Chapter Fifty-Three: "That Lonely Feeling"

What is going on with you all?

Anger started it!

Oh ya, blame Anger for all this, it's Love's fault.

How is it Love's fault?

How is it my fault?

You're the one that fell in love with Beast Boy!

That stupid grass stain.

I want all of you to shut up! Thank you. Now what is going on?

Starfire was in her room, just relaxing. Raven had taught her how to meditate. Although she did it differently; instead of being in complete silence, she was playing a CD that was filled with ocean sounds. She liked the sound it made, even if it was just right outside her window. She also had candles lit around her room. There weren't many, but she didn't need a whole lot because they're jasmine scented.

"Azarath Metrion Zinthos, Azarath Metrion Zinthos . . . " Starfire chanted.

Beast Boy, Cyborg and Robin were playing a video game.

"I don't get it. Why did Starfire do that?" Robin questioned.

Cyborg sighed, "Man, give it a rest. She's a girl. It doesn't matter if she's from a different planet or not. They all have mood swings and they all go crazy at one point in time. Just drop it."

A week later Starfire and Raven have hardly been seen, and when they were spotted they barely spoke a word.

Robin was getting edgy. He didn't like this current situation and he had to fix it, regardless of what Raven told him. He walked both eagerly and slowly to Starfire's room. He'd talk to Raven later.

He stood in front of her door. Eyeing it with great concentration.

"You know, she's not going to know your there if you don't knock." Beast Boy smiled nervously.

Robin, who snapped back to reality, turned his head to face the green teen. He sighed, looking back at the door, "I know, but I don't know if she's still mad at me or upset or even happy and I'm afraid to find out."

Beast Boy rested a comforting hand on his right shoulder, "Look at it this way, at least she'll know you still care about her, even if she's still fuming, when she cools off at least she'll know you tried. Go on, what's the worst that could happen?" Beast Boy gave a small smile and walked away, leaving the Boy Wonder to his confrontation with Starfire.

She could blow me up with a deadly starbolt, that's what could happen. Robin thought. He sighed heavily and tugged on his collar. He knocked lightly, starting to regret that he did so. She's going to kill me. I know it. I'll just tell her I'm sorry. It's the truth and it may be hard for me to do so, but at least I'll have said it. He knocked again, a little louder.

"Who is there?" A calm voice called out.

Robin's heart jumped. It had been over a week since he heard her voice, her angelic voice. "It's Robin. Can I talk to you?"

The door swished open quickly. Starfire was on the other side of it, looking at Robin.

"Talk about what?" Starfire asked her voice steady and calm.

Robin began stumbling over his words, "I, uh, wanted to, well that is, I wanted to tell you that, well, I'm sorry Starfire."

Starfire looked at him with confusion, "Sorry for what Robin?"

Robin looked at her strangely, "Starfire, you haven't talked to me for over a week because, well what happened at the mall."

Starfire looked at him, she was obviously thinking. When Robin was about to talk again she smiled and bursted out, "OH! The shop of land vehicles. Oh Robin, I am not mad, I was merely upset. It is ok. I forgive you." Her smile went away shortly.

Robin felt something wrong, Starfire's smile wasn't visible and she wasn't one to forgive easily. He knew the consequences of asking her about it, and they weren't good, but he decided it was worth the chance.

"May I come in?" Robin asked politely.

Starfire looked into her room, the lights were off, the drapes were shut and the scent of jasmine flooded her room. She looked back at Robin, "Very well." She stepped back and aloud him to pass through the door.

"Well, um, this is a different side of you I have yet to see." He nervously stated.

Starfire walked over to her bed and sat down in the middle of it, and began floating, apparently meditating.

Robin sat down on the floor, looking at her. It's been so long since I've held her, talked to her, listen to her, kiss her. He sighed. "Starfire, is everything ok?"

Starfire opened her left eye and then closed it, "Everything is fine Robin. Why do you ask such a question?"

Robin stood up and walked over to the window. "Well, for starters I haven't seen you for a week."

"You said that." Starfire replied.

"I haven't talked to you for a week, I haven't –" he paused, walking back to her bed, standing as close to it as he could. "Star, I haven't held you or kissed you in a week." Then he gestured towards the room and window, "And this isn't like you. The curtains are closed, it's dark as night in here, you have candles lit and you're not smiling. It's like you're taking lessons from Raven." He frowned.

Starfire lowered herself to the bed, looking at Robin with sympathy and longing. "Robin, I am sorry for the lonely emotions that I have left you with."

Robin sat on the edge of the bed, locking eyes with the tamaranian girl.

Starfire lowered her head, "But Raven told me to meditate so that I do not, what is the term she used, explode again."

Robin chuckled, "Starfire, just because Raven says you need to meditate, doesn't mean you have to hide from everyone. Starfire I need you to see you." He moved closer to Starfire, "Star, I haven't kissed you for a week. You're so close to me and yet you're so far away. I love you Starfire, and I need you physically and mentally." He blushed slightly, standing up and heading towards the door.

Tears began to fall from Starfire's eyes. She too missed him as well. She looked up at Robin, who was now getting ready to open the door. "Robin?" She called out.

Robin turned around; Starfire looked up at him, tears filling her eyes. "I miss you too. Please don't leave me."

Robin quickly turned around and ran back to Starfire. He held her in his arms. Starfire wrapped her arms around his neck and began crying.

"Robin I am sorry. Please don't leave me." Starfire repeated over and over again.

Robin was getting worried at this, he pulled away from Starfire, but only enough to look into her eyes, "Starfire I am never going to leave you. I will be by your side till the day I die, and even then I'll wait for you." He calmly and lovingly stated. "I love you Starfire. I always have and I always will."

Starfire kissed Robin fiercly. Robin, who was both surprised and glad, kissed back with just as much fierceness as Starfire. After they had parted lips they laid down and just held each other, enjoying the comfort of being in each other's arms.

At the other end of the tower were Raven's room and a highly irritated Beast Boy.

"Raven, come on! Let me in. Please!" He begged.

Raven simply told him to go away. Beast Boy frowned and kicked the door before leaving. He stomped away.

Why'd you do that Raven?

Do what?

Tell Beast Boy to leave. I haven't talked to him in over a week!

I don't care.

You should.

Well I don't.

What is with you lately?

Nothing.

Then why are you so cold and bitter?

Well let's see, you and the other half-wits are going crazy with you different feelings. I can't handle them all. So the only way to solve this problem is to not feeling anything at all.

So you're going to cut off all of us, your emotions, until we agree to cool down?

That's the plan.

Well how's that working for you?

Be quiet.

I'm serious Raven. This plan isn't going to work. If you don't take control, we will. One at a time we will end up destroying you, and I'm not threatening you Raven, its fact. Deal with your emotions like a human, don't ignore us.