Chapter two

NERV base always looked same, every day. Still needed more laughs I thought. It's normal to see the sorrow situation. How can't it be? This building was filled by worried people.

Worried about the next coming up angels, about the pilot synchronization test, and about the love…Humans were so strange …

Nowadays, I didn't care about those things in NERV base. Well, if you paid attention enough, you could see so many love struggles here. Then, by the time went on, I realized something's wrong for me.

I saw Rei and Ikari were walking and talking together. First, I didn't care about that. But, since I had been watching them, I saw that Rei had an expression too while being with Ikari.

I thought that kind of expression was just for me, and may be for Gendou. But, she looked alive with that boy, with Shinji.

I could feel my self was burned by the jealousy fire. I tried to make the fire out, but it had no use. My face turned to be firm. No smile was left on it. And my heart wondered very well to see her with Shinji.

I thought I cold save her, I could make her back to my side, to the angels side. She was made from Adam, right? I thought the blood inside her was thick enough that couldn't be defeated by her urge to be a human.

But I was wrong. I could see that she was happier being a human than as an angel. She fought the angels. She fell in love with the bastard human, Gendou, even that I knew well that Gendou could hardly respond that feeling.

I wanted Rei, but she seemed belongs to the Ikaris. I didn't know who would she choose, the father or the son. I wanted Rei. I wanted her to be with me.

Until the day I couldn't hold my burning emotion anymore. The day that I saw her with Shinji again, talking after visited Asuka in the NERV hospital. You know…..Asuka got an accident from one of the angels. So, it's my turn to replace her place. After her talk with Shinji, and they weren't together anymore, I came over that boy.

"Yo, Shinji,"

"Oh, hi Kaworu,"

"You visited Asuka?"

"Yes, I did,"

"How was she?"

"Still same. I think she will never get her life back. She is deader than Eva,"

"I see,"

"And how about you, Kaworu, don't you visit her?"

"I prefer not to visit her. Meanwhile, I got some annoying work recently,"

"You will replace her place, right? As the pilot of unit 2,"

"Yes, I think so,"

"So, that's your goal to be here,"

"No….the Seele chose me as the 5th children. I don't know why. So, as the 5th children, I think it will be my job to beat the angels too,"

"Who are you exactly, Kaworu?"

"Still don't know who I am? I'm Nagisa Kaworu, ask your father, he will tell you the details. Wanna see my identity card too?"

"No, it's fine,"

"Good,"

Silence……

"Shinji…." I called him.

"What?"

"Can I ask you something?"

"Sure,"

"What kind of relationship that…..that….um…that you have….with…with Rei?"

"Friends, I think,"

"Friends? Well, during the facts, it's doubtful,"

"Kaworu, what's wrong with you?"

"I just…wanna know. For some important reasons,"

"You liked her, right?"

I was silent…My heart was speared by his words, by the facts he had known.

"Nope,"

"Really? Kaworu, Rei is untouchable. I hardly talk to her,"

"Shinji, there's something about her that may be you haven't discovered,"

"What's that?"

"She is different with you. I'm also different with you,"

Silence….I thought Shinji had already knew about that

"It seems so,"

"But, about the untouchable Rei, I think she is very kind,"

"Yes, she is,"

"By the way, Shinji, I have another business. Sorry for disturbing you. Good bye, see you in the next synchronization test," I waved at him.

"Yeah, good luck," he waved at me too, and we took separate ways.

I have something important to do.

I was standing in front of the door signed "Commander Ikari Gendou". So, this was his office. Grand enough, for the Seele betrayer. I pressed the switches on the interphone there.

"Who's that?" a woman voice

"Yo, it's me, Nagisa,"

"Tell us your complete name,"

Oh my God, how talkative are you….

"Nagisa Kaworu, 5th children, the one who will pilot unit 2 soon enough," I spoke mockingly at her.

Silence……

"What kind of important business you have here?"

"A kind of he wants to know,"

"What's that?"

"It's personal,"

"Tell us or you won't come in,"

FUCK YOU, bitch!

"Okay, okay, granny. It's about 1st children, it's about Adam, it's about the next angels attack, it's about Dead Sea Scrolls!"

Silence…….HA! You were surprised right! HA!

"Okay, come in,"

The sound of cracked lock was heard.

Then, I opened the door, and saw another door again. Ah…what an annoying doors. I opened the second one, and I saw a huge and dark room. I saw the desk, about 10 meters in front of me.

Gendou was sitting there, and Ritsuko, was standing over him. They both looked at me coldly. I walked over them, and stopped in front of the desk.

"So, you could tell me what you wanna talk about with us now," Ritsuko muttered. I still didn't say anything. They waited for a while. "Okay, tell us Nagisa," Gendou started to talk. It revived my courage

"I want the 1st children," I said with trembling voice.

They looked at me strangely, like I was a weird person.

"What do you mean with that sentence?" Gendou asked me.

"Before continuing the statement, I would like to ask some privacy,"

"Which means?"

"Get this woman out of here,"

"What?" this time Ritsuko yelled.

"I feel annoyed with her appearance, and I think I can't continue this important chat if she's still here,"

Silence…..

"So….what do you think, Ritsuko?" Gendou spluttered at her.

I think she understood.

She nodded and snapped, "I'll be in my lab". Then, she walked through the door, left us. When she had vanished, I came back to Gendou.

"I want Rei,"

"You're kidding,"

"Listen to me, Gendou. Don't sacrifice her to complete the fucking destiny that Dead Sea Scrolls talked about,"

"She is a part of the destiny. And so are you, so am I,"

"Let me save her,"

"We have to complete the destiny. Don't fight the destiny, Kaworu. You'll be lost,"

"No, if you let me change a little point of the fate, just one little point, and you even don't have the next plan to beat the angels,"

"I won't give her to you, Kaworu,"

"I'll place her in the right place,"

"Her place is here, on the earth,"

"Don't sacrifice her just to follow your bible's instruction,"

"I won't, you know it well Kaworu,"

"You don't believe me now, but you'll be sorry in the future,"

"She won't be sacrificed. She is the Eva pilot, she is too important to be killed,"

"You don't know what you're talking about now. Let me save her,"

"Kaworu, she is safe here. You just do your job,"

"Many people will be killed by your plans, Gendou,"

"May be,"

"Don't place her as the substitution of Yui"

"They are different,"

"Yes, they are. But you make them similar. You destroyed her slowly by doing that,"

"I cannot say anything about that,"

"She loves you Gendou, but I wonder, do you love her too?"

Silence…..

"There are so many things you haven't understood, Kaworu,"

"I know…Me and Rei are Adam's children. You know that, right?"

"Yes, I know it,"

"Can you just let me save her…I..I love her so much…I don't wanna her die,"

"There are 'many' Reis…you know...Since we have developed Adam's cell. Which one you want to save?"

I could feel the pain in my heart. He developed Adam's cell into many Reis…with same body…he made her just like unworthy, that her life could be replaced by the others if she died.

"This one. This one who lived in this time. Rei II,"

"I don't think you can do that?"

"But if I can?"

"No Kaworu. I won't let you. I can't take that risk. She is still NERV's,"

I was pretty angry.

"Whatever you say,"

Silence….

"Then, if you don't have any important business any longer here, you may get off from this room,"

Then, I walked, left him beside, through the door, and after I got out from his room, I got an idea.

Maybe I couldn't make Gendou do that.

But may be I could make Rei unable to be sacrificed.

Then, after those ideas, I came to her apartment as fast as possible.

I knocked her door hard. Then, may be because she was disturbed by that voice, she came out.

"Yo, Rei,"

"Kaworu? What are you doing here?"

I smiled at her, felt happy seeing her beauty

"I wanna talk to you,"

"Wanna come in?" she said slowly and opened the door huger.

"Yes," I responded her with my warm smile.

She let me in, and we sat in the living room.

"I'll make you some tea,"

Then she walked to the kitchen, cooked some water and took a bottle from the desk. I saw she added the tea from the bottle to the hot water, and prepared two cups. I saw, her pretty hands reached the tea filter.

I came over here, and helped her to pour the tea to the cups through the filter. Then, she smiled a little and gave me one of the cups.

"What is it?"

I drank the tea a little, and looked at her eyes deeply.

She came over me with her monotonous way.

"Let me save you," I whispered at her ear.

"What?" she murmured.

Sarcastically, I reached her body, and hold her tightly

She was surprised and shocked. Her eyes went bigger.

"What are you doing, Kaworu?"

"Let me save you. You won't be happy in NERV. Don't give shit of that guy,"

"What?"

"You have to know that Gendou just places you as the substitution of Yui,"

She trembled.

"I already knew about that,"

"I love you Rei, let me save your life,"

"You won't be able, Kaworu,"

"You'll die if you are still in NERV,"

"That's the way I want,"

Silence……

"We just have to do our role in this world. Besides that, we don't have to know more. We don't have to discover more, we don't have to do more," she mused.

"I hope we can do that,"

Then I burst my lips on hers.

For a while, I thought she wouldn't return it

But she returned it, responded well.

Her lips were so warm, so soft, so perfect.

I thought I wouldn't let her go forever.

Finally, after we broke, I smirked at her.

"Am I the first one who stole your first kiss?"

She smiled

"No…that guy is Gendou,"

I smirked again.

"I exceedingly felt jealous of him," I suppressed.

This time, I wasn't angry.

Gendou stole her first kiss, so what?

I still smiled at her, and she smiled at me too.

I wished this happiness could be forever

I wished….But I wondered…