I stand in my old bedroom thinking of the stupid things I've once done. I must place falling in love with Riku as one of them. If I didn't I might not have been in this castle. If I never even have picked up the game I would have never suffered like this. I could be laughing and playing with Kishi and Akai in the garden at the moment. To me all of it seemed to be a waste, Yume could be happier and we still all be friends if I hadn't even told Kage I wanted the game... it was all my fault we all were in danger that Riku was locked behind the door. And there again his name popped up. Riku. I so foolishly fell in love with him, and yet I enjoyed the moments we spent together. Maybe if I had of come here Riku would be locked in the door with king Mickey from the beginning.
My bedroom seemed so old to me at the that moment and everything just seemed to make sense. I was doubting my own heart and that's what Mikomi was trying to point out. "Believe something with all your heart and it'll come true." I whispered. During my adventures I lost sight of my heart and gave up believing, only till I believed again did I get though. The saying was truer then I could have ever imagined and all I wanted was to be selfish and not watch the people I care for die around me as I stay being immortal. Ai died happy because she was able to save her daughter, the only way I will die is if I'm with the one I love...
I wrench my door open it slammed against the wall making a loud bang. I had a feeling Mikomi was in the grand hall so I strode towards it with my new understanding. Night had fell around the old megami castle. as I walked down the once magnificent staircase Mikomi looked up at me. "Your right." I stated. She looked surprised. "Huh?" she asked. "I can see it." I said smiling. She smiled understanding what I meant. "So that means you have no desire to kill your friends now?' she asked. "No." I stated. He smile grew. "Go to the tree of life." she said. "Huh?" I asked confused. Se didn't answer but just walked out the grand oak door, leaving me standing there confused as hell.
So I stood by the tree of life just like Mikomi asked me too. I have no idea how long I waited. After a while I saw Mikomi leading my old friends."Tsuki!" Sky shouted bonding up to me. She'd had changed so much in the last couple years. Everyone was older now but the group seemed to stay together even Xenos was there. Shiro and Akai (heartless) jumped into her arms speaking a mile a minute. "meemeemeemeemeemeee!" shiro said. "Kyeh!" Akai agreed. I smiled and placed the two on the ground kneeling next to them. "I'm sorry I worried you. I've missed the both of you as well." you say. "It's good to see everyone again...on better terms." I said looking up at them. Everyone nodded. "Are you going to join us again ?" Soar asked. I nodded.
"So where are you guys stay now?" I asked. "Fate has demanded that we stay with her." Britney sad. "Oh I'm sorry." I said. "Huh?' Kairi asked. "My step-mom is a bitch." I said. Yume laughed. "You can say that again. "My step mom is a bitch." Xenos offered. Everyone laughed. "Well lets get going, I'm tired!." I said.
It seemed like nothing happened in the past year or so. Everyone got alone great. It was unbelievable to me how easily they accepted me back in the group as if I hadn't have tried to kill them before. It was around midnight when I finally was able to get back to my room. The room where years before I played kingdom hearts. I knew all the games had been burned other than my copy... I smiled I couldn't help but wonder if what I've done has effected the real game at all. I let out a yawn and stretched I would find out tomorrow.
Have you ever been to tired but just couldn't sleep? Well that night I tossed and turned all through the night. It seems even though my body was tired but my mind couldn't rest. Something was nagging me. I let out a string of curses and lift myself from the Satan sheets. My black night gown settled a little past my knees. I opened my door slowly, hoping to the heavens that the creaking wouldn't wake anyone. I slipped out and closed my door softly. I stood in the hall way and that's when I relived I had no clue what I was doing out here. It was a warm summers night so I made my way towards the garden. That night it was a new moon. It was the first thing I noticed, the garden was pitch black. The next thing I noticed was it was un natural cold, the bitter wind was snapping at my face. I rubbed at my arms trying desperately to chase away the growing fear the cold brought. I stumbled around for a minute, till my eye adjusted to the normally lively garden. The only thing that moved was the darkened trees, as they swayed with the bitter wind. Bushes and leaves joined their dance. Leaves swirled around my feet and bushes cut against my legs, telling my to move. I walked onward, ignoring the feeling something bad was about to happen, the marble fountain loomed ahead of me. Water spilled from it to it's basin without a sound. 'What the?' I thought edging forward. There was a crack behind me a spun around.