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Chapter 2: wipe my tears away
"Posh, don't cry…" Freddy said comfortingly. "I'm not" I replied quickly, wiping my tears away. "Only babies cry. Hey fred?" "hmm?" he mused, stroking my hair softly.
"I'm going to find my dad. I miss him and I won't rest until I know why he left. Dad's don't just get up and leave when they are in the middle of a family with no reason. Its 2 weeks until school ends. I'm leaving the day after school gets out." I said defiantly.
"Kates, that's crazy, you know it! What about the band? Summer? She'll KILL you! I mean, you don't even know where the hell he is now…" he pleaded with me.
I sighed. "Spaz, Summer has a program on her computer where you can look up people and find their address and everything. Normally we use it for pranks, but last time we had a sleepover, I got all the info I need."
I felt terrible because Freddy looked so depressed. Sadly, I gave him a hug and whispered "I'll be back, I promise. I just need to find dad." He turned around and looked me in the eye. "But what about me?"
My breath caught in my throat. "What about you?" I asked. "You will still have a great summer. You can go to the movies with Zack and have band practice and go out with all the bimbo blonde cheerleaders that you always love. You don't need me."
I stood up to go but he grabbed my hand and said "Posh! That's not nice. I do need you. You're my best friend."
"Whatever" I said, rolling my eyes, tears burning in the back of them. "That's all lies. I haven't been important to you since Brittany."
"Brit? What does she have to do with this?" "Hmmm… you tell me. She's your snobby, perfect girlfriend who hates my guts and gets you to ignore me whenever I have something to tell you. Whatever Freddy. I gotta get home now."
So I ran out of the house, all the way into my room, slammed the door shut, and burst into tears. I turned on my radio only to hear the words…
"I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me"