Disclaimer: I don't own the titans and the song belongs to The Smiths and is entitled "Hand in Glove"
Farther: thanks for the review, I enjoy an insightful Beast Boy as well. He can't always be dumb right?
WickedWitch: Thanks for putting this on your alert list, speaking of which where's the last chapter of your story?
Lecheecopae: Here's another one, hope you like it.
No, it's not like any other love
This one is different - because it's us
Hand in glove
We can go wherever we please
And everything depends upon
How near you stand to me
And if the people stare
Then the people stare
Oh, I really don't know and I really don't care
I woke up that morning around ten. I wish sometimes that I could just like be up instead of having to wake up cuz then I wouldn't have to be all 'Ugh.' I could just be up and like be able to…to… whatever it is that people do when they're up in the morning and they're not 'Ugh.' Wait, there's something different about today. Something I am supposed to be doing. Oh man, its one of our days! I'm running to the bathroom as soon as my feet hit the floor, but I can't run too fast because I'm still… there's gotta be an animal that does well in the mornings, but I don't know it.
See I'm supposed to be meeting Raven this morning for our weekly walk or as I like to call it "Our Walk and Talk!" She doesn't like calling it that though. I think it's because she doesn't like to yell, which is totally cool with me because it fits her. I like things that fit her; actually, I just like her period.
So the whole walking with Raven started a month ago cuz we had an argument, which I hate doing with anybody, but especially her. We had this fight with HIVE and afterwards she just told me that we had to spend some time together alone. At the time I didn't really know how that was going to help. We were always together even if it was with the other Titans, but now I'm starting to see her point in the two of us just spending some time together without everybody else. We talk more now and we fight less. I'm not totally sure how it's helping us, but I think it has something to do with us just hanging out and knowing what hurts and what helps us or something like that.
I'm out the shower, dressed and down the hall within ten minutes cuz Raven hates lateness. Lateness never really bothered me a whole lot till I started dating Raven. I don't like getting Raven mad at me so I don't like being late, it's kinda weird how dating somebody can change your outlook like that. Anyways she's waiting for me at the elevator in jeans, a dark blue t-shirt, and a pair of sandals. It was crazy the first time I saw her in anything but her uniform, but now I'm getting used to it.
"Real subtle," she says after seeing how I'm dressed. I'm wearing jeans, my chuck tailors, and a t-shirt with a tofu cube drawn on the front. I can't help but be noticed; I'm green after all, its part of my nature. I smile at her, which makes Cyborg start making kissy lips and then Raven picks him up and throws him into another room with her telekinesis. It's pretty cool to see and I know he's not hurt or nothing because I hear him laughing in the other room. She motions for me to get on the elevator and I make the same motion at her so we both just get on at the same time.
One of my favorite parts is when the elevator door closes and there's this minute where nothing happens and then the next she's hugging me and I'm hugging her back. There's a security camera in the elevator, but she doesn't seem to care and I don't want to ask her about it cuz then she might not hug me. She doesn't like PDA (1) so we made a deal. She only eats meat once a week and I don't hug her without her hugging me first. The deal doesn't really work very well because her favorite meal is chicken pizza and she eats it a lot, plus I really like hugging her and can't wait for her to make the first move all the time cuz then I'd only get hugged once a week.
Just before the elevator stops she pulls away and I let go even though I'm not really ready too. We have to take the ferry to the city because Rae doesn't want us to use powers. She just wants to be normal. She's really big on normal when we're together because she said that she doesn't want us… she thinks we sometimes get sucked into our roles as Titans and we forget who we are sometimes. I can see her point, but at the same time I love my powers. I don't mind that a part of me is green and can turn into different animals. I see her side too, though. We get in this superhero mentality and kinda forget about the every day stuff around us, so…I dunno I just trust her judgment
The ferry is never on time, no matter how many complaints she leaves in the suggestion box at the dock. We just wait for a little bit and I try to make sure I'm awake because I know some things are going to be said and I really want to hear all of them. She's looking out at the water, tapping her left foot. She's not impatient, she's anxious and I kinda like this side of her. I look at her again and decide that I like the way she looks in jeans too and I can't really tell her that though cuz she might throw me in the ocean. Do girls even want to be told they look good in jeans? Even if they did I'm not sure she would, so I'll just think it. 'Raven you look good in jeans. Could you just wear jeans and a t-shirt instead of…?' "Here it comes," she says, breaking my thought conversation, which is kind of sad because I thought I was getting somewhere with it.
The ferry isn't too bad today because there's not a lot of people around. Raven gets nervous when there's a lot of people around. They like to ask us for autographs and they want to talk to us and I just want to talk to Raven, but I don't want to be a jerk to people so it gets tricky sometimes. Oh and there's these guys and girls that just want to be with us and that's even weirder cuz we don't even know them. Like there was this one guy that actually proposed to Raven once and I would have thought it was funny, but the guy was totally serious and Raven was freaking out. That was the only day we broke the rule and actually used our powers to make it the rest of the way to the city. So like I was saying nobody was really on the boat and the ride was nice, but I couldn't get that Raven's jeans conversation in my mind started again.
I think if I don't get that conversation in my mind going again then I'm probably going to say something out loud. Raven says I need to think before I talk, which is kinda funny because there wasn't a whole lot of thought put into asking her out. I just kinda did it. She's right though, I guess. One of the things I really want to talk to her about is holding hands. This isn't a major issue I guess, but I just want to know when I can hold her hand.
Some guys would just do it. They'd walk up to a girl and just take her hand, but I don't want to take her hand. I want our hands to come together and that's all. Green on lavender and let that be it. I know she's not big on PDA (1), but it can't hurt to hold hands, can it? So I'm just gonna ask her when I'm ready.
Sigh, we've been walking for a couple hours and I still haven't said it and I need to say it cuz if I don't think I my brain's going to explode. Truth? There's this really weird tension between us and I don't know how to break it. Like normally I'd try a joke, but she doesn't find my jokes that funny and it gets even quieter then. So like the only thing I can think of is to just grab her hand. 'I'm not going to take it, Rae, I swear I'm not. If you want it back just ask,' and I can't do it. I stop, which makes her stop and she's looking at me. I try and my voice squeaks, so I try again before she can laugh. "Um Rae…," I forgot to add the 'ven,' better hurry, "ven can I hold your hand. I mean, can we hold hands?" It's the dumbest question I think I've ever asked or at least I feel the dumbest I ever have.
She kinda blushes a little bit and is real quiet. Like she's saying words, but I can't really hear what she's saying, which means she's being really quiet because I have super hearing. What can I say? The pointy ears aren't just for show.
"Uh Raven I can't really hear what you're say-"
"OK." She looked nervous, like the night when we first hugged and I don't really know what to tell her. I walk towards her real slow in case she decides to change her mind. I'm not totally dumb. I realize this is a really big thing for her because it requires her to trust somebody, to trust me more than she likes to admit. I hold out my hand to her cuz I swore I wouldn't take her's, she has to give it to me. She gives me this look and I think she's glad I gave her a choice, but it doesn't really matter because she takes my hand in hers. It's cool, really cool, not her hand, but the feeling of holding her hand and it makes me wonder what it would be like to kiss her. I'm not really brave enough to ask yet, but I am brave enough to tell her she looks good in jeans. I'll tell her later though, for now I just want to enjoy this.
1- PDA stands for public display of affection for those of you who didn't know that.