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He must have known that I was. How could ha not have known after I told him about seeing the 4th victim? How could he not know after seeing Harold? He must have figured out the truth and just didn't tell me. His theory was correct. Only those who are dying can see the apparitions of those who have died.
If he didn't know before, he knows now. I run my fingers through his hair. He's been with me since I was admitted to the hospital, and even now he's asleep with his head resting by my arm. Something I know to be most uncomfortable. I have to wake him up. He needs to know how I fell.
"Mulder." I call. It takes a moment but his pretty hazel eyes flutter open.
"What is it Scully? Do you need anything?" He asks, as usual, more concerned with my well being than his own.
"Come up here and lie next to me. I need to tell you something." He stretches for a moment before climbing onto the bed and allows me to pillow my head on his shoulder.
"What do you need to tell me?" He asks and just like that my mouth goes dry. I swallow a couple of times before I speak.
"You remember when we were investigating the deaths of the women and I told you about seeing the 4th victim?" He nodded. "I wasn't fine. I knew then that I was sick. Your theory wasn't flawed. I am dying. I need you to know that I love you and that I don't want to leave you but we have to face the facts. I don't know how long I have but I want that time to be spent with you." I finished my monologue and could feel a few tears escape my eyes to soak into his shirt.
"I love you too. I have since you walked into my office that first day. I knew you lied that night outside the hospital when you said you were fine. I figured you would tell me when you were ready. I know that we probably wont have much time together, but I want to spend as much of it with you as possible." He kissed my forehead then. I snuggled down into his shoulder, breathing his scent. It was soothing, something distinctly him. He held me all night and I knew that I would never stop loving him, nor would I ever give him up to any outside forced. Hopefully I will be around to enjoy my time with him.