My Clone Sleeps Alone
By: JaneRain
Author's Note: Um…nothing really.
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Usually, it seems to me that I am myself but, sometimes I feel as though I am simply a clone of the person who is Samantha Carter. I walk around and pretend I am her. I impersonate her and everyone believes me. But I lack contact with some of her more human facets. I cannot be reckless. Responsibility is imperative in my line of work. I cannot cry even at times when Sam would break down. I must stay strong even when facing loss. I cannot take a break from being a soldier because I am a member of an elite force; the Earth's first line of defense and, even when the Earth is not in danger, I must be working because I must be dedicated. I must be perfect even if nobody else is. I cannot mess up. I must follow orders even when I do not agree with them. Sometimes Sam tries to come out and argue points but, eventually she will back down because majors don't argue with their superiors. Everything shall be done on time. I will not goof off. I must find the answers because our future may depend on it. But most of all, I cannot love like Sam would. I can't just follow my feelings. Certain feelings are not allowed of an officer in the United States Air Force. So, even if Sam Carter would be with someone, Major Carter can't be. Major Carter will stay strong and find the answers. She will fight. She will follow. She will lead. She will leave herself behind.