All over again
Rated: pg 13-R mature
Type of fanfic: diary/play form/
Please comment if you like it or if
You don't please be brutally honest with me.
"14 December 2006 9:45 pm
Once again another amazing day at work with Luka. I can never get enough of being in his grasp it makes
Me feel so needed and less vulnerable when I am near or with him. I wish everything with Steve would
Just end I wish my past would leave me. Today was one of those days where u just wish you didn't have
A kid or responsibilities so that you could just spend forever in some ones arms . Being with Luka reminds me
Of how much I miss being in a relationship well a serious relationship. This is going to sound weird but I miss
Sex. I mean really miss sex. I thought I would never ever say that again after being with Steve and having Alex
But I truly miss being able to come home and have a guy to cuddle up in the arms of and not even have to have
That awkward moment of asking if we could he would just know. Luka isn't that way though I would have to
Bring it out in the open. Sure I've slept in bed with him but I need something to secure our relationship. I think
Me having Alex scares him.
Sincerely Sam "
She writes just before the phone rings and she sighs and closes the small black and white book that she has had since she was around 13 it has almost all her best secrets in it she which she wont even dare to look back on. She never could tell anyone about how she felt in her life. The last time she did she got stuck with a kid. She picks up the black phone laying there in her black nightgown. "Hello" she says quietly to him missing him so much.
"Hey hun" as Luka is looking up at the ceiling with his cell phone to his ear in the doctors lounge at county. "What are you
doing lets say around 11" looks over at the clock as it hits 10:50 pm
"Nothing why?" sitting in bed twirling her hair around her finger with her golden curls over her shoulder.
"Do you think I could stop by or maybe spend the night?" sitting in the lounge as Abby walks in
"Who are you talking to" lips looking at him
"Sam" lips back
"I don't see why u couldn't come over" smiling thinking about him and how happy that makes her
"Okay then I will be over in about umm.. 5 minutes?" smiling getting up to put on his dark coat and to head over to her place.
Abby rolls her eyes and goes over to grab a cup of coffee
"Okay that sounds great umm.. Luka.." bites lip like should I ask….
"Yes sweety?"
" Well uhhhh never mind it is stupid" sighs and thinks why cant I just ask him a simple question not realizing it but just sorta blurts out " I think we should have sex"
Abby spins all the way around hearing that because of how loud his cell phone is
Quickly Luka's pale white complection turns to a rosey sign of embarrassment "umm… can we talk about this back at your place hun im sorta in here with other people and I just don't think it is something they want to listen to us talk about" trys to laugh trying to make it less awkward " But I will bring something over for you ok" walks out the door of the lounge and goes for the doors of county " See Ya Jerry" walks out
"Okay, I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable. Forget I even asked" softy outta sorts not sure why she just said what she said.
"No its fine, Sam don't worry about it. And if that was a question my answer was and still is yes.." smiles as he rings the door bell to her apartment still on the phone with her.
"Hold on some1 is at the door" gets up to get the door in her black slutty nightgown
"I know there is" laughs and hangs up.
Sam opens the door and flings her arms around the tall dark and handsome man holding onto him so tightly she wasn't having to great of a night before he showed up but now it made her night spectacular. Her black night gown flowing in the air as she practically pounces on Luka just wanting to be in his embrace.
"Well hello to u too" laughs with that deep sophisticated voice he always has. Quickly holds the petite,warm body close as if wanting to never let go. As Luka takes a few steps in the apartment and shuts the door he notices that it wasn't its natural spotless apartment that he was used to walking into on these late nights. Stoking her hair and holding her he gently moves some of the magazines and books off the couch and sitts down with her in his arms knowing something isn't right.