Torn
Double the trouble
I told Tala about my dream…well actually, I'm about to, and I've been putting it off all week. I'll decide I'm going to, then Rei will come home. I'm glad they get along. I'm a bit jealous though…I don't know why. But Rei has just gone out and I'm sat down with Tala.
"You're still afraid aren't you?" I looked at him. "Rei said you had a night terror, he said you said some words in it. You're still afraid, of when your Grand father comes out right?"
"You're not going to tell Rei are you, is that why he asked you?"
"No, he asked me to talk to you, but not to tell him, he said you didn't want him to know, so he'd stay out of it, it was your life, not his." I looked at my boots. I like how they're always shiny, nicely polished and stuff…
"Am I a bother to him?" I asked. I felt Tala's gaze on me. "I don't know why, I just don't want him to think I'm a bother but put up with me anyway…" I looked at Tala. He was smiling at me.
"Don't worry, he likes having you as company." Why do I feel jealous all of a sudden? Why does Tala know so much anyway?
"Why does he tell you all this stuff, but not me!" I asked, angrier than expected. He chuckled.
"Cause I ask." I blinked at him. "You know, start a conversation."
"We have conversations."
"SENSIBLE conversations?" I looked down. "I thought so, you don't ask these things Kai, he doesn't ask you either, it's like you communicate though me or something. You want to know if you're bothering him, so you ask me, and he wants to know if he's bothering you, so he asks me. Ask him yourself Kai, you'll feel better. Any way, you two need to have a more…adult conversation, about the way you feel."
"Man, why don't you just be a physiatrist." Tala laughed.
"I'll take that as a compliment."
"Do, please, but how do I ask him? Do I walk up to him and say, 'hey Rei! Am I a bother?'"
"Yes." I sighed. He wasn't helping. It then clicked.
"He told you about my night terror? How could he! I don't want the world to know! Shish, he could have asked me!" I said.
"He's worried about you Kai! Can't you see that?" I looked at him.
"No."
"Man, you ARE slow! He asked me to make sure you were ok, he thinks you trust me more than him, so he wanted me to make sure you're ok, not to tell him the reason, just so you were ok!" Yoshiko came running in barking. "He bought you a…thing for peat's sake, can't you accept the fact he wants to be your friend!"
"But we are friends…" I said. "Sure I don't trust him as much as I could…but…"
"Well trust him a little more each day ok? Become better friends with him, he cares about you too you know…"
"What do you mean, you TOO?" Tala sighed.
"I know you care about him more than you let out…just, be nicer and trust him more, ok?"
"Fine…"
"So, show me around the garden and forest! I can't wait to see it!" Tala said jumping up. I shrugged.
"Sure, oh, and by the way, I DO trust him a lot, I'm more myself around him than I was with you." I walked out to get the lead for Yoshiko. Sure, I trusted Rei more than Tala, but I knew Tala for longer, and so I would rather tell Tala this stuff, he knew me better.
Z
I walked into the house, laughing a bit as Tala ran passed me into the kitchen where Rei was.
"REI! KAI'S MAKING THE DOG ATTACK ME!" I walked into the kitchen to see another moving box on the table. A scared looking Tala behind Rei and Rei looking at me desperately.
"I bought you another." He said. I ran to the box and opened it. There was a little puppy, same as Yoshiko, but she had a better pattern, Yoshiko was black and white, and she was brown and white.
"Aw! It's so cute!" I said picking it up, Yoshiko barked a bit from lack of attention. "You name this one Rei!" I said, putting her next to Yoshiko.
"Yokorin or…Mei-lin." Rei said. "What do you think is better?" Kai smiled slightly.
"Mei-lin is Chinese, isn't it?" Rei nodded. "What does it mean?"
"Beautiful bells. It was…my mothers name…"
"Mei-lin, it sounds really nice…she can be called that!" I said smiling, Rei seemed happy with this, he smiled straight away.
"Cool." Rei crouched down next to me. Tala was staying away, but was still smiling. He'd never really seen this side of me, I never really knew I could be like this, so open around someone. "Mei-lin and Yoshiko. I like them both."
"Do you have any pictures of your mum?" he nodded.
"Want to see them?" I nodded. He ran upstairs and I looked at Tala.
"What you grinning for? You look stupid!" he shrugged.
"I just think it's cute."
"What's cute?" he had that smirk on his face again. The one where he was about to tell you something you didn't want to know.
"You and Rei." I frowned.
"What's that suppose to mean?" he shrugged again. Rei came back down with the pictures he had.
"Got them!" He said. I smiled at him, picked up the puppies and we went into the living room.
"You guys go ahead, I have to phone someone, take the…puppies out for a walk while you're at it."
Z
I sat on the hillside looking at the town, Rei sat beside me and the puppies ran around playing. I remembered what Tala had said earlier and glanced at Rei. He looked at me and I immediately looked straight a head. Why was I so nervous?
"Umm…am I…a bother to you Rei?" I looked right at him, everything seemed to disappear when I looked at Rei…
"No, why would you think that?
"Well, you had everything sorted when you came out here, I sort of…tagged along…" He shook his head.
"No! I wouldn't have been able to stand it in such a big house! I'm glad you came along! I like your company." He blushed suddenly. "Don't get me wrong, any ones company would be nice, not that I'd rather have someone else for company instead of you! I-"
"Ok, I get it!" I said laughing a bit. He smiled.
"Am I a bother to you, you've always liked being alone and stuff…"
"I like your company as well! So no, you're not a bother, I'm more relaxed around you any way…and, Tala talked to me…I know him longer than you, that's all, that's why I didn't tell you about the night terror…" I looked down.
"It's ok, I understand…it's weird being here today, it's normally Sunday when we're here." I nodded and looked out to the town and beyond. "Maybe we could go to the sea one day…"
"Yea, that'd be nice…" The rest of our stay there was a comfortable silence. Neither of us wanted to go back when Tala came looking for us. Even though it had been an hour or so…
Kitty-cat: I just HAD to put that last scene in! XD I couldn't leave it out! I have another fic to update now, and I'm not aloud as much time on the computer…-.-; stupid homework…
Caoi! .