Author's Notes: I'm sorry, but there will be metioning of some sexual activity in this chapter, but only MENTIONINGS of it. It's not a lemon or whatever okay? Just to warn everyone. By the way, it's not going to be with who some might have thought it would have been with... Don't get me? Read on.
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My High School Love Life
Part Two
The Day Tai Died
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I grinned like an insane bob cat that day, I remember. I sighed, as I sat in the driver's seat of the car, looking ahead, waiting for my final result by the 'tester'. My forehead as dripping with nervous sweat, and my palms were practically crying an ocean.
The old, balding man turned to me with his dull eyes and said, "Great job... Ta... Taichi... You pass in the driving part of the test. Now, follow me to get your picture taken."
The both of us stepped out of the car and strode to the DMV building. I was practically skipping for joy.
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My picture was taken, and then the old man said that I would have to wait a couple days for my driver's permit. Of course I agreed. I waited seventeen years of my life for the moment to drive, and I was finally going to be awarded.
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Okay, I know, you're probably calling pathetic right about now because of the fact that I waited until senior year to get my license, but then again, I was part of the cut off months and birth year, so I had to wait. Actually I had to wait until I was eighteen, but... You know me. I don't like rules. Let's just say that all those workers needed was an extra large tip.
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A couple days later, I drove in with my dad's old car. It was old, but it was a classic. It still worked well and it brought me to the places that I needed to get to, so I was happy. I, for once, was not late for my first period class.
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"Hey Tai, heard about you getting your permit. Pretty cool. I'm getting mine in a year..." mumbled my best friend.
See, although I said that I hardly ever talked to her, I didn't say that I never talked to her.
"You know all you have to do is put up the little 'Taichi charm' that I've taught you before. If you forgot, I'll teach you again-" I began, but just then Matt walked in on the conversation, and I stopped.
"Oh... Um..." Sora looked uncomfortable, as she shifted around the tiny tile on the school's hallway floor. "I'll talk to you later then..."
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"One never knows what will happen in their lives do they?" Mimi once asked me one day as we laid down on the roof of my car at one o'clock in the morning.
"I guess not. It's just like out there... In the universe. One never knows what really goes on up there..." I said gazing up at the stars with my head resting on my folded arms behind my neck.
"If a tree falls down where no one is... Does it make a sound?" she asked me, a little dazed from the twinkling of the gaseous balls of light.
"Which came first... The chicken or the egg?" I asked, thinking that she was trying to play an answerable question game.
"No... I want you to answer that..." she said quietly.
"Technically-" I began, but she stopped, and loomed over me. She shifted a little and straddled me.
This was an uncomfortable position with a person who was just my friend...
"No... What do you think it is? No facts... I know that it makes sounds, technically thinking... but..."
"Hmm... In my opinion... I think that it does. There are many other creatures that can hear it, and with that question, it makes it seem as if only humans can hear. That only humans are the ones that really truly matter. Like whatever we see, feel and hear count more than another creatures..." I said. I really didn't have to think this through. Sora and I had talked about something related to this once, and I thought it up there on the stop thinking that I could maybe say it to her one day when the subject was brought up again. Unfortunately, the subject was brought up with Mimi, and not who I wanted it to be... No matters. Mims was still my friend.
She looked as if she were pondering about my answer for a while. Her intense mocha colored eyes were practically piercing through my very soul. What the...?
She smiled then, and began speaking. "Incredible..." she lightly gasped. "You were always the caring type weren't you Tai?" she asked, running her fingers gently through my hair, and outlining my face.
I shrugged at this, then stared at her straight in the eye to catch any emotion that she was feeling right then.
"Your answer. It tells me that you care more for others than what's going on in your mind. You would put others before yourself... and I think that's just... sweet..."
With this, her face was brought closer to mine. Her waist pressed onto mine and I had that feeling of want from this girl who I've known for such a long time, but never became better acquainted with. I gently pulled her closer to me, but she just gave up on propping herself up with her elbow, and pushed down against my body.
You would not imagine the surge of need in my body right then and there...
"Tai..." she whispered as she brought her face closer to mine.
I cupped her face gently and brought it towards mine until I could finally touch her lips with mine.
Mimi rested her whole body against mine. I lightly picked her up and exchanged positions with her, then pressed my body as close as I could to hers. I heard her give out a little groan before she began undoing my pants.
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"I heard about your little rendezvous with Mims Tai..." Sora's voice seemed cold and harsh that day.
I stared at her straight in the eyes, but she somehow blocked me from looking further into her feelings.
"What the..?! When... no... Where did you hear this?" I demanded.
This was between me and Mimi. Who and how the hell could someone else possibly find out? I knew Mimi well enough to know that she would never spill something that private to anyone else. Besides we had promised not to tell any of our friends.
"It doesn't matter Tai. What matters is that you did what you did. What's wrong with you? Ever since the end of last year, you've changed into someone I don't even know-" she began, but I interrupted her.
"Who the hell are you to say this to me? You've changed, whether you can admit that to yourself or not. I don't understand you anymore. Besides that. When we were younger, we had promised each other that although we were in a relationship, we would never just throw our friendship away. You did that. You started this mess, and now you're practically implying that I should fix the problem?" I yelled.
"I never said anything about fixing anything-" she started again, but my anger blocked any reason from within my brain and I went full out on her.
"You don't think that I know you well enough. Well I don't care how long we haven't been in contact with each other now-a-days okay? I still know you Sora. I can still read you like a little children's book. I can read anything you say and do in between the lines, so don't you go telling me that bull about what you didn't say!"
People were turning their heads from their lockers and friends to stare at us. I didn't care right now. I was too angry, but just as I became angered, I regretted it. I had hurt her. I hurt Sora. I hurt the only girl that I would ever truly love. What a bastard I was.
Mimi came and took me away from the scene, and I left Sora there, standing all alone.
Oh gods Sora...
I am so sorry...
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That night, I spent nearly six hours, continuously trying to call Sora. I owed her a sorry. No. I owed her something much more than that, but I had no idea what. I wanted to make it up to her. I was such an ass, and although it would have been much better if she didn't talk about it in the school hallway, I didn't really care at that moment. Just right then I wanted to say sorry to her. I wanted to hold her and give her the warmest, most welcoming embrace that I would ever give.
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Finally during my seventh continuous hour, Sora finally picked up the phone and answered in a worn-out voice.
"Tai..." she began. Her words were slow and tired as if she had been in some other argument, and her usually fiery attitude was put out.
"Sora. I'm sorry... Look. I don't know how I could ever make it up to you, but I swear that I am the sorriest guy alive in the world right about now. I want you to forgive me, and I know that it's hard, but I can't stand you being mad at me. I can't stand not talking to you. It was driving me crazy that I couldn't talk to you, so I took out all my anger on you today, and I just couldn't help it. I'm sorry, and I know no matter how many times I say it, it won't fully patch up the things that I said to you earlier, but I hope that it would help, if only for just a tiny microscopic band-aid in our broken friendship..." I explained to her. Oh gods I missed her, and it drove me crazy. I was crazy, yes. I was nuts not being able to be with her.
I heard a little laughter from the other line before she began talking again. "Tai... I've missed you too... I forgive you for what happened in the hallways today... but we still need to talk about what happened between you and Mimi..."
I sighed. I didn't want to talk about it. It was a spur of the moment thing, and the two of us weren't really thinking. Although I disapproved of what I did, I had to agree with myself that it was what I had been training myself to do. Get what I wanted, when I wanted it. I got what I wanted, but not for the reason I wanted it to be for. Love. I liked Mimi, sure... but did I love her?
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After that day with Mimi and me, the people around school learned what happened. Girls would surround me and press their slutty bodies on me... Oh kami-sama... how could I...? Then I would agree and let my brain and my hormones get the best of me...
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You can say that I completely changed from when I was a freshman up to then, when I was a senior, but I still carried my 'Taichi charm'... this time though, I would use it to get out of sleeping with some girl or going out on a date. There were even rumors spreading about in the hallways of high school from some girl who I hadn't slept with yet saying how I was like a miracle in bed. Back then I would smile and keep the girls guessing, but now, I'm just ashamed and disgusted with what I became.
Sora still talked to me, we still hung out, but there was a part of her that grew then, that disliked me. She didn't like what I was doing to myself or those girls. As my best friend though, she felt that it was her duty to stay with me. So that's what she continued to do...
Although she called me her best friend though... she didn't know my deepest, darkest secret: That the only reason why I was doing this was because of my depression. I thought that it would be a great substitute for not being with Sora. Boy was I wrong. The day that I ruined my reputation was the day 'Taichi' died.
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Author's Notes: I'm truly sorry for taking such a long time to update my stories. School's completely stressing me out! Anyways, I hope that you all enjoyed. Please review!