(KD author notes)
they say my name is KD.
Lately i've been feeling… depressed.
I was hoping that this resolution would be…
Just a simple question.
Summary: over purpose. Excruciatingly short, squffie implied, one shot drabble.
(depression/story start)
I thought that…
she was strong.
Well, of course, if I really thought about it…
I knew she couldn't be as strong as I wanted,
And nobody can.
But…
I told myself that…
She could be.
And that she was stronger than me.
And that she would be the one to save me and the one to support me.
So…
Why am I seeing her like this?
In the corner, sunlight streaming through blinds landing on one half of her.
Isn't she supposed to be the one trying to comfort her?
The one untouchable and so far away…
Standing the sunlight, smile illuminated…
Instead of me…?
"Yuffie…"
I shake her shoulder…
"Yuffie… wake up"
I grab onto her
"Yuffie…! It's not time for sleeping…!"
she begins to sniff again
"Yuffie…! Come back to me…!"
I'm turning her body.
I need to see her.
I need to see her face.
Her smiling… beautiful face.
Tears…
Why are there tears?
"Yuffie… why are you depressed? Why…! Why can't I see you smile!" I breakdown in front of her face, her own head turned away.
"Leon… shuttup."
…
"Can't… I just be depressed… for the heck of it? What if I can't find my own stupid reason for this sadness…!"
…
Why is this happening?
Wasn't she supposed to be the one standing?
Not me…
Because I can't.
No matter how much I want to…
I… am not able to.
"Is this it then, Leon? For me to support you, and you alone? Is that why God sent me here? To serve? To be a puppet? Am I to be the strongest, bearing the burden of it all, to do what you want me to do despite what I feel!"
I held her.
I embraced her.
I could feel all the weight of her hot face on my shoulder,
Her tears streaming on my jacket.
And…
There was beauty.
"Why… are you carrying me and getting all gushy right now?
"Why… am I next to you Leon?"
"Why am I here?"
"Do I need a reason to be sad?"
…
and all I could say was…
"There's a purpose for everything"