Story Two: Thoughts, Part Two

This time it's switched. It's Lucy's thoughts on Mr. Tumnus.

Lucy's POV.

Dear Mr. Tumnus…He had been my first friend in Narnia and my dearest friend. He will always be my dearest friend. I care greatly about him and I always will. I know I can go to him in any time and know he'll always be there for me. It's a very nice and comforting thought. Of course I can do this with Peter and Edmund and Susan or the Beavers…but it's different with Mr. Tumnus. He has this charm that can make me feel better and reassure me in any situation. It helps me greatly and I'm sure without him, I'd be a least a little lost today, here in Narnia.

Just last year I grew up and became of courting age. Susan is always teasing me about it,

prying me to tell her who I fancy and if I have any ideas of whom I want to marry. It gets

tiring to tell you all the through and every time I tell her the same thing…That I don't

know who I want to marry at this point. It is the truth, after all. Okay…maybe not the

whole truth but it's good enough and I'll keep telling her that until I can tell her otherwise.

I suppose I should explain why it isn't the whole truth, I suppose. I've thought about who I fancy and who I could see myself spending the rest of my life with many times…And I always seem to "get stuck" on one particular person who I have very confusing feelings for. This person is none other than Mr. Tumnus. I'm not sure why I always seem to get stuck on him…I seem to cross people of the list because of various reasons but with dear old Mr. Tumnus…I can't find any reasons to cross him off the list. I guess I could say…he's perfect.

But saying he's perfect just confuses me even more. We've been such good friends for so many years and I've never thought of him in this sense but whenever I find myself thinking about him in this sense…I feel weak and my cheeks turn red. I can never explain it. He just…is perfect, really. But then I guess nothing's perfect but I'd rather not think about what's not perfect about him…because he charms me so.

I'm of age to get married and I've noticed Tumnus…and I get this odd feeling that he's noticed me as well. It's a very faint feeling, but a feeling nonetheless. If I were to finally confess to him of what I've been feeling, despite how confused I am about them, how would I go about doing it? I can't just go up to him and say all this. He'd probably be taken aback and things would be awkward and full of tension between us. I don't want to risk anything.

I could just keep the feelings to myself for now…and maybe forever. No, forever is not an option. I need to at least tell someone…eventually. I don't know when or how but I will…eventually. Maybe it will in fact be Susan. She's prying me, I can get it to stop, and she's my older sister…I'm sure she can help…once I tell her. But for now, I will keep my feelings to myself and just…go on, being his friend and waiting for something, anything, to happen. I just hope it will be sooner rather than later. Everyone keeps telling me that I can't keep turning down all these offers of taking my hand in marriage…but I just can't see myself with any of them but I can see myself with Mr. Tumnus.

It seems so complicated to me when I suppose it shouldn't be but I just can't help but be afraid. If I do tell him and things go terribly wrong and I lose him forever…I-I don't know what I would do. He's part of my support; he's part of the ground that keeps me up. He's one very important person that keeps me going. Losing him would just…I don't even want to think about it. So I won't.

Lets think of the positive…If I do tell him, things might go extremely well. And I could be happier than I've ever been and I've been very happy here in Narnia, so it going good would mean the world. But…again, I don't want to risk it going wrong. My gosh, why do my thoughts keep turning so negative? It's not helping any. I should just stop.

Tumnus hasn't gotten much older, fauns only age one year after every five years, after all, and besides, despite how much he is older than me, doesn't change who he is. I adore him for him…For being my first friend in Narnia and my most beloved friend here. I guess…I'll just wait and see what happens as time progresses more and eventually tell someone, possibly Susan, and see how things go.

If I take a risk, it'll be something I have to do. That's what we have to do in life; take risks and this is a risk that will be worth it if it all goes well.

Thoughts- Fin

AN: So…up next will be short stories and one-shots! These were purposely short just being thoughts and all and just getting a feel into everything. Off to work on more fics and works and such!