I'd like to dedicate this chapter to REDEYES (this chapter was sped up for you ) Faithful Vampire and Ninja Wizardssighs not many people liked last chapter, so I'll just have to try harder! Here we go! This chapter was written for the sole purpose of you guys! Haha I was listening to Daniel Bedingfield's If You're Not the One
P.S. Half this chapter will be Kagome's memories!
P.S.S Okay I had to do it! HAHAHAHA man! The Squabbit is crackin' me up! The other half is for you babe!
Kagome brushed through Sesshoumaru's soft silky hair, reveling in the feel of the silky tresses as they occasionally brushed against her hands. Why was he frowning? Being the curious creature that she was, she sighed and stopped brushing his hair lightly tugging at the ends of it until he turned and looked at her, that weird serious look in his eyes drilling holes to her soul.
"What?"
He said it so different, so not like the Sesshoumaru she had come to actually like. He was sounding so… cold. She let a frown mar her normally pretty face.
"What do you mean 'What?' why are you being so… different?"
She watched as Sesshoumaru's eyes lit up with a sort of mocking amusement.
"You are under the impression that this is not how I usually am?"
Feeling that tug of annoyance in the back of her mind she snapped, "Well yeah, I mean why wouldn't I? It's never how you acted around me!"
Sesshoumaru glared at her and turned around again, signaling the conversation was over. But do you think Kagome figured that much? Hell no!
"Oh ho! No you don't buster! You're not going to push me away! What the hell is your problem huh?"
Kagome tried her hardest to keep her frown on her face as Sesshoumaru glared at her with an intensity she never knew existed.
'What the hell?'
She frantically tried to save her fleeing army of courage and steadied herself as she stared into his eyes. They were like molten amber… he was angry. Really angry… with her… Why though? Kagome gulped and looked away, a soft pink tinting her cheeks.
'Why the hell are you blushing?'
She felt Sesshoumaru's hand clasp her chin and softly turn her head towards him. Ha! He thought that was going to work? She didn't HAVE to look at him just because her face was turned in his direction!
"Kagome…" he began softly, "look at me…"
Kagome couldn't help but look at him with the tone he had used; so soft, yet… with the look on his face he was still upset. Not quite angry, but not exactly happy either.
"Sesshoumaru…" Kagome breathed out. He was looking so intensely at her, it was starting to frighten her. It made these… weird feelings fluttering frantically in her stomach. She watched as Sesshoumaru's gaze hardened and he softly said, "Who is he?"
'Huh?'
Kagome's normally smooth brow creased with the frown currently residing on her features. Who was who? Kagome began to voice this out when Sesshoumaru cut her off.
"The man from the past…"
Kagome's face burned crimson as she broke free from his grasp and sat down on the couch patting the seat next to her. Sesshoumaru raised one eyebrow.
'What is it with this family and couches?'
He took the seat next to Kagome and continued staring into her troubled blue orbs.
'She does not like dwelling upon this and yet… she can not help it.'
Kagome sighed and took his greatly larger hand in her own and began idly playing with his fingers as she began her story…
"I really don't like talking about this, and I've never truly expressed my feelings towards this to anybody… so please, just listen…"
It all started on my fifteenth birthday I do believe. And as you know my grandfather is slightly a weird one, and he gave me some sort of mummified monster hand, which I happened to have fed to Buyo… Heh, even HE wouldn't eat it! But I'm getting off topic… besides it being my birthday; it was lie any other day. I got to school and was greeted by my few friends, who gave me their gifts and each hugged me numerous times. They really were such sweet girls… And then there was Hojo… poor boy; he had a little crush on me, but I'm afraid I could never return his feelings. It was simply too weird. Besides, I was focused on my grades I couldn't be bothered by boys! And then I saw him… he was sitting underneath a large oak tree laughing with some of the more popular boys in school. I realized I never saw him before, and being the polite person that I was I decided to introduce myself. I did that with everybody new, maybe that's why I was so terribly picked on. I'll never know for sure… but anyways, I walked over there, gripping my backpack straps for dear life, because the closer I became the more I realized how handsome he was. He was wearing a long sleeved button-down red shirt with a white shirt underneath and a pair of jeans. He probably hadn't gotten his uniform yet…But I walked right up to him and stuck out my hand sand said, "Hello! My name is Kagome Higurashi!" To my utter horror the boy just stared at my hand and then smirked as he said, "Is that supposed to mean something?" I could feel my cheeks heating up, and could only imagine the degree of red they were. The situation only became worse when one of the senior boys, the quarterback I believe, said, "Don't worry about her, that's just Whore Higurashi." The boy laughed along with the others as I just stood there and stared at my new shoes. I felt rather stupid now for going over there in the first place and tried to hold back the tears that were beginning to blur my vision. I looked up into his shocked face as he noticed my tears and weakly said, "Yeah well… I just wanted to say hi but you're busy so I'll just go now…" Then I walked as fast as I could back to my circle of friends who hugged me and patted my back and sent glares to that boy and his group of new friends. I should have known better, but I was drawn to him for some reason… I realize now that I was a fool, a complete utter fool. Well after that, let's just say my day was completely shot. That boy had almost every class with me and seemed to enjoy sitting behind me and flicking things in my hair. Rather childish really, but somehow it still hurt. I could hear him mocking me softly behind my back and the soft snickers of those around him. I can't even count how many times he almost brought me to tears…Probably my worst birthday ever… If that wasn't enough at lunch he had his new friends sit with me, and unfortunately my friends all had different lunches, so I had grown accustomed to eating alone. They mocked me the entire time and I found I couldn't even eat the special lunch my mother had packed for me… If that wasn't enough, when I got up to leave them one of them 'accidentally' tripped me and sent me crashing to the ground. The tears came then, and I became frantic as the entire cafeteria began laughing. I looked up into the new boys face as my tears coursed down my cheeks. I saw something quite surprising; he had the decency to look guilty. The room seemed to close in on me then and I ran out, only to hear someone call my name. 'Just my luck' I had thought, it was that boy. I ignored him and kept running, but he kept following. He soon caught up with me and whirled me to face him. Then I smacked him in the face, and I'll never forget the look on his face. "Why did you do that? All I did was say hi to you! You're a real jackass you know that?" He grabbed his cheek and smiled at me then. I felt my heart skip a beat and my eyes widened. What could he have had to smile about? I just smacked him damnit! He apologized and asked me if he could show me how truly sorry he was. I agreed, hesitantly of course, but agreed none the less. I spent time with him and realized he wasn't so bad, I guessed. Rather I grew fond of him after time, and grew to… to like him. I had never felt happier when he finally asked me out! I thought we were happy, but I was wrong. I caught him with some girl named Kikyou, flirting with her and holding her hand as he tucked a piece of hair behind her ear. Me, being of cowardice nature in such situations, hid behind some object. He hugged her in a manner in which he never hugged me and then softly kissed her cheek. I was numb, I couldn't feel anything... And yet I continued on with him as if I saw nothing. He became more distant after that, and always had a faraway look in his eyes, I knew… he was thinking of her, even when he was with me. So one day, I guess he finally decided he was tired of playing with me, and walked up to me with Kikyou. He told me we were through… but he'd always see me as… as a little sister. He told me Kikyou was just better than me… Heh, he didn't mean for it to be as cruel as it sounded, and Kikyou gave him a surprised look when he said it. Inuyasha's face crumpled after that and he apologized, or tried to. I told him it was all right and I hoped they were happy together. And with as much of the small amount of dignity I had left I walked away, head held high. After that I was back to being Whore Higurashi…
"It might sound stupid but he was- was kind of like a first love you know?" Kagome said, tears blurring her vision upon the memory. It still hurt… so much.
Sesshoumaru just nodded stiffly and looked at the wall. He felt the sting of jealousy itching the back of his throat and said in a monotone voice, "And now… how do you feel?"
Kagome gave him a watery smile and sighed, "After talking to you, much better…" Wrapping him in a gentle hug she whispered, "Thank-you… Sesshoumaru…"
His name came out in a whisper and he found himself inwardly shivering. Leaning back he stared into her blue irises… she was so beautiful then, wrapped up in his arms, smiling for him. He gave her one his rare true smiles and nodded. Sesshoumaru swallowed, suddenly nervous. It was completely out of character for him, but he was no good at these things… He grasped her chin lightly and leaned in closer to her face, looking into her eyes for any sign that she might reject him, he watched as if in slow motion she closed her eyes and leaned in, ever closer to his lips… Oh how badly he wanted to taste them in that moment… the need was so strong it pulled at his soul… He felt her small hands clasp around his neck and she breathed out his name, their lips mere centimeters apart, only a little closer… Sesshoumaru sealed his lips onto Kagome's, it was soft, sweet, gentle… everything Kagome had imagined her fist kiss would be like. His lips were like heaven, even if he himself sometimes was hell. His lips were so warm, soft, massaging. Kagome felt her knees buckling and he grabbed hold of her waist to steady her, never breaking the kiss. Kagome decided, if she were to die, this would definitely be her choice of death. He brought one hand up and cupped the side of her head, tilting it slightly as to give him better access to her soft, quivering lips. He ran his tongue over her bottom lip, urging her to allow him to deepen the kiss. Kagome complied but before anything more serious could happen…
"Eww! God Kagome, can't ya'll do that somewhere else?"
Souta! Damn him to hell! Kagome immediately broke apart from Sesshoumaru and blushed a deep crimson, before paling. Oh god! How embarrassing, her first kiss was interrupted by her brother! She snuck a glance at Sesshoumaru and saw him giving her a reassuring look.
"Damn you Souta! Mind your own business!"
She heard Sesshoumaru chuckle deeply behind her and felt him wrap his arms around her waist. Placing a soft kiss on her ear he whispered, "There's always later…"
And before Kagome could even respond the bastard was gone! Kagome growled, deep in her throat and set her angry gaze towards her brother who was now paling and heading backwards towards the door. Kagome sprung, ready to pounce on him and give him the worst beating he'd ever receive when he went screaming out of the door like a damn banshee!
"MAMA! KAGOME'S TRYING TO KILL ME!"
Landing on the floor where he used to be standing she screamed, "Come back here you little brat so I can teach you to mind your own damn business!"
"Language Kagome…" Her mother said as she walked by the door. Souta was behind her making kissey faces. Kagome mouthed, 'I'll get you…' to him and then stood up and brushed herself off. Her stomach rumbled, causing Kagome to blush again and said, "Ah, Mama? When's dinner?"
Her Mama popped her head in and said, "Oh! It'll be in about 5 minutes, I'm glad you reminded me! You and Sesshoumaru need to get situated huh?"
Kagome nodded her head slowly as her mind replayed the kiss that had just taken place. She sighed dreamily as her Mama just gave her a knowing smile. Never had she seen her daughter so happy, and that Sesshoumaru guy, what a looker he was! She merely shook her head and left Kagome to ponder in her thoughts…
'Does he like me? Well apparently… but how do I feel about him? I mean I know I like him and everything, but… it's too early to be love. So… maybe it was deep infatuation? I don't know, but his kiss was mind numbing, damn Souta, always sticking his nose where it doesn't belong!'
But she was almost thankful. Her emotions right now were confusing enough… Sesshoumaru was just so… perfect. That was the only word that came to mind. Sure he acted indifferent, but Kagome knew better. Hell, someone who kissed like that couldn't be half-bad! Kagome grumbled to herself, feeling now, more than ever the want to have his arms around her. How could he just leave her there after that? Kagome felt her stomach rumbling again and decided there was time for thinking later, food now. So she made her way to the kitchen, stumping her toes on various objects she hadn't remembered being in the way, cursing her damn luck. She opened the door and saw Sesshoumaru playing a game of checkers with her grandfather, smirking when he jumped the old man three times. Kagome smiled and shook her head, well… at least they were getting along better. She began pouring herself a glass of cherry kool-aid and took a nice long refreshing sip, somehow she hadn't realized how thirsty she was until just now.
"Nice move Sesshoumaru…"
"Thank-you…"
Kagome listened with half an ear as she refilled her glass.
'Damn when is Mama going to announce dinner?'
She frowned as she saw her cousins eyeing Sesshoumaru like some piece of meat. A twinge of jealous possessiveness took over her and she gripped her glass tightly and went over and sat next to Sesshoumaru, glancing up at her now scowling cousins.
'Brats… showed you!'
She looked up and saw her grandfather giving them a serious look. Kagome groaned mentally. Whatever was about to come out of his mouth couldn't be good.
"Sesshoumaru… I expect you to keep her virtue in tact…"
Kagome's eyes bugged out and she hid her face, humiliated that he would say such a thing in front of the entire family. She heard the women chuckling amongst themselves and she felt her cousins' wicked grins behind her back. She was about to get up and scream in her pillow about how unfair life was when Sesshoumaru pressed her head against his chest, sheltering her from the laughs and sneers.
"I assure you, I would never dishonor her in such a way…" Sesshoumaru said in a hard voice. Kagome's grandfather nodded his head sharply and said, "Your go…"
Kagome looked up at Sesshoumaru in question and nearly melted when he kissed her brow in affection. She sighed and got up to fix her another glass of kool-aid. Turning around she said, "Would you like a glass?"
Sesshoumaru looked up and shook his head before smirking at her grandfather's foolish move… "King me…"
She nearly laughed at the surprise on her grandfather's face. She moved her way through her family and opened the refrigerator getting out the pitcher of kool-aid and pouring another glass. She turned around and was about to go back to her seat with Sesshoumaru when her cousins came up to her. Kagome looked at them with a smile even though she wanted to roll her eyes so bad.
'Must be nice… must be nice…'
"So Kagome… Sesshoumaru is very attractive, quite a catch."
Kagome looked her cousin Sukai in the eyes… a hard look glinting in her usually happy eyes.
"Yes he is… but obviously, you don't marry for looks alone."
This was supposed to be the end of the conversation and Kagome began to push her way past her but Sukai grabbed her arm and said through narrowed eyes, "Just a thought, but how'd you two meet?"
Kagome twisted her arm free and looked over to Sesshoumaru who looked up and gave her a smile, causing her in turn to smile as she turned back to Sukai.
"I guess you could say it was an accident… The best accident I've ever made…"
With that Kagome pushed past her scheming, jealous cousins and sat back with her 'beloved' Sesshoumaru. She laughed along with everyone else when Sesshoumaru easily defeated her grandfather the 'king' of checkers. She smiled at him when he stood up and wrapped his arms around her from behind. She placed her hands on his and smiled at her family. Maybe this wouldn't be so bad after all. Her Mama walked in then and announced that dinner was ready… Sesshoumaru offered Kagome his hand which she gently took as he lead her to the dining room. He pulled out her chair and sat in the seat next to her, holding her hand underneath the table.
'Wow… either he's a really good actor, or he does harness some kind of weird feelings for me, kind of like myself…'
Kagome watched as her mother stood up and told everyone to bow his or her heads in prayer.
"We are thankful that everyone has reached it here safely, and for the food in which we are about to feast upon. Also we are proud to add a new member to our family, and announce an engagement, between Kagome and Sesshoumaru. Let them always be happy!"
Kagome smiled as her favorite uncle stood up with his glass raised and said, "Here, here!"
Her family applauded and Kagome felt the all too familiar blush spread its way across her cheeks, and the tightening of her hand under the table. She looked at Sesshoumaru who was looking into her eyes with fondness. Kagome felt her breath hitch in her throat, and her heart speed to an impossible rate.
'Definitely call it a deep infatuation… I wonder though… when we are alone, will he go back to normal? Will he change once we leave?'
Kagome decided to ignore those pesky thoughts for now and enjoy herself. After all, who wouldn't love the attention Sesshoumaru bestowed on them? Kagome laughed with her family as they began to tell old stories about each other. From time to time she even found Sesshoumaru smiling at the crazy things her family did. She noted, with some weariness, that he cousins seemed to REALLY take a liking to Sesshoumaru.
'Well that's just too bad, because he's mine!'
Kagome blushed and added as an afterthought… 'At least for a while…'
Kagome ate until she felt she would explode! She felt so fat, and yet, she was satisfied…
Being here with him like this, with her family felt right. She leaned her head against his shoulder as the hours ticked into the night. She felt him lay his arm across her shoulders and she sighed as she closed her eyes to savor the moment. To imprint it into her memories.
'Maybe… he can replace those pesky memories… and it can just me and him, and we both can finally find happiness…'
Kagome growled at all of the loaded comments that Sukai was sending Sesshoumaru, who always smirked down at her, knowing it was eating her up. Leaning down he lowly whispered, "A weed is no comparison to the flowers blossom…"
Kagome smiled at him and snuggled deeper into his shoulder, giving Sukai a triumphant glare.
After dinner, everyone helped clean up and Kagome's mother decided it was time to get them settled… Walking up the stairs she turned to her mother and said, "Mama where is Sesshoumaru going to sleep?" she turned to Sesshoumaru and said, "You see, Mama has this rule about people not sleeping together until they are marrie-"
"Nonsense!" Her mother cried, "Why! You two are practically married now, so feel free to share the room!"
Kagome looked at Sesshoumaru who was smirking at her and she gulped…
'Oh dear…'
She felt him grasp her waist and say, "It's bedtime… dear…"
She glared at him and muttered, "Jerk…" But she smiled softly.
'I wonder if we'll finish where we left off?'
That thought was quickly squashed when her head hit the pillow. She was knocked out and left Sesshoumaru to smile softly at her. He took her shoes off and tucked her in before changing into something more suitable for bed. Getting in he turned off the nearby lamp and welcomed the darkness that surrounded them. Grabbing hold to Kagome's form he stuck his face into her silky locks and breathed in the fresh clean scent and slowly drifted off to sleep.
Kinky huh?
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