Disclaimer: I do not own Teen Titans
No One Will Ever Know
By: Killacam6108
Rating: M
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I do not own Teen TitansChapter 1: Suicide
Rain was pounding the glass windows of Titan's Tower. Inside it was completely quiet. Not even the small green shape shifter Beastboy and his beast friend Cyborg were fussing in the living room. Everyone was in their room, thinking about the dreadful events that had occurred that day.
It had all started with Raven, the silent member of the team. Everything about her was a mystery, the rest of the Titans had simply hoped, and even trusted that she as pure good as they were and had Jump City's best interests at heart. All of that changed today, and that belief was shaken.
It began as another routine day. The Titans were out in the streets, taking care of a bank robber when he unexpectedly pulled out a gun, and fired at the leader of the team, Robin. The bullet whizzed by Robin, only grazing his cheek slightly, yet the simple action triggered some unpleasant effects in Raven.
Enraged, she used the darkest magic she knew of to rip the man apart, literally. There was blood everywhere from what she had done to him. In her angry rage she completely destroyed his body as he screamed for mercy, and being a Teen Titan, she was supposed to grant that mercy. Yet she didn't, and a man who didn't deserve to die was killed because of it.
Until this day the other Titans didn't even think Raven was capable of killing someone. Everywhere she went she had a great respect for life, even the smallest of ants. They were so sure she would never do something like that. Yet it had been done, and there was no turning back time and no forgetting, the sight was burned into their minds.
Even more was at stake then their friendship because of this accident. The media would be all over the story, making the Titans look like ruthless killers. There could be a psychological evaluation of all of them, and then a court might decide if several kids with such great power should be able to live by themselves with no adult to keep an eye on things.
The day was just one big headache, especially for Raven. In her room she sat with small tears running down her face. Not for the man she had killed, it didn't bother her that much that he had died. And not for her own immoral behavior, because she knew she was not the one who killed that man.
The silent tears were trickling down her face because this had been a sign, from her demonic father. Yes, it had to be. She remembered clearly desperately trying not to kill the man, yet he was dead at the moment and it was her body that caused it to happen.
Trigon was signaling the end was to be near. He had done this with many other worlds, and now he was doing it to Earth. He would rape a woman of the planet he had in his sights, then plant his spawn on the planet and use it as a portal into that world, where he would ravage and destroy it until nothing was left.
Why he did this was simple. He had suffered for billions of years in the hellhole he was in, and he was enraged only him and his close companions were suffering so greatly. So he wished that suffering to affect everyone, and now it seemed his wish was coming true.
"Why me?" Raven said quietly. "People say I have a great blessing, powers that they would never understand. But this is a curse. I am nothing more then the evil product of rape, and am to be used as a tool and nothing more."
This was getting to be too much. Raven needed her mirror. They she would be thinking most logically, and able to get all sides of hat she thought. Just because Trigon was preventing her from expressing emotions, didn't mean she didn't have them.
She looked into the mirror, with large sad eyes. She felt her body flow through the gateway into her mind. When she looked around she was not in Titans Tower. She was not in Jump City; and she was not even in the same realm. She was in a different place, inside her own mind.
As she looked around she saw the familiar feudal Japan type setting. A full moon was out in adark blacksky, with small stars twinkling all around it. She was in a large grassy area, sitting quietly as a gently wind blew past her.
Any other time she would have tried to enjoy the scenery for a few moments, even though it wasn't real. She would have created a tree and sat under it, perhaps reading a book. But this was not like any other time.
She closed her eyes and summoned them. All of them were scattered randomly, and far away. But it would not take them long to gather. In the distance, a figure in a grey cape and hood that looked like Raven's approached. Another one came in red. Then green, blue, yellow, orange, pink, until she was surrounded by different versions of herself.
"We know," Happy said smiling brightly at Raven. "But don't get all gloomy, try to live a little!"
"Shut up!" Anger shouted at happy. "Can you be serious for once, even I don't want this to happen."
"Well then what would be the best way to approach the situation?" Logic asked.
"Who cares?" Lazy said in a half assed voice as she rolled over and fell asleep.
"You should," Raven said. "Because if this happens you're all going to die with me."
"That's a real fun killer," Happy said.
"You should tell your friends at least," Logic said.
"They'd just think you are a monster if you did tell them," Timid said shrinking back.
"They already think I'm a monster," Raven said. "And whose fault is that?"
"Blaming everything on us isn't going to solve anything," Logic said. "It wasn't our fault, you rely on us too much. You wouldn't even need us if you learned some self discipline."
"It was a bad idea coming to talk to you," Raven said turning around to go back.
"Wait," Timid said in a small voice.
"What?" Raven asked turning around.
"Well, there is a way out of all this, a way to stop Trigon and let your friends live."
"What would that be?" Raven asked expecting a very stupid response.
"Suicide!" Happy shouted guessing what the answer would be. Timid nodded slightly.
"Think about it Raven," Timid said. "It's not like there's anything for you in this world, especially now that your friends hate you."
"If I go out all of you will too," Raven said, not really giving her opinion on the subject yet.
"We'd meet again in the next life," Logic pointed out. "As long as your mind exists then so do we."
"Please think about it," Timid said. "It could be the answer."
"Sounds great!" Happy shrieked. "Give the wrists a little slice and dice and it's all over! Maybe you could even shoot yourself! Or if you got a rope-" Anger cut her off by punching her right in the face, sending her sailing into a tree.
"I cannot take her voice anymore," Anger said rubbing her temples.
"You've got a lot to think about," Logic said. "Consider your options carefully, because this will affect a lot of things as you know."
"I will," Raven said as she turned around and left. Back in her room Raven heard a gentle knock on the door. She simply ignored it. The knock came again, slightly louder. "What?" Raven asked.
"Um Raven," Robin began. "Could you meet the rest of us in the living room?"
"What for?" Raven asked, even though she already knew the answer.
"Well…I think we should have a group meeting."
"About what?" Raven asked.
"Damn it Raven!" Robin shouted in frustration. "You know what it's about can you please just come into the living room!"
"No," Raven said coldly. Don't worry about it, I'm already packing my things. It won't ever happen again.
"We don't want you to leave," Robin said as he began to calm down. "We want to know why you did it."
"And if I refuse to answer?" Raven asked.
"Why would you?" Robin counter questioned. "We're your friends we just want to know what happened back there."
"Some things you're better off not knowing. Just try to enjoy yourself the next couple of months without me."
"We're not letting you leave," Robin said. "We both know it would be a big mistake." Raven finally went over to her door and answered it.
"I'm sorry, but you don't have a choice Robin. You can't make me stay here. I'll come to your meeting if it means that much to you, but when it's over then I'm gone."
"Fine," Robin said hoping he would be able to convince her to stay during the discussion. As she walked into the living room she saw a several sad eyed Titans. Perhaps the one most affected by this was Starfire, the Tamaranian princess who hated any kind of violence.
"Why Raven?" Starfire asked. "Why did you kill that man? He was a bad man, but surely he did not deserve to be ripped apart.
"I'm sorry," Raven said weakly. "Can we discuss this tomorrow?" she asked as she quickly floated back into her room and barricaded the door with he black energy. She knew there would be no tomorrow for her. There would never be another day on Earth for her.
She walked over to her desk and took out a piece of paper and an envelope. On the paper she wrote:
Dear Robin, Cyborg, Beastboy, and Starfire,
If you're reading this, then I am no more. I can't really say if you think this is a good thing or a bad thing, but I know it is a good thing. As for the events that happened he day that man was killed, I'm truly sorry for that. I wasn't the one who killed him, but I won't explain what I mean by that so I don't expect you to believe it either. Just know that there is nothing in this world I regret more then that, other then being born. I leave my best wishes and blessings with all of you.
Robin, you were the best leader I ever had. You always knew what to do and what to say at the exact right time, and if you knew what I was planning to do as I wrote this maybe you would even be able to stop me. That's exactly why you cannot find out no matter what. Keep leading the team as well as you have the entire time I've known you.
Beastboy, I'm sorry I never let myself laugh at your jokes. They were pretty funny, and if you knew why I couldn't laugh, then you wouldn't want me to. You've been a great friend to me, and even when I've tried to shut you out you were persistent and kept trying to make me laugh. I'll miss you very much, but maybe we can meet again someday. The team will need you to make them laugh once they discover this letter. Don't let them down, like I did.
Cyborg, you were like an older brother to me. You have always been there as an ear willing to listen no matter how long I talked. I'm sorry you can't listen to why I must do what I'm about to do. Maybe in the next life I'll be able to tell you. Thank you for everything, and good-bye.
Starfire, I know you will be sad because of this, but don't be. It's for the best. Keep learning about Earth, and never be discouraged no matter who says you can't do something. I know you're set up to have a wonderful life.
Remember to always be true to yourselves and never fall into a pattern of gloom like I did. Have a happy life.
Sincerely,
Raven Roth
Raven then folded the letter into thirds, and but it on the envelope. She then wrote 'To the Teen Titans' on the envelope, and teleported down to the kitchen. She put the envelope on the table, and walked behind the counter where there were two small knives used to cut meat. She picked them up, closed her eyes, and slashed each wrist.
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