Title: Breaking Symphonies
Author: Sparklehunter
WARNINGS: YAOI, SEX, TORTURE, NON-CON, ANGST
Summary: Iruka isn't dead, but it may have been the better option. Then again, all dark clouds come edged in silver. . . .
Part: Feel, 2/6 (?)
Author's Note: Number ten, part two in a series of snapshots about the aftermath of an almost-death. Sequel to Worth Something/Easy.
Author's Note II: Please Review! They taste better than dinner, and I'm too poor to eat! And stop in tomorrow or the next day for part three of Breaking Symphonies.
Author's Note III: Don't kill me. Sorry this took so long; real life came up and monopolized my time.
READ THE WARNINGS! This part is not pretty – this is not soft angst, this is nasty stuff. If you don't want to deal with the shit Iruka's going through, I will provide a summary at the end, so you do not have to read this. This is not pretty, I repeat.
Breaking Symphonies
Feel
by sparklehunter
"You can't feel it at all."
Saburo's holding a knife, an ungainly unbalanced serrated knife that looks more useful in cooking than fighting. Iruka's stretched nude across a table, hands arced above his head and chained to the wall, his legs dangling over the edge of the table. The raised metal edge of the table digs into his upper back, but his buttocks and thighs are dead to the pressure. His lips are bitten, swollen, bruised from Saburo and Iruka's own teeth, his chest tingles and sparks with pain and pleasure, and the not-Kakashi's face is beautiful and sadistic before him.
The worst part of it, Iruka thinks, is the humiliation of his legs being unchained, spread wide, and being unable to do anything about the hands and metal touching him.
Iruka can't feel what Saburo's doing, seated between Iruka's legs with the barbaric knife, but he can see the edge of the blade on the tip of his sex, then against his inner thighs, sliding all over his flesh. It's humiliating. Iruka hates Saburo, hates him a little more every time the demon-eyed man visits him. The blood and scars are nothing compared to the humiliation, and the humiliation feeds the hatred.
Iruka had resigned himself to death, but now he wants revenge.
"You can't feel anything," Saburo says, brushing the back of his cold hand against Iruka's penis. "And it's odd. You can't feel when I cut your legs, slice at your thighs, but you respond so readily to the lightest of touches on cock." He laughs lightly, squeezes his fingers; Iruka glares at him and hates. "The brush of the blade . . . the touch of my hand . . . my lips wrapped around you . . . you respond so easily.
"And you can't feel it at all.
"You say nothing when I touch you like this. You could end it all with a single word – your name – but you say nothing. It makes me wonder if you like it."
Saburo begins to pump his hand. Iruka knows he's hard. The knife moves to his chest and teases at his nipples, and Iruka bites his lip until it bleeds. Saburo smiles like Kakashi, with his eyes, not his mouth, and licks a trail of blood from Iruka's abdomen, and Iruka doesn't feel himself come.
Iruka hates him.
"Do you like this, Konoha? Or are you just too simple-minded to save yourself? Can't you even speak? I know you can. Shiro and Goro checked your flat in the village yesterday, spoke with the neighbors, found out all about the poor ex-shinobi who was exiled from his village and wanted revenge.
"The brilliance of the plan, based on your own weakness. But you didn't plan to get captured like this, did you, Konoha?"
Saburo moves up Iruka's body, and it hurts, pressing Iruka's abused back and thighs into the table and forcing him to bite through his lip or risk crying out. Iruka swallows the blood. Those mismatched eyes flutter against Iruka's cheek and Saburo rests against him, his black and fishnet body draping is a twisted parody over Iruka. Pressed so close, Iruka's able to bite Saburo's ear, ripping into the lobe and tearing at the flesh.
He knows it's nothing, but Saburo shudders against him, and pulls back. There's no real anger in his eyes, and that makes Iruka hate him more. Saburo pushes the knife into Iruka's knee in repayment, and says:
"And you can't feel that at all." It hurts all the same, knowing he's powerless, and how in the dim light Saburo looks like Kakashi when he focuses on Iruka's face.
TBC
Summary: Saburo sexually, mentally,and physically tortures Iruka, screwing with his mind because he looks like Kakashi, though he does not know that. Iruka still has not spoken, and hates Saburo more every time he 'meets' with the man. Iruka bites Saburo when Saburo moves too close, Saburo stabs him in the knee, but doesn't get angry, reducing the effectivness of Iruka's action. Title from: "And you can't feel that at all." Repeated themes: hate, humiliation, lack of feeling in Iruka's legs, power, sex.
Review Responses: General Blanket THANK YOU!
BTW, I'm looking for information on Ibiki – how he talks, his past, his stats, anything else vaguely important. Anyone with info gets a virtual paralyzed!Iruka-plushie, complete withwheelchair. . . though I don't know how much of a prize it is!
Turtle Demon: If you couldn't tell, Iruka's my favorite, as well, which is why I torture him (literally, in this case (twitch)) so much. I only hope Sabu-chan doesn't break him. Unfortunatly, I gave up on trying to figure out Naruto and fan subs and scans and trans, and left it all alone. I have heard about how Iruka was finally going to fight – how did it turn out?
Polka Dot: There may be flashbacks at some point, or possibly a side-fic, as to how Iruka pulled it off. Believe me, it took me a while to figure out how Iruka pulled the switch off. . . But, don't worry, we will see Iruka in action within a few parts or so – he's getting quite sick of Sabu-chan and company. Your review for Easy made me laugh – is this a bit more difficult for Iruka?
DK-Joy: Naruto's grown up a bit too much, as you can see. He kinda left so quietly because he does love Iruka so much, and it would have been insulting to refuse such a precious gift. And, in the long run, get them no where. Naruto gained foresight the hard way, you see – there's a reason little hints are being dropped about Sasuke, but they come into play later. . . . You read Canteloupe? Cool! Actually, as the story has nothing to do with itself, at all, I thought the title (or lack of one) made sense – but that's probably just twisted logic. Rather like this series. I liked Kurama's new name, as well, or at least how I could laugh about it. About taking so long to review – I took something like a week to update, so you're forgiven! Iruka can be hardheaded, can't he. Then again, he did put up with Naruto for a decade or more, and Kakashi for the past few years. . . .
Vanyelashke89: Poor Kakashi, indeed. Though, at this point, he may just have the better end of the deal. I laughed for ten minutes after I read your reaction to my three torture brothers – they are freakish, aren't they. Sabu-chan's kinda yummy, though. If a bit of a sadist.
Nezuko: Thank you! It's a little bit funny, Naruto really does have no regrets about leaving Iruka – he never has a nightmare, and he never feels he made the wrong choice. He wishes there had been another alternative, but Naruto knows he did what he should have. And maybe I'm wrong about the no regrets bit – the fact that he knows he did right, that he's not completely and totally torn up over it is what haunts him. He's rather like Tsunade, that way. As for continuing – well, Iruka's not dead (yet). It had to be continued. Saburo, my not-Kakashi, is disturbing, especially because of how he interrogates Iruka. If Kakashi ever finds Iruka, he's going to have to get past all the negative reinforcement Sabu-chan's put on their face. As for Ibiki – he will become very, very important. Erm, if you have any information on him (I'm currently collecting . . .) I'd be grateful.
Leu-chan: Hi! Thanks for reviewing, and don't cry! It gets worse! Er . . . heh, heh, heh. Poor Iruka?
Tea: It hurts to write, as well. I sit there and think, 'dammit, can't life leave them alone?' Then I write a new Saburo part, and wonder if I'll get killed for letting anyone other than Kakashi touch Iruka.
Mini-Keo: OOH! Chocolate! Hey, who told my weakness? Yes, Iruka and Kakashi have some issues. Passion, as well, but many, many issues.
Chibi-Akuma-no-Kage: Thanks for not killing me. I hope this part satisfies, especially after the wait.
Karaii-chan: Iruka is amazing. The fact that he hasn't given everything up, after all the crap I've put him through, is really something. No matter what he thinks, it's just like Kakashi says, he still is a Shinobi. Thanks for reviewing, and come again!