Miss: Alright, I re-edited this one to because I found a lot of mistakes. Hope you like it, and as I said, any errors? PM me please! Oh, and Disclaimer: I don't own ToS or the characters.

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It was my job, to escort the Chosen to the Tower of Salvation, and I did so. But it was there that I had to betray them, my companions. I needed to kill them… but I couldn't bring myself to do it. They survived the Tower of Salvation and continued with their new goal, to rejoin the worlds.

I watched over them, from a distance. I knew what would happen if they succeeded… they'd destroy the worlds rather then save them. I helped them as much as I could… But every time I saw her, I could see the pain and hatred in her aqua eyes, no matter how hard she tried to act strong.

In the end they did it, the defeated Cruxis and put Mithos to rest. When this happened I wasn't quite sure what I'd do. My heart was truly killing me; it was a pain I hadn't felt in years. Every time I saw her, a knife cut through my flesh but I wasn't sure why.

I left for Derris-Kharlan, and spent three years there, just thinking everything over and sorting my emotions.

I wasn't quite sure what time of year it was when I returned, but it was very warm. I traveled for a few hours, just flying around until I saw her silver hair, no longer shining in the sunlight. Instead it was dull, and seemingly grey.

I flew downwards, towards the maiden. I could see her tattered, bloodstained sleeves and guilt was causing my heart to ache. Landing behind her, I stayed silent as she took a breath. She was going too… jump…?

"Raine?"

It was her… She spun around to face me, hiding her arms behind her back. She looked at me for a moment before her eyes fell. Her hair fell as her head dropped, covering her eyes as my own hair does to me.

I ran my hand through my hair, holding in a sigh as I looked her up and down. I could not see her arms passed her elbows, but the rest of her looked awful.

Her long sleeved white shirt had rips, all through the arms and a few along the bottom, red stains around the rips. Her beige pants were also dotted with red. Everything seemed to hang off of her, not fitting her properly. This thought made me worry, had she stopped eating?

I slowly stepped towards her, watching her carefully to be sure she did not jump into the dark blue lake. If she did, I'd go after her…

I reached out my hand, holding her arm gently, trying to pull it from behind her. Her eyes opened quickly, looking into mine for a long moment before she pulled her arm away, taking a step back.

Her head turned, looking at the lake which she stood mere centimeters from. I couldn't let her do this to herself… She wanted to jump…

I put my hands on her waist, easily lifting her and putting myself between her and her death. I set her back down gently, looking her sternly in the eye before I pushed her back.

"What do you think you're doing?"

I could see her shaking as she stumbled back then fell onto the grass. My heart skipped a beat, caused by shock, as I saw her arms, holding her up. They were red and scarred. Some of the cuts looked fresh, maybe a day old, and others seemed older, a few years perhaps.

The seemed to start further up her arm, and moved down towards her wrists, each one fresher then the last. I felt sick to my stomach as I neared her and crouched beside her, looking at her arms.

I grabbed her wrist delicately, feeling her jerk as I lifted it carefully… to get a better look at what she had done.

This… I couldn't believe that she, someone I had always thought was strong, would do this to herself…

"Raine… Why…?"

I wasn't sure what to say to her, my words failing me. I had to do something about this, but I didn't know what…

I gently traced one of the scars with my finger, feeling her cold, pale skin. I frowned slightly, my eyes finding her dull, dieing aqua ones as I let her arm fall back to the ground.

"Why aren't you speaking?"

It unnerved me, the fact that she had not yet spoken a word to me. As she closed her sad eyes I stood, stepping back a few paces. I turned my side to her, crossing my arms.

I faced away from her, not wanting her to see the few tears that had welled up in my eyes. I let her think for moment, also allowing myself time to force away my uncried tears.

"I thought you were stronger then this Raine… I thought you would be able to wait a few years before I came back…"

I forced my voice to stay strong, and not quaver or shake. I blinked, trying to get rid of my tears. It was my fault she was like this… I hard the raspy intake of breath from her, my enhanced hearing catching the smallest of sounds.

"I… I'm sorry…"

My hair swayed as I turned my head to look at her. What was she sorry for? She had nothing to be sorry for. I should have been the one apologizing for causing her the pain she felt… the pain she could only end with pain itself.

I watched her, urging her to continue talking. I had to force my face to stay straight, to keep myself from frowning as I watched her. As she sat, huddled to herself, glistening tears streamed calmly down her cheeks, leaving a red trail down her pale skin.

"I'm… a-a failure… I'm a w-wreck. I-"

"I agree that you are a wreck, but not quite a failure Miss Sage."

I couldn't let her say that about herself, letting her mind continue to believe the lies. She was not a failure, but she was a wreck. I wouldn't lie to her… not again.

Quickly I thought, wanting, needing to find a way to help her, to have her live again.

"Do you realize what you've missed these past years? Everything you could've done? Raine… tell me. What have you truly accomplished by doing this to yourself?"

Her figure seemed small and frail as I looked down at her, my hand outstretched to her. She looked at it for a while, and took hold of it. I pulled her to her feet, but I held onto her hand, even though I could feel her let go of mine. She looked me in the face again, her once shining hair hiding her beautiful eyes.

"I-"

I pressed a finger from my free hand against her soft lips, silencing her. If I wanted to get through to her, I had to do it, without allowing her do put herself further down.

Her legs were shaking, causing her to be slightly unsteady as I held her cold hand.

"Have you thought of the others? Of how they must be feeling? How they are reacting to your reactions?"

I continued to look into her eyes, hoping my words were getting across, breaking through the impenetrable shield she had put up.

"B-"

Once again I put my finger against her lips.

"Or did you do this for yourself? To make yourself feel better? Not caring if it killed you, if it killed those who love you?"

The words seemed to have struck her hard, her eyes glistened the bright aqua I had come to love. A good feeling ran through me when she held my hand in return, holding it tightly.

I pulled her forward to me, and wrapped my arms around her. I could feel her breathing, her body trembling against my own, her tears falling upon my chest. I held her slightly tighter, wanting to make it better, wanting to make her better.

"It'll be okay, Raine…"

She stood there in my arms, as I held her tightly; wanting to take back all the pain I had caused her. Silently I lifted one of my hands, running my fingers through her hair. I kept my breathing even, and my tears back as I kept her close, never wanting to let go… never wanting her to feel pain again.

Still her warm tears fell onto me, and her breath was blowing tenderly against me.

"Sh… I'm back Raine, and I won't ever leave you again… I promise."

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