CHAP FIVE: DINNER

Sara had called Grissom and asked him to come to her house for

dinner so they could talk and catch up on everything.
When he arrived she almost couldn't speak.

He was wearing a pair of jeans which showed off his nice ass, and a
short sleeved dark blue shirt that said property of the Las Vegas
Crime Lab on the front.

She laughed at his shirt, Jim had it made for Grissom for his last
birthday.
His hair was gelled and he smelled incredible.
"Hey come on in."
Grissom smiled and walked past Sara, when he did whatever he was

wearing she got a good whiff of and for a split second was in heaven.

" So Miss Sidle what did you cook for me?"
" Well steak, mashed potatoes and your favorite gravy with rolls."
Grissom was speechless, she had cooked him his favorite, and she
hated cooking meat.

" Sara you didn't have to do this, I know you don't like cooking meat
since your a vegitarian."
" Well I used to be a vegitarian I now eat meat once again."
" Really when did this happen?"
" Well I was starving and the only place around when I got off the
plane when I moved back here was a steakhouse and they had no veggie
dishes so I just tried it and realized that I like meat."

Grissom laughed," You are unpredictable."
Sara looked at the floor and said," So are you."

They ate and talked and asked questions about everything except what
happened to make Sara leave.

After they ate Grissom started helping Sara with the dishes.
While grabbing for a plate Sara and his hand collided, and lingered
together for a while.

When finally Grissom asked Sara," Why haven't asked me about what
happened Sara?"

Sara looked at him and then at the floor and said," Because I don't
think I want to know."
" What don't you want to know?"
" I don't want to know the facts, I know that you did what you did
and thats enough."

" Gosh Sara listen to yourself talk, If it was me walking in on you
and some guy I would want some answers."
" Well is wasn't you walking in on me and some guy was it Griss, it
was me walking in to find you naked in our bed with some girl from a
bar!"

" Look Sara I know you have questions, lets just get this out of the
way, please."
" You know what Grissom theres something I want you to hear, its a
song, and its true, its what I cant say to you, but if you'll listen
its everything you need to hear."

" Then let me hear it."
Sara walked and turned on her stereo and pressed play when she
turned around the music started and a tear fell from her eye, and
she whispered," Just listen please."

When the music started Grissom sat and listened to the words.

I've found peace of mind, I'm feeling good again
I'm on the other side, back among the living
Ain't a cloud in the sky
All my tears have been cried
And I can finally say

Baby baby stay
Stay right where you are
I like it this way
It's good for my heart
I haven't felt like this
In God knows how long
I know every thing's gonna be OK
If you just stay gone

I still love you and I will forever
We can't hide the truth
We know each other better
When we try to make it work
We both end up hurt
It ain't supposed to be that way

Baby baby stay
Stay right where you are
I like it this way
It's good for my heart
I haven't felt like this
In God knows how long
I know every thing's gonna be OK

If you just stay gone

When we try to make it work
We both end up hurt
Love ain't supposed to be that way

So baby baby stay
Stay right where you are
I like it this way
It's good for my heart
I haven't felt like this
In ooh in God knows how long
I know every thing's gonna be OK
If you just stay gone

I know every thing's gonna be OK
If you just stay gone

When the song ended Grissom didn't bother wiping his eyes he let his
tears fall.
He stood up to see Sara standing behind him.

He drew her in for a hug and whispered," I'm so sorry Sara and if
thats really what you want then I will, I'll stay gone, I just want
you to know that I love you and I never meant to hurt you."
Grissom could feel Sara shaking and did what broke his heart, he
walked away from her and towards the door to leave, never to return.
Sara had a new life, and he wasn't going to screw it up even if it
meant breaking his own heart he wanted Sara to be happy, even if
that meant without him.

As he reached to open the door he looked back at Sara and saw her
leaning against the wall with her arms around her stomach, and tears
streaming down her face.

He looked back in front of him and took a deep breath and walked out
and got into his car and left, not slowing down, and not looking
back.

TWO HOURS LATER AT A BAR IN DOWNTOWN SANTA MONICA

Grissom had went and played some pool at a downtown bar , and had
only had one beer, he promised that he wouldn't start drinking again,
and he wasn't going to.
When he went to the bar a blonde woman looked at him and smiled.
" So honey you got a girlfriend?"

" Nope, I'm all by myself, you got a boyfriend?"
" Yes, but I sure would love to go home with you tonight."
The woman winked at him and he remembered the night that got him in
trouble and he looked at the woman and said," Trust me its not worth
it, you'll get caught and ruin your life."

Grissom paid his tab and was walking to his car when his cell phone
rang. " Grissom?"
" Griss its Sara I need you to come back to my house."
" Why is everything OK, are you OK?"
" Yeah, I just need to talk to you, its important."

" OK, I'm on my way."

Ten minutes later Grissom knocked on Sara's door, when the door
opened Grissom didn't even have a chance to say anything, Sara
pulled him into the house and when the door shut his back was
against it and her mouth was on his, and her tongue was in his mouth.

Sara moaned into his mouth which he responded to with a moan of his
own.
When the kiss started to get extremely heated he pulled away out of
breath.

" Sara no."
" Why not."
" Because we cant do this anymore, you said it clearly tonight with
that song and I thought about it and you where right we cant be
together, we'll just hurt each other if we try, and love isn't
supposed to be that way Sara, and God knows that I've already hurt you too much."

Sara looked deeply into his eyes and said," I didn't mean that, I
need you, I want you Griss!"

Now was the time, he was going to make a choice,but what one would
he choose?

TO BE CONTINUED...

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Thanks ya'll! Oh and the music in this was by Jimmy Wayne, just had to put that in there for disclaimer purposes!

ASH