Torn

I think I might…

I just realized something… Telling someone you love him or her is NOT easy…especially if it's Rei…

I know he said he was gay but…he's my teammate, I'm his captain AND he's my best friend. It's kinda hard, weird, stupid, and embarrassing. He's on the phone to someone…I hope someone I know so I can beat him or her up later…but swiftly moving of that subject…

"Hey Kai," Rei said, he finished him phone call while I was thinking. "Do you still…umm…want to go to…Russia?" I looked at him. He was looking down slightly nervous.

"R-really?"

"I know you said you wanted to go at one point, but I wasn't sure if you still do, I mean, I have tickets and all-"

"You would really do that?" Rei looked at me.

"Do…what?"

"Let me go to Russia?" Rei nodded.

"Of course! I mean, you seemed sad Tala went without you, I booked us tickets," He blushed. "But I don't need to come, I could look after the dogs and-"

"Rei! You HAVE to come! I insist it! You booked us both tickets, so we both go…but if you don't want to come…" Rei shook his head.

"I'd love to come! I mean, I got recommended not to but…"

"Rei, who did you get to book the tickets?" He looked around.

"Umm…"

"Rei." He mumbled something I couldn't hear. "What? You're mumbling again."

"Bryan." I was shocked. Since when were they friends. "I was looking for someone to ask, and Bryan was in my phone book, I don't know how but…"

"I must have added him at some point."

"Or Tala. He was using my phone at one point." I nodded.

"Maybe…well, when will we be going?" Rei sat down opposite me.

"Next week, he said umm…the person you wanted, would be there next week." I nodded.

"Thanks a lot, I'm very grateful."

"But…I didn't really do anything…"

"If it was someone else, like Tala, they would probably make sure I didn't go, so I wouldn't do anything stupid." Rei looked worried.

"You ain't going to do anything stupid now are you?" I laughed a little.

"You're picking up on that northern accent. No, I'll try not to anyway…" Rei's cheeks puffed up.

"You WON'T there ain't no TRY about it, and there ain't nothing wrong with my accent."

"Ain't there?" He looked away and closed his eyes.

"No, there ain't," (1) I laughed again, he started laughing to. I suddenly became nervous, now was when I was to suppose to say how I felt… "Is they're something bothering you?"

"Umm…I…I have…something to…" The phone started ringing. Remind me to kill the phone later…Rei obviously looked pissed as well.

"Hello?" He asked in a dead tone. "Hi…I have a favor to ask…can you look after the house while I'm away…We're going on a holiday…please Johnny! I'm begging you…we have two dogs, plants, stuff like that…ok, thanks…ok…bye!" He put the phone down.

"What did he want?" I asked, he sat back down.

"He was wondering if Oliver could stay here for a while, but we ain't going to be here so that's that," I smiled. "Oh! Did you want something to eat or drink?" I thought for a moment, I WAS hungry…

"Yes please, do you know any Russian food?" He nodded.

"Just one, Tala taught me it…he said it was your favorite." My eyes lit up. "I can't pronounce the name though, so I'll just start it." I nodded. He left the room. I sat back and sighed. Why was it so hard? I never realized it could be so…annoying!

I sat in silence for a while, trying to figure out my feelings…I didn't want it to ruin our friendship or anything…but…I really wanted it to be more…

"OWW!" I looked at the door; I ran and went to Rei. His hand was bleeding and his elbow was burnt.

"You ok?" He nodded. I got the bandages out the first aid cubed, I picked him up and put his elbow under the cold water and started bandaging his hand. "Moron! What where you doing?" Rei smiled slightly.

"I cut my hand and then brushed my elbow against the pan…" I looked into the pot. "I just need to put the stuff on the board in, then it's just about done…" I put the rest in, ignoring Rei's protests. "I can do it! I'm fine!" he winced as he moved his elbow.

"You were saying…" He looked down slightly angry. "Now what?" He looked at me, then at the floor again, blushing slightly.

"Then leave it for five minutes so the vegetables can soften," He said. I smiled slightly. "Stop looking at me like that…I feel like a child!"

"You ARE a child!" He puffed his cheeks. "Innocent like a child anyway." He blushed slightly; I looked away, feeling my own face heat up. "I…umm…" Now! Say it! SAY IT! "Think the food it ready?" He looked slightly disappointed.

"Umm…yea, I'll dish it out."

"No, don't worry-" Our hands touched the plates at the same time, mine on top of his. I didn't want to pull my hand away…but I thought it was best, we both pulled away after a matter of seconds, lighting the room up.

"Sorry!" we both said. I tried to open my mouth to tell him, but no words came out…I tried again…nothing…

"Umm…" Rei started fidgeting. I looked away. "I…ugh…" I looked at Rei out the corner of my eye, now it was his turn to try. "I…I think…I might…umm…"He looked at me out the corner of his eye, we quickly looked away.

"I…I…Rei, I…" He looked at me again, looking away so I wouldn't catch him.

"This is…very awkward…" He said, brushing a bang out of his face.

"Yea." I scratch the back of my head. "Very…" Awkward didn't BEGIN to describe it! It was a horrid silence. That's when I smelt something. "Is something…burning?" We looked at the stove.

"The dinner!" Rei shouted. We rushed to save it, and it tasted fine! Anything Rei makes tastes nice burnt or not…but this was by FAR the best. "Do you…like it?" I nodded.

"It's lovely! Not that all your cooking isn't, but this is beautiful! I've never tasted anything better!" He laughed a bit.

"This is you favorite dish though, of course you would think that!"

"No one makes it this well though!" He blushed.

"T-thanks." I could tell he was going to try saying it again. I didn't know why I was so nervous. I think I was just waiting for him to say it. (A/N: is it so annoying when that happens!) I had never been in this situation before…I have barely ever said this to anyone…I hope I can tell him…the phone started ringing again. "I'll get that."

"I'll clear up."

Zzz

Ain't is like a common thing us northerners use, it can get pretty annoying sometimes -.-;

Kitty-cat: I've been in a similar situation before, it's like soooooo annoying, you both know what you want to say, but…you can't…oh well, I'm being shoved of the com now! ;

Caoi! .