Obsessed with You

Okay I have been waiting to write this chapter! IT'S DRAMATIC! I love dramatic chapters and I enjoy writing them for some odd reason. Thank you guys for the reviews! (You guys are the best!)

LadyAkina- OMG YOU REVIEWED AGAIN, THANK YOU! Anyway, well I wouldn't say this isn't her 'real' personality… eh… they're both her 'real' personality. Yes it's Syaoran who found it…kinda obvious eh?

Sparkly Faerie- Wow that's a lot of OMGs. Thanks for reviewing once again!

Anjuliet- Yeeppp, Saku is VERY obsessed… but that all changes in this chapter.

Thereviewergirl- Yah, my other story is dramatic too…I dunno, I just like doing dramatic stories.

Laurie- OH she will get TOO heartbroken…not like you don't already know what happens Laurie…-Evil evil-

-xAxsxHxlxExyx- Yep, I am changing her personality NOW.

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Eternal- Yep! Hanging on a cliff! Now you know how I feel all the time!

Hope- Uh...who's that? Is it some weird anime dude? Well I wanna know!

Wishful Thinker of Worst Intensions- It's not your kind of story? Oh...anyway...thanks for the review!

Lil-Sakura-Angel- Lol you are funny! Touya... I can assure you it's not him. XD

Thank you guys so much! Especially those of you who has reviewed the other chapters! YOU GUYS ROCK! BTW, this whole chapter is written in Sakura's POV.

Last chapter

"Two reasons. Either they think it's Syaoran's and he had lost it; or that they want to suck up to him." Sakura pointed out two of her fingers.

"So who do you think might have found it?" Meilin asked Sakura, trying to help out.

"I don't know," Sakura replied after a long pause, "I just hope nobody does find it."

"You mean this?" a cold, angry voice was heard behind the girls. Sakura froze, then turned around slowly and nervously, hoping it wasn't who she thought it was.

Chapter 3- Heartbroken

'Please don't let it be him, please don't let it be him!' I silently prayed to god. I turned around, and looked up.

Oh god, you failed me!

There Syaoran stood, as handsome and tall as he is. In his hand, was MY pink notebook. Oh shit. Please let this be a dream, please let this be a dream.

"Um…Syaoran…nice to see you…" I stuttered, not making any eye contact.

"What is this? 'MY' TIME SCHEDULE?" Syaoran hollered, raising the hand that held the notebook.

"Oh…that…" I pinned my vision to the ground. I knew he was looking at me. It felt like he tried to pierce his glance right through me. It was like he can see right through me like clear glass.

"Stop yelling at her." Tomoyo said furiously. I didn't look up but I saw Tomoyo's angry face in the corner of my eye.

"Yeah!" Meilin screamed, "You're making her feel bad."

"Tomoyo, Meilin, get out of here," Syaoran directed, "This doesn't concern you two."

"NO WAY WE'RE LEAVING!" Tomoyo screamed courageously.

"YEAH! IF YOU THINK WE'RE GOING TO LEAVE YOU ALONE WITH SAKURA," Meilin shouted, "AND LET YOU MAKE HER FEEL BAD…"

"YOU ARE WRONG!" Meilin and Tomoyo shrieked. I felt tears in my eyes. My friends care about me so much. I'm so lucky to have friends like them.

"It's okay," I whispered, not looking up, "I think it's best if you left."

"But Saku!" Tomoyo said worriedly.

"No," I confirmed them, "I'll be okay."

"SAKUR- "

"LEAVE!" I shouted, loosing my cool. After a few dreadful minutes, I heard footsteps…farther and father away. Then, it was silent.

"Why did you write this?" Syaoran demanded. I was afraid to look up.

"I just…" I stammered like a little Kindergardener would do when they've done something wrong.

"I am so annoyed of all this." Syaoran was irritated. His tone was like if he wanted to kill me.

"I'm sor"

"Fuck off." Those words pierced through the air, also my mind.

"What?" I looked up, only to meet a pair of cold, unfeeling eyes.

"You mean nothing to me. Oh wait, I HATE you."

Then I felt my heart skip a beat; my eyes were pinned to his.

"You embarrassed me like hell. Whenever I see you I wish I was somewhere else."

My heart felt uneasy; my eyes started to water.

"Even if you were the last woman on earth, I still wouldn't date you. Understand?"

My heart felt like rocks had been thrown at it; tears were pushing to get out.

"So you can go and bother some other dumb gayass who doesn't care to be annoyed to death."

My heart throbbed, tears slipped down my cheek uncontrollably.

And then he walked away. Letting go of the notebook…it feel…on the ground…And I felt like I had fallen with it. Only…there was no end to the fall.

It was worse than being beaten. It was worse than not being able to fight back. His words seemed to cut me into a million pieces.

I stood there, for five minutes… ten minutes… twenty… or even longer. Finally, after what seemed like forever, I gradually bent down, and picked up the notebook. And then I ran.

I didn't know where I was going, or worse, I didn't care. I felted wind rush beside me, tears streaming down my face, nonstop. I was tired, but I couldn't stop.

After a long period of time, my muscles were sore and my bones seemed to fall out of place. But still, I couldn't stop. My body didn't let me.

I've never had this feeling before. My body wouldn't listen to my instructions. The only thing I can think of is words Syaoran said. I could hear my own heartbeat in my ears. I hated Syaoran. I hated him!

Suddenly, darkness crept into my vision. Everything was a blur before total darkness approached. I collapsed onto a grass field. The last thing I saw, was grass, as green as my eyes.

When I finally came to my senses, the sun was all the way up high. It was noon. My body was so tired that it didn't feel like my own. My head spun. And my eyes felt puffy.

As I sat up, I looked around. Where am I? What am I doing here? I soon spotted a huge penguin statue. Oh, penguin park.

"Get out, rite now. It's the end of you and me. It's too late, and I can't wait for you to be gone." Huh? That sounds like my cell phone.

My hands quickly flew to by pocket and answered it.

"Hello?" Ugh…my voice is so…blah.

"Sakura? What happened to your voice?" Oh it's Tomoyo. She sound worried.

"I don't know, I don't remem-"

Oh. Now it's all coming back to me. Why does my heart sting so much? I tried my best to swallow back the tears that trying to bust out.

"Hello? Saku? Are you still there?"

"Oh…yeah…" Even though I tried, there was still a hint of sadness in my voice.

"Why didn't you come to school?" I guess Tomoyo was too worried to notice that sadness in my voice.

"Oh… I didn't… feel really good." Ok I lied. But I didn't want to tell her. This is like one of those things you wish you'd forget, or one of those things where you wish had never happened.

"Okay, we'll come by after school."

"Tomo-" She hung up before I even got to say no. I looked at my cell phone, then put it back in my pocket.

I hugged my knees right there in the park. And to think I even thought this would be a good day in the morning. I feel so weak and helpless. I don't even know if I had the energy or courage to walk home.

Once again, tears formed in my eyes. This time, I let them fall. I needed to cry. I just couldn't fight it anymore. I couldn't, and I didn't want to.

I didn't go to school that day. Nor the next. Nor the next.

Today is Sunday. It's a beautiful day with the sun shining outside. I took out my diary as soon as I woke up.

Dear Diary,

I knew this would all happen. But why did I do it before? And now this all end up with me getting hurt. I knew it all along. But I just didn't listen my logical side. I just did what expressed my feelings the most. And look at what happens now. I haven't been out for 3 days. I'm a mess. I've asked myself a question. 'Should I keep on going?' And the answer is no. I don't want to fight anymore. I have no more energy or spirit. I've been torn to pieces and I don't want to get hurt again. I'm afraid of being hurt again. But why did I do that in the beginning. Why did I go for it, when I knew how it's going to end? Why did I go for the love, when I know going to end up with me being hurt?

Bye dear Diary. Syaoran has died in my heart. And you will die with him.

I signed as I closed up the notebook. This is the last time I'll ever write in it. Then I changed, and walked out of the house. The air was breezy and I felt serene. I held my diary, and marched towards the Li mansion.

As soon as I got there, I looked around cautiously to make sure nobody was around to see me. Then I rushed up to the cherry blossom tree I once spied Syaoran on and sat down on one of the branches.

For a few minutes, I sat there. Looking at Syaoran's window for the last time. He's gone out. But I could see the things in his room. A tear, unknowingly, slid down my cheek. I quickly wept it away. Syaoran, that was the last tear that would fall for you. Never again, would that happen.

I looked back down at the diary I held in my hands.

"Goodbye Diary. I will never be up here again. So my memories of him will be here. Nowhere near me."

I left my diary on that branch. Then hopped down, and went home. Feeling as powerful and as cheerful as ever.

That's it readers! How'd you like it? Was it…good? Was it…bad? So did you like Sakura's personality like this more or the dumb one? Well I'd say the dumb one is funnier. But…it's a dramatic story so I had to change it. Oh well… Don't you just hate Syaoran now? My friends Laurie and Heather read it and they were like, "OMG SYAORAN IS A BITCH!" Yah…they called him a bitch… Anyway, please review!

Love,

Dreamz