Déjà-Vous
"Abby?"
Jake rubbed his eyes trying to make the ghost leave… but it didn't.
Then one more sentence was all he needed to believe it.
"They
need you in Trauma 1, Abby! This isn't a—"
He needed not
hear anymore. He spun back around to Abby to get another look, then
ran ecstatically into the lounge where he fell into pieces crying on
the couch. Tears of joy? Sadness? Fear? Confusion?
Hours
later, Sam approached Jake to ask him if he knew where Abby was. A
gleaming smile left his mouth at the sound of her name, so he
couldn't really make sense of what was happening.
"No, sorry."
Was all he could make out.
After what had seemed to be the
longest, strangest day every, Jake was walking out of the lounge on
his way home. But before he could make it to the door, Carter was
behind him yelling.
"How could you do that?"
Jake was
confused, but figured Carter was talking to him, so he turned
around.
"Do what?"
"Did you make her do it? Did you get
scared that you'd get in trouble? Did you decide you weren't
ready? Or did you just decide you don't love her?"
Jake,
still confused as to where this was all coming from, responded "What
are you talking about? Love who? Abby?"
"Yes, Abby!"
"I
really don't know what you're talking about."
"If you love
her, then great, you can have her. But don't go making her have an
abortion. If you love her, then show it."
What is happening?
"Abby's pregnant"
"Not anymore!"
She was
pregnant? "What! You mean she had an abortion?"
Carter
was no longer angry, but, instead, just as confused as Jake.
"You
mean you didn't know about this?"
Um… um… um… um…
"No I didn't know… um I have to go… I'll see you
tomorrow."
Jake ran out the door before he could even finish his
sentence. After vomiting in the ambulance bay, Jake called Abby's
apartment.
"Hi. It's Abby. Leave me a message."
He hung
up and dialed her cell phone. It stopped ringing but the only proof
anyone was there was the occasional inhale followed by a
sob.
"Abby?"
Another sob, but no answer.
"Sweetie…
you had an abortion?"
The crying stopped, along with the
breathing. Then the line went dead.
"Sweetie? Are you there?
Abby?"
The only reply was the monotonous buzz of emptiness. Jake
sat down to think, and remembered earlier that morning with the 27 El
victims. It had happened before. Then he realized he had the same
conversation with Carter yesterday. That was when it struck him.
Today was exactly like yesterday. Or maybe yesterday didn't happen,
but instead he already saw today. If that were true, Abby was going
to die soon.
