I haven't done these disclaimers before, except for the last chapterand I deeply and honnestly apologize a million for not doing so on the first chapter... so here goes nothing:
"Birdcage" Gackt's song and NOT mine! and Saiyuki boys, Goku and Sanzo NOT mine either (though I'd love to own them in all ways... cough cough)... so yeah...
here's my fanfic! I hope you find it more pleasing than the others and THANK YOU for all of those who've read, commented, and returned for the 2nd chapter ofmy first fanfic ever! ARIGATO! and SUKIDAYO!
Chapter 3: Birdcage (also the name of the song by Gackt Camui)
Lying against the tree, Sanzo stared off into the distance where the sun began to set ever so slowly. 'Dammit,' thought the blonde-hair man. 'Why'd I have to go off and do that? …Goku probably thinks I'm a pervert or a jerk now. Fuck…' Needless to say that Sanzo was frustrated beyond belief at the moment; he flushed bright red and grabbed his golden hair in dissatisfaction. Unwanted feelings had rushed over him and lustful desires for the boy took over; nothing could've stopped him. As the cool breeze blew over Sanzo's pale peachy skin, calmness enveloped him. Sanzo exhaled lightly and stared up at the tree above him, cigarette hanging carelessly out of his slightly parted lips. He started to half sing, half hum part of a song he had learned from the bar he had visited in the last town:
I'm corrupted
The memory of my youth I saw in the light,
Still now so far away.
From the darkness,
I yelled your name over and over again.
In that endless time, you were all I had.
Unable to atone for my sins with my life,
I shut myself
All I can do is pray... my sadness won't heal.
"San…—zo…?" Goku half stuttered. He slowly walked over to the blonde man, who sat there against the tree trying to fall asleep and forget about the past actions he'd done to the boy. Goku sat down next to the man, Sanzo turned his face away from the boy. "Sanzo…" he said more clearly this time around, and rested his head on Sanzo's lap. "Are you angry with me?" No response, just silence. Goku started to cry. "Sanzo, do you hate me!" His tears streamed down his face now and landed on Sanzo's lap.
I tore off one leaf of a wet hydrangea
Float it in a puddle and remember you.
For some reason,
The sound of a steam whistle faintly blowing
From a far off ship in the sunset after the rain,
Makes me sad.
"Goku," Sanzo finally answered, taking the cigarette out of his mouth and throwing it to the side where a pile was already forming with the cigarette butts. He looked down at the crying boy, "How can I ever hate you? If anything… you should be the one hating me." Sanzo's deep as the ocean sea eyes became glossy and suddenly shallower than the small waterholes in the summertime. He looked as if he were about to cry. "I'm so sorry, Goku…"
If I'm not to be forgiven,
Then I wish it was all gone
The pain, the suffering,
To a world where none of it matters.
Goku looked up at his companion; he had already stopped crying but his eyes were still glossy and his face was still a bit flushed. Sanzo continued to look down into the boy's golden eyes. Goku got up from where he laid and embraced Sanzo's warm bare body; he never wanted to let go. Sanzo place his arms around the once sobbing boy and his tears fell at last.
Unable to atone for my sins with my life,
I shut myself
All I can do is pray... my sadness won't heal.
Your voice I heard from the gently weeping sky,
Laughing with tears in my eyes, I can't see...
The tears flowed like gentle streams down Sanzo's pale, soft cheeks and onto Goku's face. The young companion held onto the man tighter and took a deep breath before plunging forwards and up to once again seal their lips together. The kiss was gentle, candy sweet, and unforgettable. Sanzo's eyes were the ones to widen this time around, but he accepted the kiss and drew the boy closer to his warm body. After the kiss was delivered, Goku drew himself back and looked at the blonde, handsome man that sat before him; Sanzo's eyes were closed and traces of the tears remained.
"Neh… Sanzo…?" His eyes opened. "Don't cry anymore… It's alright. I'm not mad at you… The truth is that… well… umm…." Sanzo leaned forward and kissed Goku on the forehead. "San—" Goku's chin was lifted. "—zo?" then he was speechless. The two gazed into each other's eyes for a moment before Sanzo delivered a second more passionate, yet still gentle kiss.
"Shhh… you don't need to say it," Sanzo whispered. "I know already…" A slight smile shown onto Sanzo's face; it erased the uncertainty and sadness from Goku's heart. "Aishiteru, Goku"
"Mmm… ASHITERU, ASHITERU, ASHITERU, SANZO!" he said as he pounced onto the larger man, sinking in for another passionate kiss.
The memory of my youth I saw in the light
Even that silent smile, now makes me happy
Even back then, a time we can never go back to,
We were smiling.
Goku's body pressed closer to blonde's having one of his legs unknowingly but lightly applying pressure into Sanzo's sensitive area making the grown man let out a small moan. To the man's slight uncontrolled response, Goku let out a small devious smile. Goku pressed harder into Sanzo, applying more pressure onto the man's groin. Sanzo let out a small gasp and started to moan to the boy's weight being applied more and more onto his slowly hardening member. The blonde's heart raced a little and his breathing paced faster. Goku didn't know what can over him, but the reaction he was getting from the man was turning him on.
The golden eyes of the boy closed as he let hand hands wander all over Sanzo's body. He felt the man begin to sweat lightly and pant a bit too. Goku loved it. He then stuck his tongue out to trace from Sanzo's bare chest up to his neck and then to his chin, tasting the blonde's sweet sweat. Goku couldn't help but grin. All the while, Goku continued to grind his leg on Sanzo's groin. It was driving the man insane. He moaned even louder, unable to hide his enjoyment of the treatment the younger boy was giving him.
Goku trailed his skillful tongue across the man's cheek to his earlobe; his hands continuing to massage the beautiful body, and his leg rubbing into the member. Sanzo wanted more and more but he couldn't say a word. He began to thrust a little into Goku's leg, pressing his body closer to the boy and finally, wrapping his arms around Goku, begging for more contact and warmth from the boy.
The boy paused his play and trailed his hand up to cup Sanzo's cheek and his leaned in for another kiss, gliding his tongue gently across the roof of Sanzo's mouth, causing him to groan deeply in his throat. Breaking the kiss, Goku used his other hand to slowly work with Sanzo's tight jeans; 'They were in the way,' Goku thought. As he slowly unbuttoned the jeans and placed his rough fingers on the zippers, Goku leaned in and let out a small purr into the man's ear, then letting his warm, moist tongue to lick the outer part, causing another moan to escape from the blonde. Goku pressed closer, letting his hand press even harder on Sanzo's penis. The blonde man gasped.
"neh… Sanzo…" Goku whispered into his ear, purring at the same time; his voice sounding so mysterious and sexy. "Let's fly together into bliss and be freed of this birdcage…."
To be continued...
I'm so sorry it took so long to update! I fear that Chapter 4 won't be coming for a while either, I've been having soooooo much school work to do and I constantly read more fanfictions from viewers like you for inspiration, etc. I hope you liked this chapter and will come back for the next! Until then… ciao!
--Jamie M. Yau
Author's Notes:
"Ashiteru" translates to 'I love you' in a more passionately and formal way. It expresses real, true, deep love for another and is usually used towards a family member and/or a lover.
SPECIAL PREVIEW (One Time ONLY!):
Chapter 4 is going to be titled after the song by Hyde, the wonderful singer of the j-rock band L'ArcenCiel! The song's title "Sweet Vanilla"… I'll be looking forward for your comments in the near future! Here's the lyrics for the upcoming chapter as a small preview…..
Sweet Vanilla
I give myself to you
lay out the roses, for a wonderful dream
Darling, its all for your love
the end's of the earth,
which make me want to cover my eyes.
can't bring me down.
I will show to you the stars
There's so much that you should know
I won't cause you any tears
Believe me, Believe me
Set Sweet Vanilla
I've waited here for you
kiss your sweet naked flesh, lavish you with love
Darling, it's all for your love
come, reach out your hand
even if the world is corrupted by contradictions.
I will show to you the stars
There's so much that you should know
I won't cause you any tears
Believe me, Believe me
You make me feel brand new
cause you chase the clouds away
Believe me Believe me
I will show to you the stars
There's so much that you should know
I won't cause you any tears
You've no need to fear
I will show to you the stars
There's so much that you should know
I won't cause you any tears
Believe me, Believe me