summary Sakura can't handle the longing any longer.
theme Weak heart
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akogare
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Sometimes, at night—(when she knew no one else was awake)—Sakura felt like screaming.
There would be this pain in her stomach—cold, raw, relentless pain—churning her insides with such an extreme intensity—it's the longing, dear—eating away her guts until she knew probably nothing would be left by morning—
(What longing?)
"Sakura."
(That longing.)
And she knew she was just hallucinating—that his voice was merely a figment of her already desperate (too desperate) imagination. But sometimes it felt so real—like he was actually there—alive and very much breathing—
(Inner Sakura swears she can feel his breath on her ears; his arms around her waist; his chest pressed upon her back—)
But it was such an impossibility that she knew and had to accept the fact that he'd never, ever be there…
"Sakura." …At night, when no one else was awake, when she felt like screaming.
(Sometimes even, when the throbbing of her heart in her stomach grew stronger, she'd sometimes feel his lips pass across her forehead—)
"Sakura."
(—and the pain would be momentarily replaced by butterflies—almost like that feeling when you're in love?—; but it would only be momentarily, because the pain of having the pounding heart fall down to your guts overwhelms everything else—)
Inner Sakura blamed it on the longing.
(Because even his voice had a smile in it—yes he's smiling—but it was so impossible that sometimes Sakura knew what kind of projections her inner self was putting her through—and of course you're only hallucinating!—)
"Sakura."
And she'd like to think, that when he was calling her name, Uchiha Sasuke's voice never sounded so deeper and so full of meaning.
(And it's kind of funny because she wasn't even dreaming yet—)
"Sakura."
(…Or maybe she subconsciously was?)
The night was dead.
(You come home when you're bruised, bloody and dying?)
And the first thing Uchiha Sasuke said when he entered the gates of Konoha—
(And the witnesses say he was uncharacteristically—what?—half-smiling—)
—was Haruno Sakura's name.
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