Memory Blanks

Sweat streaming down his face, Jake sprung up in the bed as if something had bitten his back. Slowly and miserably, he trudged into the shower and let the water fall down his body. Getting ready for work was so hard to do that morning. The day after Abby's death. He eventually made it to the El and managed to hide his tears once he got in range of the hospital. He then hurried because he noticed his watch already read 7:31. At the door, he hesitated to enter. He didn't want to see the hospital when he knew Abby would never step foot in there again. All he could think about was her letter. "If you find this in time… you guys know how to treat this. So, I guess, I'm putting you to the test." He tried ignoring every noise around. It could only remind him of Abby. But he couldn't ignore it all; in the back of his head he heard Sam's voice.
"Head on collision on the El… don't know how! 83 vics! 22 DOA. 34 went to Mercy. 27 are here… 19 critical 8 severely injured."
It sounded all too familiar. Was this really happening again? Or was it deja-vous? But it did really happen! He saw her die! He read her letter! Thinking about it, Jake could no longer remember what the page said. 27 gurneys then wooshed by him catching him off guard. He wheeled around and words could not describe his shock.