"I'm Not That Girl"
Set after the episode "Resurrection" after Z and Sky take a walk in the park and get attacked. Z-perspective.
Hands touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl
It was like a dream, I couldn't belive it, I was getting Blueboy to loosen up. Sure he was kinda dorky looking in that argyle sweater but anything is better than the uniform. To see him smile in the bright sun of the morning was so much better than his scowl underneath the draining lights of the headquarters. Too bad it was all cut short by that stupid monster.
Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl
We're back at the base and he's hardened once again. No Commander, yes Commander, I'll do anything you say Commander even though I'm still mad that I'm not the red ranger. He can be so predictable sometimes, yet I still feel drawn to him. I want to bring out the unexpected, to crack that hard exterior. It doesn't hurt that he's so hot. God, he doesn't even know the effect he has on all the women at the base.
Ev'ry so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in
We all move back to the recreation room and I watch as Sky and Bridge start up a video game, our troubles with Gruumm forgotten for now. I grab a book and sit at the counter, glancing at him now and then, wondering what he was thinking. I frowned when I see Sydney sit next to him.
Blithe smile, lithe limb
She who's winsome, she wins him
Gold hair with a gentle curl
That's the girl he chose
And Heaven knows
I'm not that girl
They laugh and they poke at each other, not knowing the gut twisting reaction I'm having to it. I guess it's only natural, they're like the king and queen of SPD, of course they're going to end up together. It's only a matter of time before they realize that they'll be more than friends. But sometimes I wish…
Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and the pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her so
I'm not that girl...
"Hey Z?" I turn my head away from the couple to see Bridge standing in front of me. "Are you alright?"
I nod my head, "Yeah Bridge, I'm okay."
"Well you look a little down, want me to make you some toast?" For some reason his gloved hands were moving nervously behind his back.
"No, it's alright, I just need to get some air." I stand up and take one last look at Sky and Syd who are oblivious to everything else in the room. "I'll see you later Bridge."
I left quickly as I could so that I could run to my room and cry.
Bridge stared after the retreating girl, a sad look in his eyes.
Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
There's aboy I know
She loves him so
I'm not that boy...