The two weeks from hell were finally over and we went back to our town. The summer holidays meant no school, this also meant I would have fewer chances of seeing her before our last year at school. Ebony hadn't changed and an awkward feeling started to grow inside of me. She didn't talk to anyone and walked away when anyone tried.

"What the hell is her problem? She burnt her parent's grave and she loved it. So what's wrong now?" Tyson asked waiting for the pizzas we ordered. "It's gotta run deeper than that. But she won't open up to me at all now." Hilary said looking sad, she was becoming so worried and depressed for her cousin it was hard to watch. Tyson's relationship with Hilary was growing and they were happy together. I missed the time I spent with Ebony, but she seemed to drift further away each time I tried to get close.

EBONY

What's wrong with me? Have I gone nuts or something? No, no that was on the burning night. So what's wrong with me now? I saw Kai and it finally hit me. I felt bad for making him sneeze as I got away, but I just couldn't face the pain of losing someone like that in my life again. No matter how much I liked Kai, I just couldn't do it again.

Then one day, it pissed down and I was soaked. But I didn't really care, I liked summer showers. They made me feel refreshed and new. But not this time. I was on top of a tall building letting the rain-wash over me, hoping for some form of relief. But it never came.

How long I sat there in the pelting rain was as good a guess as any. I took my hat off letting it run through my hair and down my back in rivers. But the pain wouldn't go away. I wasn't even in to Kai that much to feel pain was I? I know I didn't let myself got too close…so then why? I had another thought that hit me again. It was my guilt over my uncle that tore me apart from the inside out. But when I was with Kai the pain would disappear. I didn't love Kai, he was my security blanket. But Kai doesn't love me…does he?

I finally came back down to earth and walked around with my hat on my head. I looked over at the beach to see Kai training himself in the pelting rain.

He was angry and pain filled his eyes. My heart sank at the site of such sorrow. How could I tell him I didn't love him? But something in the back of my mind said otherwise. I came up from behind him and put my hands on his shoulders. "Kai." He jumped and looked at me. He grabbed his blade and glared at me. "What?" I looked at him and came closer.

My head was looking up at his, I could feel his breath on my forehead. I could feel his heart racing as did my mind. "I'm ready to let you in now." Kai kissed me, and this time I let him pass my lips. I had never done this before so I let him take the lead. We weren't trying to swallow each other's tongues like Tyson and Hilary, but it was enough. It just felt so right and we only broke away to breathe.

KAI

I was satisfied and only wanted to know one thing. "Are you certain now?" She looked startled and afraid. Ebony broke away and took a couple of steps back. "You said you were ready to let me in!"

"I am Kai!" She yelled falling to her knees. It looked like she had fought a battle inside herself and didn't know which side had won. But I wanted her so badly it hurt. "Do you love me?" I yelled and her fear grew. "Do you?" She yelled back. "What? Of course I do! Why the fuck would I ask if I didn't?" Ebony turned away and shook her head trying to decide. Then she faced me and yelled. "I DON'T KNOW!" I saw her run but this time I didn't let her get away.

Ebony ran in to an alley and I thought I had her cornered. But I ran in to it to see she was gone. "EBONY!" I cried but got no response. This relationship was mentally draining, had I not loved her then I would've dumped her.

I lay on my bed staring at the ceiling in the dark. Voltaire was trying to set up an engagement party between Irene and me. I was having none of it, when would he get it through his head that I didn't want Irene. I wouldn't be with her if she were the last woman on earth. I was being torn apart from the inside out. I didn't understand, I thought it would be obvious for our feelings towards each other. Now I knew why I didn't get close to people. So much pain is felt if love is involved, I thought it a stupid emotion to have. But it felt so right when I was near her. I hated being without Ebony for a day let alone a week.

My heart was over ruling my judgement as I went to Hilary's. "Ebony!" I called outside looking at her window. After I called for a while Hilary came down. "Where is she?" I asked and Hilary shook her head. "We don't know."

"How long has she been missing?"

"Three days, we called the police but I doubt she's coming back for a while. She left you this, I hope it helps answer your questions." She handed me an envelope and closed the door. I held it in my hands like a fragile treasure. I opened it when I got back in to my car.

'I'm sorry Kai; I just have to be on my own for while to figure this out. Don't come looking for me.

Ebony.'

I held the letter to my heart with the air stinging my eyes. I felt angry and confused. 'How could she do this?' I felt my insides boil with anger. I told her my feelings and she runs away. I called Hilary everyday on her mobile, but still Ebony was nowhere to be found.

I listened to news almost continuously in case they found a body, a girl's body. The police were searching everywhere, but still no luck. After two weeks of waiting and worrying Hilary finally got a phone call from Ebony. "She says she'll be back tomorrow and is sorry about leaving for a while without telling you." I was still angry, but relieved she was coming back…to me. I was going to ask so many questions when I see her tomorrow, but I thought better of it. I only wanted one to be answered. 'But will she answer it?'

Sorry about the previous chapters for anyone who has read them. There was a mix up on my floppy disk so I put them in wrong. Stupid fucking things! Well anyway thanks for the reviews.